Hello i know this site has a special purpose for me :)

[luciernaga]

I am not going to make this a long testament. I always wanted to experiment a trip of discovery, since i was a little girl, i experimented the feeling of know people and places from another time. the time pass and i decided just to let it be...live life, and wait until i were ready mentally. i practice meditation, and try to be compassionate, maybe that helps...maybe this was the right time.

The time came, and all kind of answers came to me. i travel far away, and it was scary at the beginning, the sensation of knowing ur being pulled for this energy\force and u can't stop it from happening. i traveled far away, see people from other times, i lost contact with my body and i see meself as pure energy and everything made sense....i think my soul was ready, but the breakthrough was hard, i don't think is easy for anyone, there were voices that told me, that reality was real and this one was creation of my mind, and the feeling of living in a lie was the most horrendous one...but maybe manageable if u open your mind... once i realized i need it to stop resisting the trip everything changed for good :+_

i tried salvia 15x and in my 1st trip i went up to level 5. it was a life changing experience, it was painful and the most beautiful feeling once i knew where i was...i could control everything, i even could control my body from the other side to the 2012 side, there was this voice that told me to talk, to tell the date and my name so it can be recorder in the 2012 world, i started talking, but i wasn't there., i knew i was in the other world, but i knew i could communicate with the 2012 world if i want to, it was the most great/amazing thing, can u imagine?
...i don't know how typical is this for a beginner, but i did it. like i said i travel dimensions, think and create stuff with my mind and knew i was in a advance place, i knew too when it was time to come back to this plane..

the second trip was less intense and better, maybe because i knew what to expect....again i got nervous/scared when i started feeling my counciousness leaving my body, i felt my body getting heavy, like in a deep trance, it was scary just because i knew i could not stop it, so i just took a deep breath and enjoy it. again i went to level 5, this time also i merged with the nature, i feel free, i received all kinds of messages...i just see good stuff.

during my 2 sessions i was unmoved, staring and smiling a little bit, looks like i was dreaming with my eyes open and i closed my eyes @ times, there are things i don't remember from doing like grabbing my dog and hug him and kiss him but the whole time i was like in a deep trance stage.


and i remember everything, everything is so fresh in my mind, at least the lessons or messages i needed to know, i am soo grateful, i could go to the place i knew it exist. but to confirm it, is a amazing feeling. i also can say, i sure know u have to have a strong mind to handle all this experiences, it can be too much for some poeple.

i will keep sharing my experiences, i am so happy i found this place, and share my experiences with people that can relate to them.

 

[Guyomech]

Sounds like you had some very profound, immersive experiences. Sometimes when building up toward a breakthrough you will experience all kinds of doubts and insecurities. For example, doubting the realness of the experience- or even interpreting it as some kind of false reality, as you did- that's not unusual, and when it happens you just need to push through. In fact much of the experience (or possibly all of it) is generated within the brain- but that doesn't make it less real.

The brain is a supremely sensitive organ, and the experiences we have, although heavily filtered and interpreted by the brain, are always reflections of one level of reality or another. In a case where your entire experience is simply a reflection of your internal state of mind, remember that everything in your mind is derived from your personal history, your interaction with consensus reality. So no matter what, your internal experiences have at least some reflection of the larger world.

Remember that you are real, as much as anything can be in the human experience, and your thoughts and experiences are real, legitimate and valuable perspectives of the universe we live in.

Welcome to the Nexus, we look forward to hearing more!

 

[StrangeSleep+herMr]

I feel that we may have similar experiences. At least mine are similar to yours up until you pushed through. As soon as I accepted what happened to me it stopped.. So maybe DMT will help since it hasnt come back via my sleep. Or maybe it isnt time quite yet.. You said you remember things from another time. ? I had dreams like this when I was.. somewhere between 6-8 yrs old.. that I was a young boy in a town, like a desert town from the middle east, or like it would like in a movie from biblical times. walking up the 'street' and then being chased by guards or some kind of officials. They wanted to kill me bc of who my father was even though I knew he was good. I think he had been murdered. But I kept saying maybe to myself, " Im not a boy, I'm a girl!" " See? I have long hair, I'm a girl!" while i ran from them.. I was young, I didnt understand that they couldnt see 'me'. I had other important dreams when I was young.. this one repeated many times though. I would wake up and pace the halls crying and my parents would have to convince me I wasn't there, that it was a dream. I feel I have a specific path ahead of me, too...



You can read my intro essay if you want to read my sleep experiences that felt similar to what dmt might feel like.. though I havent taken dmt yet.