meatsim
Shaman
Hi!
First of all, thank you all for making the nexus such a great source of information and support! I've been reading the forums and wiki for a few months, but decided to create an account just now
So my introduction to DMT was in the movie Enter the Void some while back, I didn't really care much about it at the time; however, when I got a chance to get a hold of some spice this summer I seized the opportunity to try it out.
The first experience was when doing pharmahuasca together with some friends about two months ago. I didn't really know what to expect, but I'm a very open-minded person so I pretty much dove into it. The experience profoundly changed my life. No words will justify what I learned from the medicine, but I know ineffability is the rule for DMT experiences.
I was shown so much about the cycle of life for humans, animals and nature. It made me understand what really matters, and made me realize that I had been living as a 10% human being up until that date. It was nothing short of being given the red pill by morpheus from the matrix. I was reminded about my love for the people around me, and the importance of enjoying every moment, and not always looking ahead for something better when I have all I need right in this moment. My mind was reset to the state it was in when I was a child: curious, loving, happy and free from the modern society materalism.
Throughout the experience, my subconsciousness took the form of a guide that showed me around in my past. I was shown very specific episodes from my past that I couldn't make out the meaning of, since I couldn't recall any of it happening. One was set in my first home and pictured my mother lying bleeding in the shower with my younger sister and I in the room screaming. Another image was of my mom, sister and I with my mom holding a third baby (which is weird as I have only one sibling as far as I knew at the time). For some reason I got the feeling that this third kid had died.
A week or so later, I smoked DMT. I visited somewhere very strange and was met by strange blue beings. One of them was in a hurry and gesticulated to me to make me follow it, as if it had something very important to show me. It showed me a crib with three identical babies: two normal looking, and the third one absolute black (as if it was dead or ruined).
These were very deep experiences, but it didn't get any less overwhelming when I confronted my mother with a few well thought-out questions and it turned out that she had an abortion many years ago that I never knew about, but somehow I obviously felt connected to this unborn child that was supposed to be my brother or sister. She also informed me that my dad had hit her on one occasion, making her land in the shower and pass out. This happened when I was about 12 months old (!), she told me.
I've also decided to pursue a different career as a result of these experiences.
I'm still unable to comprehend how all this information suddenly came to me, but am amazed and forever happy for the value I have gotten out of this simple compound. Many mental barriers I used to have are now gone. I've told most of my grown up friends and family about the experience, since I'd like for everyone to have such an experience themself.
The fact that this medicine is illegal makes me so sad, but I hope there's a possibility of public awareness and acknowledgement in the foreseeable future.
Love,
meatsim
First of all, thank you all for making the nexus such a great source of information and support! I've been reading the forums and wiki for a few months, but decided to create an account just now
So my introduction to DMT was in the movie Enter the Void some while back, I didn't really care much about it at the time; however, when I got a chance to get a hold of some spice this summer I seized the opportunity to try it out.
The first experience was when doing pharmahuasca together with some friends about two months ago. I didn't really know what to expect, but I'm a very open-minded person so I pretty much dove into it. The experience profoundly changed my life. No words will justify what I learned from the medicine, but I know ineffability is the rule for DMT experiences.
I was shown so much about the cycle of life for humans, animals and nature. It made me understand what really matters, and made me realize that I had been living as a 10% human being up until that date. It was nothing short of being given the red pill by morpheus from the matrix. I was reminded about my love for the people around me, and the importance of enjoying every moment, and not always looking ahead for something better when I have all I need right in this moment. My mind was reset to the state it was in when I was a child: curious, loving, happy and free from the modern society materalism.
Throughout the experience, my subconsciousness took the form of a guide that showed me around in my past. I was shown very specific episodes from my past that I couldn't make out the meaning of, since I couldn't recall any of it happening. One was set in my first home and pictured my mother lying bleeding in the shower with my younger sister and I in the room screaming. Another image was of my mom, sister and I with my mom holding a third baby (which is weird as I have only one sibling as far as I knew at the time). For some reason I got the feeling that this third kid had died.
A week or so later, I smoked DMT. I visited somewhere very strange and was met by strange blue beings. One of them was in a hurry and gesticulated to me to make me follow it, as if it had something very important to show me. It showed me a crib with three identical babies: two normal looking, and the third one absolute black (as if it was dead or ruined).
These were very deep experiences, but it didn't get any less overwhelming when I confronted my mother with a few well thought-out questions and it turned out that she had an abortion many years ago that I never knew about, but somehow I obviously felt connected to this unborn child that was supposed to be my brother or sister. She also informed me that my dad had hit her on one occasion, making her land in the shower and pass out. This happened when I was about 12 months old (!), she told me.
I've also decided to pursue a different career as a result of these experiences.
I'm still unable to comprehend how all this information suddenly came to me, but am amazed and forever happy for the value I have gotten out of this simple compound. Many mental barriers I used to have are now gone. I've told most of my grown up friends and family about the experience, since I'd like for everyone to have such an experience themself.
The fact that this medicine is illegal makes me so sad, but I hope there's a possibility of public awareness and acknowledgement in the foreseeable future.
Love,
meatsim
