Hello from the Void

[VoidTJ]

Hey Nexians.
You may call me Void.
Why Void? Because I couldn't think of anything better

I've had another account here before with quite a few posts but I cannot for the life of me even begin to remember the email/username so I guess I'm starting anew.

My life has been a little different than most. I suppose that statement could cover anyone but what I mean is that I've had a tendency of seeing things that others don't.

Not that I have any medical condition or anything, on more than a few occasions I have had other people with me verify they've seen or felt the same things.

I'm not sure what you want to call them .. Spirits, Ghosts (I hate that word), etc.
I seem to have had run ins with these things as far back as I can remember.

It's not so much that these spirits or whatever you call them capture my interest but more so that it seems apparent to me there's more beyond this veil we call our physical world.

My current girlfriend is amazing. We have a great relationship and everything just clicks perfect.
She's experienced DMT in the past but you could say she's not as "all about it" as I am. That doesn't matter though. My reason for bringing her up is that it seems that since I've gotten with her, my "experiences" seem to be getting more real and more frequent.

Ayahuasca/DMT amaze me in many ways but one of the main things is that the vibes I get while experiencing these teachers are very similar to the vibes I've gotten with other non-psychedelic but just as strange experiences.

I've taken a break from the tryptamines and Ayahuasca for a bit while I got my head straight. Too much going on in my life led to a good bit of anxiety, depression and other feelings that do not go well with that space. Finances encompass the majority of the root.

Things are getting much better now as far as life is concerned but now I feel like I'm missing something. It's like a flame inside of me has died. Ayahuasca has a tendency to spark this fire and drive it for a long time after a single use.

I'm ready to get back in touch with this bliss, mystery, awe and everything else that Ayahuasca and DMT instill.

Beyond that I intend on "studying" these substances in a way to try to understand "life" (or the illusion of) as well as the experiences that I've had in my life.

I'll stop here and follow up in other more focused posts.

Hello Nexians! I can't wait to learn together!

 

[DMiTria]

Hello Nexian and welcome,

I've had similar things happen to me but that was after the start of my Journey into the Higher Dimensions. I see people's Spirits whether they are demonic or angelic. These are things that have become apparent to me whether I'm on a psychedelic or not. Sometimes I tell people that and they ask me what their Spirit looks like. I feel I don't have the right to tell them that because they need to experience and to see it themselves in the rawness of their own being.

As for the research there is a lot of good threads here on the Nexus as well as the Ayahuasca.com web page and a great place to start is here.

 

[Intezam]

Hello :thumb_up:

 

[Light On The Earth]

8) Hello! :thumb_up:

 

[Ben Frank]

Hey Void welcome back!

I like your word choice as when I meditate and let my thoughts flow through my mind I am able to notice for brief moments a pause in thinking. I know what these thoughts are as I meditate, but in between the moments of nothingness they seem to pop up as if they came from a 'void'. The origination of our conscious thoughts is something that intrigues me. You mentioned the veil of our physical reality that seems to overlay our spiritual existence and I wonder if you are hinting that you have encountered the 'veil' while under dmt?

As far as seeing things of a spiritual nature, which I am hesitant to discuss, during one experience with mushrooms I saw colors emanating from around people's eyes and thought, whatever, I was tripping. After many more psychedelic experiences including dmt I now see some kind of energy from people's eyes and I have been relatively sober now for almost two years and it still persists to where I try to avoid too much eye contact with people because I don't know if they can see in me what I can see in them. When I smoke cannabis now it brings me back to a tripping state where this seeing of energies and feeling of connectedness becomes more intense. There are many who would say it is nonsense and everything is a purely physical existence, but just as our dream world feels real while we are sleeping so too does this world feel real while we are awake. I firmly believe that our consciousnesses are fragments of a much larger consciousness that transcends this universe and everything we perceive to be physically existing in our world are but ideas in its' mind.

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"While I can be confident about many things, I can be absolutely certain of nothing." ~Socrates~

 

[VoidTJ]

You mentioned the veil of our physical reality that seems to overlay our spiritual existence and I wonder if you are hinting that you have encountered the 'veil' while under dmt?

I've experienced it full-bore via DMT but not only then.
This subject is one that can pull many flames and arguments but personally I'm on both sides.
There's people that say this world we experience is the one true world.
Others say it's just an illusion and completely fake.
I say, why can't we all just get along ?

I'm not sure but to me it seems that there's multiple levels to reality. That what we normally experience is just as real as what we only can via meditation and other method of altering our consciousness.

I firmly believe that our consciousnesses are fragments of a much larger consciousness that transcends this universe and everything we perceive to be physically existing in our world are but ideas in its' mind.

Ditto

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In the end I'm really not sure what to believe 100%.

I have my theories. A lot of my interest in DMT isn't just from things I've seen on it but things I've experienced in my life that carry the same kind of vibe.

I suppose I'm back here and back into Ayahuasca to try to see if I'm just crazy or if my thoughts are right.

I'm not afraid to sound crazy.
Most "crazy" experience I've had have luckily been confirmed by having other people around me so I'm sure it's not just all in my head.

One experience however involved one night we were camping (my & my fiance).
I was sitting in the woods kicking back a few beers when in the distance I saw an old man.
I thought this guy was one of the neighbors of the people that gave us permission to camp there and that we'd accidentally gone onto his property.

As he approached, I started to apologize for trespassing if we had and he said "Don't worry, that's not why I'm here".

That night we were discussing essentially what I'd said "Ditto" to up there.
The old man brought up the discussion we were having and told me "it's all true".
The thing about my (then girlfriend) at the time is, she was a little tipsy and I don't think she actually believed what was coming out of her mouth.

The old guy proceeded to tell me that I must figure out the truth.
The impression was that he wanted me to well, pretty much figure it all out (quite a task I must add).

