beyond-the-infinite
Rising Star
Greetings brothers and sisters at DMT Nexus. After lurking for about 2-3 days since my interest was once again piqued by the sacred spice, I believe I'm here to stay.
I'd like to start out by stating my intentions. I'm here to gain Spiritual insight through all of you, and this wonderful substance, and 'wonderful' seems infinitely dull comparing to what I've been reading and hearing about DMT. I thoroughly expect to treat it in a completely Sacred and respectful manner.
Recently, as of about 3 months, I've developed an extremely strong sense of Spirituality, and recently embarked Quest to seek knowledge on the subject, as well as Universal knowledge. It seems as if there's just an insatiable hunger burning inside of me to find the Truth. Not necessarily understand it, but more so accept it and live my life to that truth to the fullest extent if that makes sense to you. Ever since I was a child, I've always felt this 'disconnect' from what Humanity perceives as reality. Now that I look back on my childhood, which isn't that far off as I'm still young in terms of age, I've always felt as an observer. Always observing and expecting these observations to bring some type of realization to me through my recreational philosophizing.
Ever since my days in Middle School, that perceived disconnect I've always had began to get in the way. I was always trying to fit in to societal archetypes, which would help me in turn relate and understand my peers. This was simply a futile attempt, as that disconnect grew to a vast crater, and soon to an irreparable void. Throughout high school, I began some light experimentation with various substances, but definitely less on the Psychedelic side. While mild, I've experienced Mushrooms, LSA, and LSD once or twice, and while I did have some very profound experiences, I generally did not know what to make of them or how to interpret them, and thus they felt empty and without true purpose. It could have been my mind state towards the substances, my mind state towards myself, my mind state towards my environment, or even a combination of all three. This whole time I was also partaking in large amounts of Weed, and countless other opioids which could have effected my experiences.
Fast forwarding through the more boring and mundane parts of my life, I began a search that I had longed for throughout the young years in my life; some type of connection with something greater than myself, than my peers and acquaintances, and really humanity as a whole. It took a while, but after sifting through tons and tons of information regarding everything from 2012 doomsday prophecies, to aliens and government conspiracies, I began to have very profound realizations in my life which did not pertain to any of those subjects. You could say I began to develop a connection to source, the prime creator. I led a very negative and unproductive life in terms of Spirit, and it seemed as if one day a switch in my mind and soul flipped on, and I began on a trek through positivity, understanding, acceptance, and Love.
Through meditation, and with the help of my Father and Brother who seemed to be going through a very similar transition as my own at the moment, I began to find Peace and Tranquility within my self, but it seemed to be only temporary. It seemed as if there was another level I had to transcend, to get to the actual plane of understanding I would like to achieve in terms of consciousness. I don't belong to any particular creed or Religion, but I mostly take bits and pieces from many of them, such as Buddhist, Ayurvedic, Mayan, Aztec, and a combination of many Native American teachings, which have resonated with me. While somewhat satiating, I still felt as if something was missing. Thus begins my deepened interest and search through DMT.
While I haven't partaken in the sacred fruit, something draws and calls me towards it, as if I'm being pulled by some sort of ineffable cosmic web. As if this is what I'm searching for, and have been searching for all of my life, to gain a deeper sense of understanding towards the Universe and it's purposes. I've read through many experience reports with freebase N,N-DMT, 5-MeO-DMT, and the sacred Ayahuasca, and those experiences coincide what I feel as if I'm seeking, or at least a part of it. I don't believe that the truth lies solely in DMT and it's counterparts, but simply that it will lead me to find the truth, and a greater sense of purpose within these 3-Dimensional confines. Pardon my last statement if it had an aire of ignorance, but one thing I have understood in the past is that the truth isn't in one particular location, but more so everything as a whole collectively. I have procured a source which I believe is legitimate, and I'm hoping I'll be able to experience the wonder, beauty, and terrifying blessing of knowledge it has imposed on many, sometime next weekend. I was contemplating on waiting for my experience in which case I wold have thoroughly introduced myself on the Nexus, but I feel as if a sort of 'before and now' type of realization from the present to the future will help me understand what it is that I'm missing.
I appreciate everyone that reads through this, because it is an important aspect of my life that I try to fulfill each and every waking milli-second of my being, and in reality I'm not very open about, but it's so that you may understand my intentions. From my little essay it might seem like I'm a very serious person, but while extremely Introverted, I do enjoy and find comfort in humor. Particularly since mine can be a bit morbid at times. :twisted: :d
Thanks to everyone, I feel that soon I'll be able to achieve a connection to All, of which many of you already collectively possess, through this wonderful molecule we all know as DMT.
