yeah me too.  and that is one of the amazing things of dmt, it suggests you can see through this illusion. 

are you a nihilist? i feel tugged towards it, but it seems a bit miserable. so i am not a nihilist

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i cannot agree more with this - it is really fun to think about, but pretty frustration too, which i guess is why i like nihilsm.

i know its a bit over simplified but really like what you wrote above. it is what i was trying to say

take care.

thp.