I told him that "she would never understand" (my obsession with knowing) and he said "help her".

After that he vanished and I looked at my fiance and asked her "where did he go?"
She says "who?".
I say "the old man I was just talking to."
She then says "you weren't talking to anyone. I had asked you a question and you stopped in the middle of it to ask me where the guy you were speaking with went."
She was right to an extent - I did stop in the middle of answering a question.
What I realized was that it was awful bright while I was talking to the guy.
We had three torches surrounding us and I realized the whole time he was there, they never flickered and she never moved an inch nor said a word. It was like time stood still around us.

I started to wonder if the beer was contaminated D) or something and kind of blew it off for the night but when we woke up, I couldn't help my curiosity.

I walked to where the old guy had first appeared. There was a perfect circle in the weeds with no path leading to it, only a path leading from it to me the exact way he walked up.

I'm sure this was real but the meaning behind it took a long time to really click.
What that is I can't really put into words. Think of trying to come out of a DMT trip and explain it all in a lucid manner in under 20 pages. Good luck.

I'm sure some people may read this and say "what a nut" but I assure you, I'm not.

Events before that struck my curiosity but that specific one has been what's driving my current search for knowledge and one of the main reasons I decided to get back into tryptamines.

 

[Ben Frank]

I'm not sure but to me it seems that there's multiple levels to reality. That what we normally experience is just as real as what we only can via meditation and other methods of altering our consciousness.

I agree. If we can experience through our bodies or our minds it is real to us, we can not be entirely sure that other people see what is real as being the same as we do. It is subject to our perception. This is why we scientifically will never truly have all the answers about humanity/human nature because we can not remove our selves from the subject, which is us. I believe there is some sort of absolute 'truth' about the ultimate nature of our reality, but I am not sure that we will ever be able to collectively quite put our finger on it.

There's people that say this world we experience is the one true world.
Others say it's just an illusion and completely fake.
I say, why can't we all just get along ?

Well this is certainly the only true world we can reach a consensus on as existing. We do rely on physical external senses to interpret this world with our minds however. We can not use our minds alone, disembodied if you will, to directly survey this world we live in. There may be more in existence here than what we are capable of comprehending or sensing. That much should not be debatable. As far as people saying the world is an illusion and maybe fake are more subjective feelings than anything.

In the end I'm really not sure what to believe 100%.

I believe if we did somehow have all the answers it would in some way defeat the purpose of our existence. Which I believe is to come to know there is in fact more out there than what we can corroborate physically with others, like a personal journey of sorts. This is why I am on this forum, to relate my experiences with those of others in the hopes of ascertaining some type of truth as you mentioned.

I'm sure I'm not "crazy" experience I've had have luckily been confirmed by having other people around me so I'm sure it's not just all in my head.

Whenever we start to challenge the status quo and suggest that there may be more to our reality than what we perceive many people will think it sounds a little crazy sure, but the sad thing is most of those people also haven't really questioned their own existence and therefore cannot fully appreciate what they have.

I believe your camping experience and actually have one of my own. I was remotely camping in the mountains with three friends and we were having a good time and we had a campfire goin' pretty good as there was no wind. The three friends of mine had each taken several hits of acid and I remained sober to be the 'rock' of the group and help out if there trips started goin' south. It came time to prepare food and we each started doin' our own thing in front of the campfire. I got the idea to run and jump over my friends food from where I was standing just inside the woods. So I began to run and almost felt like I was flying as I came up on the little stove with food I leapt over fine but as I came down I sort of kicked some irrelevant camping gear and as I did I felt this great sense of some sort of invisible presence that permeates everything in existence including a feeling of great awareness. At the same time this happened, our fire that was burning nicely next to us, went completely out to point of just a few embers. All three friends stopped what they were doing, looked at the now extinguished fire, and back at me in bewilderment. One asked if I knew what I just did, and because I had a feeling as if I had been found out about something, played it off and said yeah I just accidentally kicked some of our camping gear. They replied, no, you put the fire out. I can't explain how it could be possible, but my friend who saw it and is the most experienced traveler of us said things that happen like that are usually a sign that one is on the 'right path'.

The old guy proceeded to tell me that I must figure out the truth.
The impression was that he wanted me to well, pretty much figure it all out (quite a task I must add).
I told him that "she would never understand" (my obsession with knowing) and he said "help her".

I do believe, as you can tell so far, that there is more going on in the world than what others are typically aware of in their day to day lives and may be stuck in a sort of looping existence if you will and they will continue to have physical lives and those that see beyond the 'overlay' of our world as you call it may be destined to experience some other type of realm in the future. It may be the role of those that can see to help those that cannot, very gently though. My wife is fully aware of my explanation of this, but is one of those that is perfectly content with this type of physical existence and wouldn't mind coming back to it. I do not argue with her about it, it is her choice.

I'm sure this was real but the meaning behind it took a long time to really click.
What that is I can't really put into words. Think of trying to come out of a DMT trip and explain it all in a lucid manner in under 20 pages. Good luck.

I have actually tried this during, and after, and the short answer is it doesn't work. I believe there is knowledge that is gleaned in that tripping world that we are not 'allowed' to bring back to this one.

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"I can be confident about many things, but absolutely certain of nothing." ~Socrates

 

[smokerx]

Welcome Back What a shame you forgot your first nick name. Have you been promoted ? Maybe if you asked Trav he may be able to find out for you ? Do not know if that's possible though.

 

[VoidTJ]

Welcome Back What a shame you forgot your first nick name. Have you been promoted ? Maybe if you asked Trav he may be able to find out for you ? Do not know if that's possible though.

I thought about it. I kind of expected a no though it would be nice.
I also saw the new post about members being able to vote people in so figured I'd see how it'd play out.