In short. I felt like I got years wiser in a short time, gained a lot of understanding but at the same time none, given the greatest gift you could ever receive and then had it taken from me without knowing why.

My 'ex' partner at the time described it as giving a kid the greatest christmas present in the world that filled them with that pure innocent joy. Intensify it (as someone who has seen spirits and auras occasionally she said there was just light emanating from me) to the point the amount of energy could be dangerous in the wrong hands. Give it to a 22 year old man who has no idea what he's doing with it and is really, well, crazy. Understand it's maybe a bit too much and then take it from him haha