OK. It appears that I have offended you. You're not quite understanding what I'm saying. You seem to be getting a bit emotional about this, and I was simply trying to put my thoughts into words. I've said all along that my beliefs and views are intensely personal and are related to my background and how I was brought up. This is extremely complex and I seem to have failed to explain it sufficiently, so I'll avoid using 'christian' terms.

I DO NOT call myself a chistian. And when I say I ignore the atrocity and hypocricy, I mean that there were positive and negative elements that I was exposed to from a very young age. During the personal evaluation that I've experienced during my psychedelic experiences, I've managed to sift out the lies and manipulations and other dross and form a core of beliefs that I am comfortable with. This was a very cathartic experience because I had very ambivalent feelings towards my experiences with religion and cults throughout my childhood and teenage years. I have come to terms with the abuse and twisted words and have managed to find a few peices of goodness, a few 'diamonds in the rough' that I can use to make my life and the lives of those around me better. It's not so much that I'm ignoring the bad, but I'm not allowing them to influence me. There is a pretty big difference I guess, sorry if my words lead you astray. It is a way of living, not a philosophy or religion. I lack the words to explain properly.

All I am trying to do is figure out my place in the universe, and to understand as much of it as possible. It's mainly the reason why I undertake psychedelic journeys, and why I'm so interested in DMT. I have experienced the divine in many ways, and I seek to find it in every place. Sometimes you have to look deeply into something to find it; but I feel you can find benefit and make yourself a better person no matter what. A lot of this is fundamental stuff that I try and put into practice every day of my life. It's what helps me sleep at night.

I will repeat something I said earlier: "I like your Christ but not your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ." ~ Ghandi.