Welcome to the Nexus friend. I'm sure you'll fit in just fine here.

I agree that making it yourself and being patient is the way to go. I never had the chance to do this, but it was a good few years of waiting from hearing the stories to when I actually got to experience it by sheer luck and a spirit messenger in human form8) . I'm sure the spice will greet you when you're ready and it's ready. Even though I usually don't believe stuff like this, I think it has a sort of conciseness to it, within its physical form as well. Maybe an inert consciousness, who knows. :?