Ok here goes - i've been aware of the nexus forum for a while now but i've only recently decided to dig deeper and join up. I've had a good read of the FAQ and attitude sections and i'm very impressed with the maturity and collaborative ethos behind the website. I've been slowly gravitating towards DMT/ ayahuasca for a couple of years now and i'm finally ready to take the plunge.
More about me - i'm a 30 year old male, living in London UK who has had a run of seriously bad health for almost 7 years now. It all started when I was a fresh faced 23 year old, not long out of university and working in my first professional job. However after a routine blood test it was discovered that I was carrying a nasty virus (would rather not go in to detail). I then had to undergo an intensive 6 month drug routine which successfully cleared the virus but unfortuantly that was only the start of my problems. I then began to develop a series of unrelated symptoms which have persisted to this day and continue to ruin my life. I've been to see doctors countless times, had every blood test/ scan under the sun and all I get is lots of confused looks and scratched heads.
In all this time I have been physically unable to work, see my friends, have lost 4 stone in weight, hardly ever leave the house and am in bad physical skull-crashing pain all day long. My mood is very low and I am beginning to lose hope that I will ever get better and have a normal life again. A few years ago I was tempted to try dmt/ayahuasca but decided to leave it as I was still hopeful that I would be cured by conventinal means. That point has been and gone and now I am ready.
Through all of this I have looked deep at myself and my beliefs and have recently become alot more meditative about the transcience nature of reality and human consciousness. This has been a long and hard journey and my resolve has been severely tested but it has made me become a more spiritual and caring person. I have a good grasp on Jungian psychology and have recently experimented with lucid dreaming in an attempt to heal myself within a dreamstate - but without any success.
In terms of my drug history I have had plenty of experience of cannabis, although I stopped smoking it as well as tobacco 4 years ago now in an attempt to try and get better. I also stopped drinking alcohol round about the same time. I've also taken mushrooms a couple of times and had quite good experiences both times.
What I am attempting to do is to reach out for some advice/ information on whether dmt/ayahuasca could potentially help to physically heal me? If I feel like it is worth going ahead with I plan to take some in the company of my father who is a bit of an old hippy, as well as being a very wise & knowledgeable man, as he could help guide me and keep me feeling safe.
Well there it is....hopefully someone can help me on this quest for health. Thanks for taking the time to read.
More about me - i'm a 30 year old male, living in London UK who has had a run of seriously bad health for almost 7 years now. It all started when I was a fresh faced 23 year old, not long out of university and working in my first professional job. However after a routine blood test it was discovered that I was carrying a nasty virus (would rather not go in to detail). I then had to undergo an intensive 6 month drug routine which successfully cleared the virus but unfortuantly that was only the start of my problems. I then began to develop a series of unrelated symptoms which have persisted to this day and continue to ruin my life. I've been to see doctors countless times, had every blood test/ scan under the sun and all I get is lots of confused looks and scratched heads.
In all this time I have been physically unable to work, see my friends, have lost 4 stone in weight, hardly ever leave the house and am in bad physical skull-crashing pain all day long. My mood is very low and I am beginning to lose hope that I will ever get better and have a normal life again. A few years ago I was tempted to try dmt/ayahuasca but decided to leave it as I was still hopeful that I would be cured by conventinal means. That point has been and gone and now I am ready.
Through all of this I have looked deep at myself and my beliefs and have recently become alot more meditative about the transcience nature of reality and human consciousness. This has been a long and hard journey and my resolve has been severely tested but it has made me become a more spiritual and caring person. I have a good grasp on Jungian psychology and have recently experimented with lucid dreaming in an attempt to heal myself within a dreamstate - but without any success.
In terms of my drug history I have had plenty of experience of cannabis, although I stopped smoking it as well as tobacco 4 years ago now in an attempt to try and get better. I also stopped drinking alcohol round about the same time. I've also taken mushrooms a couple of times and had quite good experiences both times.
What I am attempting to do is to reach out for some advice/ information on whether dmt/ayahuasca could potentially help to physically heal me? If I feel like it is worth going ahead with I plan to take some in the company of my father who is a bit of an old hippy, as well as being a very wise & knowledgeable man, as he could help guide me and keep me feeling safe.
Well there it is....hopefully someone can help me on this quest for health. Thanks for taking the time to read.
