SpartanII
Rising Star
Hello, All
How inspiring it is to come across a community of such daring, creative, and energetic souls! And so much information! I’ve been reading/lurking for a few days and my head is spinning, in a good way though. I’m eager to learn and participate in the discussions.
I’m 30, married- no kids yet, and from the Midwest, USA. I’ve experienced intense and long lasting lucid dreams when I was a kid, and that I think forged an open-minded and curious attitude in me. I have a few memories of being really young and having “impossible things” happen to me, and of being really sick and experiencing entities communicating with me. Even though there’s a memory-fog around these events, my eyes still water when I think about them.
Even though I was raised Christian, I eventually strayed away from it because it just didn’t make sense to have so much fear in a message of love, so many suspiciously human attributes in a God that may or may not reward me with eternal bliss…or punish me with eternal torment. It made more sense that there would be many paths to the same Source, after all, are we not that Source, split into many spectrums of awareness, all Dreaming we are separate from each other and our world?
I researched many philosophies- Shamanism, Eastern Paths, Occult and magik, Alchemy, Astral Projection, Lucid Dreaming, meditation. I took a college course in Tai Chi and Chi Gong. I dabbled in a wide variety of highs and lows via LSD, marijuana, nitrous oxide, mushrooms, Salvia Divinorum, MMDA, Oxycodone, Heroin, Methadone- respectively.
In my early 20’s I was looking at a newborn rat while peaking on LSD- I could see so much detail! I think seeing the tiny little eyes rolling around in the sockets must have done it because I right then had an mystical experience of merging with infinity/ego-disruption /becoming everything… words don’t even come close lol.
At one point I got good at inducing OBE’s (out-of-body experiences) by taking some advice from a friend who was in charge of a Floatation Tank (sensory deprivation tank). I’m curious as to what a Spice-laced session in the tank would be like…
I had a few Salvia Divinorum breakthroughs, one in which I apparently passed through a wall like a ghost, and in another I communicated telepathically with an entity. Man, that Salvia is some weird stuff.
Been married and divorced, beat myself up for a while with guilt and anger, now I’m happily remarried and in Methadone Maintenance Treatment (which I have mixed feeling about) The research I’ve done on Ibogaine for opiate addiction and psychological/emotional/spiritual healing are very alluring but it’s illegal here in the US, not to mention very expensive for Mexican or Canadian treatment where it is legal. (maybe DMT can have a similar effect?) More research to do. Thankfully I found this site while researching DMT and Salvia experiences.
Anyways, to wrap it up, I’ve recently read Carlos Castaneda’s books and find the Toltec/Warriors Way very appealing. The practicality of saving emotional energy and aligning/focusing Intent to accomplish “miracles” intrigues me! I've also read Strassman's "DMT: The Spirit Molecule", and "Inner Paths to Outer Space". Loved them both. I plan on doing my best to balance my life in this world with my wife and family, while exploring other realities to possibly bring valuable information back with me, keeping love a priority, whatever reality I may be in.
Here are a few quotes from Castaneda’s books that I thought would go well with the DMT experience:
"A man goes to knowledge as he goes to war: wide-awake, with fear, with respect, and with absolute assurance. Going to knowledge or going to war in any other manner is a mistake, and whoever makes it might never live to regret it."
“We are men and our lot in life is to learn and to be hurled into inconceivable new worlds.”
“A warrior must learn to make every act count, since he is going to be here in this world for only a short while, in fact, too short for witnessing all the marvels of it.”
“The aim is to balance the terror of being alive with the wonder of being alive.”
“To seek freedom is the only driving force I know. Freedom to fly off into that infinity out there. Freedom to dissolve; to lift off; to be like the flame of a candle, which, in spite of being up against the light of a billion stars, remains intact, because it never pretended to be more than what it is: a mere candle.”
“Death is the only wise advisor that we have. Whenever you feel, as you always do, that everything is going wrong and you're about to be annihilated, turn to your death and ask if that is so. Your death will tell you that you're wrong; that nothing really matters outside its touch. Your death will tell you, 'I haven't touched you yet.”
Thanks for reading!
