its been couple years since you posted this but still if something has precious contents for us,it can get attention again.

you didn't write exact time of the trip and how much time is passed.

and you didn't explain those negative thoughts,its a problem of many reports i read,

people don't or maybe can't explain what they have been thinking.and therefore its hard for the reader to understand that situation.

and what exactly was that suicide subject?your words was so vague to me.

but anyway thanks for sharing