Thanks for the kind notes :d

You should see a film called "Raw For Life", they give you all the information on how healthy it is to live on a raw, vegan diet, it actually can cure diabetes in many cases! I work in a produce department so I am sure where all of my food is coming from and I always buy the local stuff when I can (it tastes SO much better). I get to take home the free, outdated salads and the like as well- pretty good deal for a vegan!

I'm trying celibacy for a change and by no means do I want (at least at this stage) to do this indefinitely, it's a temporary experiment unless it develops into something deeper. I wanted to make the change because I know my past habit (based on environment and choice) of objectifying and dehumanizing women into some sexual material is gravely incorrect. How can I come to an overstanding of the human being if I am viewing one half as an object of sexual gratification? I've seen some good results in my behaviour and thoughts and have been watching and analyzing for signs of damage.

I overstand that to suppress a feeling only serves to strengthen it, so I am not dogmatically celibate. I'm just sort of "sex fasting" as a detox from old bad behaviours and an attitude that MUST be done away with. I really appreciate getting your perspective on the issue though, I usually can't see all facets of a subject myself so some input from others is highly valued. Thanks.

These recent self improvements have all been a move to balance, I am striving to balance the triad of mind/body/soul as best I can. I've been optimizing myself because I overstand change must come from within and my outer state was a mirror image of my inner soul-sickness. I guess I should have spoken in my intro about the intense anxiety and depression issues I struggled with during high school. I was quite violent and did terrible things, unthinkable to who I am now. That was a good lesson on how circumstance can shape a mind and make a person do things utterly inconceivable. Marijuana was the biggest help to me, it gave me a lift that I could not see to provide for myself. Presently, due to my increased awareness and effort these problems are almost completely dealt with. When I was ready, my teachers appeared  I'd like to go to Mexico next winter for an Iboga ceremony that I'm hoping will wash away the vestigial anxiety and intermittent depression I still medicate when necessary. I believe in cures, not medicine whenever possible- so that's the plan.

I have big plans to help and heal the planet and it's sentient denizens, but I must first be healed myself to be a healer

Thanks for the attention amigo!

I'll throw in some interests in this intro too, been a while since I've done one, but I feel like it's nice to get yourself under the magnifying glass

I love: photography, writing, learning, being OUTside, creating culture, observing culture, cultivating life (vivaria, plants), psychonautics, thinking, and other things of this nature.