How inspiring it is to come across a community of such daring, creative, and energetic souls! And so much information! I’ve been reading/lurking for a few days and my head is spinning, in a good way though. I’m eager to learn and participate in the discussions.
I’m 30, married- no kids yet, and from the Midwest, USA. I’ve experienced intense and long lasting lucid dreams when I was a kid, and that I think forged an open-minded and curious attitude in me. I have a few memories of being really young and having “impossible things” happen to me, and of being really sick and experiencing entities communicating with me. Even though there’s a memory-fog around these events, my eyes still water when I think about them.
Even though I was raised Christian, I eventually strayed away from it because it just didn’t make sense to have so much fear in a message of love, so many suspiciously human attributes in a God that may or may not reward me with eternal bliss…or punish me with eternal torment. It made more sense that there would be many paths to the same Source, after all, are we not that Source, split into many spectrums of awareness, all Dreaming we are separate from each other and our world?
I researched many philosophies- Shamanism, Eastern Paths, Occult and magik, Alchemy, Astral Projection, Lucid Dreaming, meditation. I took a college course in Tai Chi and Chi Gong. I dabbled in a wide variety of highs and lows via LSD, marijuana, nitrous oxide, mushrooms, Salvia Divinorum, MMDA, Oxycodone, Heroin, Methadone- respectively.
In my early 20’s I was looking at a newborn rat while peaking on LSD- I could see so much detail! I think seeing the tiny little eyes rolling around in the sockets must have done it because I right then had an mystical experience of merging with infinity/ego-disruption /becoming everything… words don’t even come close lol.
At one point I got good at inducing OBE’s (out-of-body experiences) by taking some advice from a friend who was in charge of a Floatation Tank (sensory deprivation tank). I’m curious as to what a Spice-laced session in the tank would be like…
I had a few Salvia Divinorum breakthroughs, one in which I apparently passed through a wall like a ghost, and in another I communicated telepathically with an entity. Man, that Salvia is some weird stuff.
Been married and divorced, beat myself up for a while with guilt and anger, now I’m happily remarried and in Methadone Maintenance Treatment (which I have mixed feeling about) The research I’ve done on Ibogaine for opiate addiction and psychological/emotional/spiritual healing are very alluring but it’s illegal here in the US, not to mention very expensive for Mexican or Canadian treatment where it is legal. (maybe DMT can have a similar effect?) More research to do. Thankfully I found this site while researching DMT and Salvia experiences.
Anyways, to wrap it up, I’ve recently read Carlos Castaneda’s books and find the Toltec/Warriors Way very appealing. The practicality of saving emotional energy and aligning/focusing Intent to accomplish “miracles” intrigues me! I've also read Strassman's "DMT: The Spirit Molecule", and "Inner Paths to Outer Space". Loved them both. I plan on doing my best to balance my life in this world with my wife and family, while exploring other realities to possibly bring valuable information back with me, keeping love a priority, whatever reality I may be in.
Here are a few quotes from Castaneda’s books that I thought would go well with the DMT experience:
"A man goes to knowledge as he goes to war: wide-awake, with fear, with respect, and with absolute assurance. Going to knowledge or going to war in any other manner is a mistake, and whoever makes it might never live to regret it."
“We are men and our lot in life is to learn and to be hurled into inconceivable new worlds.”
“A warrior must learn to make every act count, since he is going to be here in this world for only a short while, in fact, too short for witnessing all the marvels of it.”
“The aim is to balance the terror of being alive with the wonder of being alive.”
“To seek freedom is the only driving force I know. Freedom to fly off into that infinity out there. Freedom to dissolve; to lift off; to be like the flame of a candle, which, in spite of being up against the light of a billion stars, remains intact, because it never pretended to be more than what it is: a mere candle.”
“Death is the only wise advisor that we have. Whenever you feel, as you always do, that everything is going wrong and you're about to be annihilated, turn to your death and ask if that is so. Your death will tell you that you're wrong; that nothing really matters outside its touch. Your death will tell you, 'I haven't touched you yet.”
Thanks for reading!
And thank you very much for taking the time to write such a well thought out introduction. Quite a journey you've been on thus far.
