Hey and welcome Skyjoshin,

you stated that you have the desire to make a change. You have the materials to make the medicine. You are already meditating. You have clearly put in both work and effort and have nearly made it to the start of your new journey!

Spend a lot of time reading through the site as many questions have been asked, discussed and answered here already. Hang around and there is always chat for direct communication.

Best of luck.