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Hello ALL,

My name is Santos, I am a 45 year old Cuban American. I am an accountant, vegan and live with my partner and two rescued dogs in upstate NY. I have done more drugs that I am proud to say and have a lot (too much maybe) experience with psychedelics.

I came across this site looking for an Ayahuasca recipe for the harmala and mimosa I purchased online. After several failed attempts at the brew, I decided to do the extraction tek and smoke the DMT instead. Unfortunately, I do not think I have broken through yet. I purchased some caapi to give changa a shot, but have been sitting on it for about a week due to the fear factor and it's not 10x. I wake up each morning and tell myself "today is the day" but as the butterflies build, I put everything away and just read trip reports.

I have been a hardcore atheist for a long time, but after smoking DMT, I just don't know anything anymore. I read about others' experiences with Ayahuasca and decided to explore it further, mainly to help me establish a belief or at least an opinion on what may be or not be found after our bodies die. To date, I am still profoundly perplexed. I have never been a fearful person, and what I fear with DMT I can't really pinpoint. It has shaken me like nothing else and I have lost interest in other drugs accept mushrooms, which somehow, when on them, my fear of DMT decreases. I hope to break through soon.

Thanks for reading.

Santos
 
Very nice intro essay :)

Welcome!!

Did you try smoking DMT on mushrooms? I ask because I feel its a fantastic combo, they synergise so perfectly for me, and I also have less of the pre-dmt apprehension when im on mushrooms.

In any case, dont worry bro, take your time, there's no rush to breakthrough. Its good you have respect for this substance, I know its not about being fearful :)
 
Thanks endlessness,

I did smoked DMT on mushrooms, but I only had enough left for one hit and I screwed it up, so I may try again this weekend. Thinking about what you said makes sense, respect is a better word than fear for my apprehension. This is powerful stuff!
 
santos said:
Hello ALL,

My name is Santos, I am a 45 year old Cuban American. I am an accountant, vegan and live with my partner and two rescued dogs in upstate NY. I have done more drugs that I am proud to say and have a lot (too much maybe) experience with psychedelics.

I came across this site looking for an Ayahuasca recipe for the harmala and mimosa I purchased online. After several failed attempts at the brew, I decided to do the extraction tek and smoke the DMT instead. Unfortunately, I do not think I have broken through yet. I purchased some caapi to give changa a shot, but have been sitting on it for about a week due to the fear factor and it's not 10x. I wake up each morning and tell myself "today is the day" but as the butterflies build, I put everything away and just read trip reports.

I have been a hardcore atheist for a long time, but after smoking DMT, I just don't know anything anymore. I read about others' experiences with Ayahuasca and decided to explore it further, mainly to help me establish a belief or at least an opinion on what may be or not be found after our bodies die. To date, I am still profoundly perplexed. I have never been a fearful person, and what I fear with DMT I can't really pinpoint. It has shaken me like nothing else and I have lost interest in other drugs accept mushrooms, which somehow, when on them, my fear of DMT decreases. I hope to break through soon.

Thanks for reading.

Santos
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welcome santos!

forgive me sir but with the exception of your age 😉 lol I could have honestly thought I had wrote this myself.

like yourself my perception of everything is under extreme scrutiny thanks to my introduction to dmt. no longer an atheiest for sure but still perplexed by the questions and predicaments that such inner adventures seem to forecast upon ones mind.

yep, and other substances dont seem to have the same impact, novelty or intrigue as they once did.

and yeah nearly every other day is always "the day" for me but the fear, the butterflies and the unknown always have an uncanny ability to knock me off my stride lol.

your in good hands here and were glad to have you santos!

much respect and happy travels frend:wink:
 
Welcome, friend. No need to rush in. Take your time. Establish your relationship, read as much as you can, find the right vaporizing device and technique, and the breakthroughs will come, guaranteed.
 
Greetings Santos, and welcome to the Nexus!

Nice intro-dont worry friend, Im sure you can glean all the info you need to experience the joys that lie within here.

Think of mushrooms as a German Shepherd puppy; DMT is like the fully grown version.Enjoy your time here!
 
Welcome to the Nexus, Santos! Good luck with everything and like Art mentioned, just take your time building the relationship.
 
Thank you everyone!

I finally got over my apprehension today and tried again. This time I loaded 3 homemade pipes with 30mg each. Still did not break through! I watch "Through the Wormhole" with Morgan Freeman last night and it gave me the push I needed. I actually replayed it during my attempt and his voice was very comforting as I tripped and he spoke about the existence of God in the background. Great DMT visuals on the show. When I came back, I had torn my watch off my arm.

I just made the mini-machine and will try again in about an hour. I personally have to wait between hits to get the same effect.

I will post and report back on the mini-machine.

santos
 
corpus callosum said:
Greetings Santos, and welcome to the Nexus!

Nice intro-dont worry friend, Im sure you can glean all the info you need to experience the joys that lie within here.

Think of mushrooms as a German Shepherd puppy; DMT is like the fully grown version.Enjoy your time here!
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well, it all depends, some mushrooms journeys can be pretty rough if the setting isn't good. and some changa session a sweet paradise...

Welcome anyway ! Things like this takes time, and you will be rewarded if you choose to work with this molecule.

You will surely find what you are looking for if you don't give up !
 
Santos - if you have the means, a glass vapor genie and jet lighter will take ALL guess work out of the equation for you. It's the easiest, most effective method I've found, and a lot of others seem to agree.
 
I failed again! I get a pretty amazing journey though. I am thinking about buying this

item

Will it work? If not, where can I get the cheapest glass vapor genie? The cheapest I could find is 100.00 and that seems really high.

Thanks,
 
That might work. Seems awfully cheap, but there is no brand name attached, so it's likely some kind of DIY thing, or at best a crappy knock off.

The GVG ain't cheap, but it is the gold standard. If you are having trouble breaking through and want a method that is virtually idiot proof, this is the ticket. $100 and you'll be automatic. Just put 6-8 screens in it, then a small bed of leaf and your pre-measured dose on top, light with a $10 jet lighter and off you go. Just make sure you've got a convenient place to set it down gently, because it will hit like an atom bomb.
 
OK thanks,

I'm going to Woodstock Farm Sanctuary this Saturday and will look for the GVG in the town's headshops or buy it online if they don't have it. I am thinking about sharing the experience with an old girlfriend that has never done drugs other that pot and only a few times before, but she is very level headed and is doing her research. My partner does zero drugs and I feel a need to talk about the experience with someone that can relate. It sucks not having a sitter or a person that can help me breaking through. I still have a gram left and am not going to touch it until I get the GVG. I thinks I burnt a lot today with the 3 pipes and the min-machine. It's so frustrating, but I will not give up.
 
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