I'd like to start out by stating my intentions. I'm here to gain Spiritual insight through all of you, and this wonderful substance, and 'wonderful' seems infinitely dull comparing to what I've been reading and hearing about DMT. I thoroughly expect to treat it in a completely Sacred and respectful manner.
Recently, as of about 3 months, I've developed an extremely strong sense of Spirituality, and recently embarked Quest to seek knowledge on the subject, as well as Universal knowledge. It seems as if there's just an insatiable hunger burning inside of me to find the Truth. Not necessarily understand it, but more so accept it and live my life to that truth to the fullest extent if that makes sense to you. Ever since I was a child, I've always felt this 'disconnect' from what Humanity perceives as reality. Now that I look back on my childhood, which isn't that far off as I'm still young in terms of age, I've always felt as an observer. Always observing and expecting these observations to bring some type of realization to me through my recreational philosophizing.
Ever since my days in Middle School, that perceived disconnect I've always had began to get in the way. I was always trying to fit in to societal archetypes, which would help me in turn relate and understand my peers. This was simply a futile attempt, as that disconnect grew to a vast crater, and soon to an irreparable void. Throughout high school, I began some light experimentation with various substances, but definitely less on the Psychedelic side. While mild, I've experienced Mushrooms, LSA, and LSD once or twice, and while I did have some very profound experiences, I generally did not know what to make of them or how to interpret them, and thus they felt empty and without true purpose. It could have been my mind state towards the substances, my mind state towards myself, my mind state towards my environment, or even a combination of all three. This whole time I was also partaking in large amounts of Weed, and countless other opioids which could have effected my experiences.
Fast forwarding through the more boring and mundane parts of my life, I began a search that I had longed for throughout the young years in my life; some type of connection with something greater than myself, than my peers and acquaintances, and really humanity as a whole. It took a while, but after sifting through tons and tons of information regarding everything from 2012 doomsday prophecies, to aliens and government conspiracies, I began to have very profound realizations in my life which did not pertain to any of those subjects. You could say I began to develop a connection to source, the prime creator. I led a very negative and unproductive life in terms of Spirit, and it seemed as if one day a switch in my mind and soul flipped on, and I began on a trek through positivity, understanding, acceptance, and Love.
Through meditation, and with the help of my Father and Brother who seemed to be going through a very similar transition as my own at the moment, I began to find Peace and Tranquility within my self, but it seemed to be only temporary. It seemed as if there was another level I had to transcend, to get to the actual plane of understanding I would like to achieve in terms of consciousness. I don't belong to any particular creed or Religion, but I mostly take bits and pieces from many of them, such as Buddhist, Ayurvedic, Mayan, Aztec, and a combination of many Native American teachings, which have resonated with me. While somewhat satiating, I still felt as if something was missing. Thus begins my deepened interest and search through DMT.
While I haven't partaken in the sacred fruit, something draws and calls me towards it, as if I'm being pulled by some sort of ineffable cosmic web. As if this is what I'm searching for, and have been searching for all of my life, to gain a deeper sense of understanding towards the Universe and it's purposes. I've read through many experience reports with freebase N,N-DMT, 5-MeO-DMT, and the sacred Ayahuasca, and those experiences coincide what I feel as if I'm seeking, or at least a part of it. I don't believe that the truth lies solely in DMT and it's counterparts, but simply that it will lead me to find the truth, and a greater sense of purpose within these 3-Dimensional confines. Pardon my last statement if it had an aire of ignorance, but one thing I have understood in the past is that the truth isn't in one particular location, but more so everything as a whole collectively. I have procured a source which I believe is legitimate, and I'm hoping I'll be able to experience the wonder, beauty, and terrifying blessing of knowledge it has imposed on many, sometime next weekend. I was contemplating on waiting for my experience in which case I wold have thoroughly introduced myself on the Nexus, but I feel as if a sort of 'before and now' type of realization from the present to the future will help me understand what it is that I'm missing.
I appreciate everyone that reads through this, because it is an important aspect of my life that I try to fulfill each and every waking milli-second of my being, and in reality I'm not very open about, but it's so that you may understand my intentions. From my little essay it might seem like I'm a very serious person, but while extremely Introverted, I do enjoy and find comfort in humor. Particularly since mine can be a bit morbid at times. :twisted: :d
Thanks to everyone, I feel that soon I'll be able to achieve a connection to All, of which many of you already collectively possess, through this wonderful molecule we all know as DMT.
Welcome aboard! You won't be disappointed.