Jingmaster
Rising Star
It'd been at least six months since I ventured into the realm of spice but finally found myself with some spicijuana and have been trying to dive into it.
As I explained in a previous post, I seem to have quite a dominance of left brained wiring, which has always made breaking through more difficult. I've found that it's easier for me late at night when the left brain is tired and giving up control to the right side.
A few days ago I tired it, felt like I took a real good couple of inhales, but got very little effect, though some nice, more creative thinking. I tried a couple more times but had the sense that it just wasn't going to be my night.
Last night, after coming home feeling the neurotransmitter and mild MAOI effects of a new raw cacao product at work, I knew it was a perfect time to try again.
I took three good inhales and felt like for sure I was on my way up and out, but stayed totally in my body. This time though I was engulfed in relaxation and love, my whole body just melted in relief.
While still feeling heavy effects, I sat up and took one more big inhale. My heart was really pounding probably due in part to the cacao, part to the spice and part to the time of night, so I layed back down and just enjoyed the effects.
My mind was noticably altered as I had rapid ideas, pictures, phrases and artwork rattling through my mind the likes of which my normal more left brained mind rarely sees.
As I was already quite tired when I began, I ended up falling asleep with my light on.
The next morning, in the last dream sequence I can remember having before waking up, I began speaking to a few people in a crowd about health. Soon more and more people started listening and I ended up giving a very engaging talk to a large crowd.
When I woke up I was filled with gratitude. I am due to give a lecture in a few weeks and it's about health as I work in the natural health field. I've always been terrified of public speaking and it's been a bit frustrating to me in later years because even though I know how ridiculous a fear it is, it's such an old mental program that I've always had physical nervous reactions when I even come close to having to speak in front of a crowd.
This was definitely a therapeutic, healing dream, I feel much more comfortable with the presentation I'll be doing. Spice can heal in so many unexpected ways!
: )
JM
As I explained in a previous post, I seem to have quite a dominance of left brained wiring, which has always made breaking through more difficult. I've found that it's easier for me late at night when the left brain is tired and giving up control to the right side.
A few days ago I tired it, felt like I took a real good couple of inhales, but got very little effect, though some nice, more creative thinking. I tried a couple more times but had the sense that it just wasn't going to be my night.
Last night, after coming home feeling the neurotransmitter and mild MAOI effects of a new raw cacao product at work, I knew it was a perfect time to try again.
I took three good inhales and felt like for sure I was on my way up and out, but stayed totally in my body. This time though I was engulfed in relaxation and love, my whole body just melted in relief.
While still feeling heavy effects, I sat up and took one more big inhale. My heart was really pounding probably due in part to the cacao, part to the spice and part to the time of night, so I layed back down and just enjoyed the effects.
My mind was noticably altered as I had rapid ideas, pictures, phrases and artwork rattling through my mind the likes of which my normal more left brained mind rarely sees.
As I was already quite tired when I began, I ended up falling asleep with my light on.
The next morning, in the last dream sequence I can remember having before waking up, I began speaking to a few people in a crowd about health. Soon more and more people started listening and I ended up giving a very engaging talk to a large crowd.
When I woke up I was filled with gratitude. I am due to give a lecture in a few weeks and it's about health as I work in the natural health field. I've always been terrified of public speaking and it's been a bit frustrating to me in later years because even though I know how ridiculous a fear it is, it's such an old mental program that I've always had physical nervous reactions when I even come close to having to speak in front of a crowd.
This was definitely a therapeutic, healing dream, I feel much more comfortable with the presentation I'll be doing. Spice can heal in so many unexpected ways!
: )
JM
