Hello, sincere introduction

[FleeT]

Hello everyone out there in the Nexus. I am FleeT, Flee To 'There'. Lame I know lol I guess at the time when I created my name I just wanted to get away from here, I still do. Anyways I wanted to create this introduction because I think I finally crossed to the point where I've made the decision to try DMT. The thing is now that I've made that decision the questions are setting in more than when I was just curious about trying it. Before I was just curious, did a lot of reading and watching but now I've made the decision to actually do it.

So far I've had a few good trips. I've tripped off of mushrooms multiple times and had some of the best experiences ever. They allowed me to reach a state of mind that is incredibly glorious and I love them. I've done acid a few times and it's the only time I've come close to experiencing ego death. One particular LSD trip in general was the strongest psychedelic experience I've had so far. It was so powerful that I never would do more than one tab at a time now if I ever do it again. Also the vasoconstriction does something horrible to me.

It turns the veins on the inside of my hands completely blue. The last time I was on it I could see the veins in every single one of my finger tips completely blue. I didn't like that shit at all. Maybe that's normal for some but that just doesn't set well with me at all, not to mention I'm not really the healthiest person. Mind you it's my body that I'm concerned about not the mind state. As far as the mind goes the experiences were beautiful, some of the best day's I've had since I was a small child with no concerns in the world that's why I still love it.

So lately I've been thinking about DMT. My curiosity really started after I came to the conclusion that I just spoke about above. Every since I tried LSD the reality of death is just that much more real to me. I'm not going to lie the thought of it bothers me and it's a bit embarrassing to admit it. My main concern is will DMT make this even worse or will it make me feel better about it? The first time I try it I don't think I'm going to be looking to breakthrough as it probably won't happen anyway. So from experienced users I just would like to know what can a person expect as far as change in reality after a small dose of DMT?

 

[What a substance]

OK FleeT. First some empathy on the LSD ? hands turning blue. I once tripped LSD in a pub (bar if you are outside the UK) and chanced upon my reflection in a mirror. My face was beetroot purple. This told me why I was certain people had been staring at me. It was a reaction to the composition of the LSD. I left the pub (bar) sat in my car, thought it was a submarine (which I am not qualified to operate) so ended up in a taxi. I digress. DMT! I am not an expert. I am 3 or 4 months new. I made a hash of vapoursing some good white crystals I extracted. I burnt the crystal while sat on my bed, inhaling. The tiny bit I did inhale (on a sunny day) made my ceiling texture into a mottled rainbow...I had a buzzing in my ears for a minute or so. From experience with other psychedelics I knew DMT would be a mighty, mighty powerful bad ass (n a good way). I have had other small doses and things/beings seem to desire to introduce themselves from the outskirts of your peripheral vision. They are not harmful. Only your fear and anxiety is harmful. I have since had bigger doses and to say you should expect a change in reality is an understatement. That said, there are clearly some warrior heroes on here that one can only admire...their approach is fearless. Mine was fearsome, but intrepid. Start small, build up, calibrate yourself, have courage and remember...just breathe.

 

[Pandora]

Hello FleeT,

Welcome to the Nexus. Great to have a new, thoughtful member, sign up.

I'm no expert, but it pretty much sounds like you should either quit using LSD or find a new source. Your reaction sounds rather extreme to me, but not unheard of. I am no expert on vasoconstriction but I do know it can be very uncomfortable to downright scary.

Which brings me to my next point. If you are not in tip top health, DMT may not be the drug for you. It has a fairly heavy body load that users tend to amplify with what is sometimes called pre-launch anxiety. It can and will raise both heartrate and blood pressure.

I would say that DMT at decent doses does have a reputation for inducing ego-deaths, but mainly I would say that you should try to go in with all assumptions on hold. In my experience, DMT tends to give me what I need rather than what I think I want.

Even small amounts of DMT, correctly vaped in a short amount of time can radically distort reality and induce a heavy tripping state reminiscent (to me) of a very very heavy LSD dose. But, DMT at even midlevel doses tends to take me deeper. It induces a trance and believable, immersive, 3D gorgeous geometric visions. Sometimes at higher doses it is indescribably beautiful and so separates me from being in true physical touch with my body that I am convinced I am dead. Basically it feels like it blows or launches my spirit right out of my body.

I hope this helps, but I know what will help most is just continuing to read and research.

Also, I cannot recommend extracting your own DMT enough. It removes so many concerns and questions and gives you a decent amount to work with. You can find extraction teks for various plant based entheogens in the wiki link above.

Okay, here's hoping your journey has just begun. Again, welcome to the Nexus.