Okay, so I'm back here again.

A little update. I managed to remove a "demon of hunger" from my aura some time ago and as a result have over the past 1½ months lost about 4-5 kilos at a slow steady rate and no longer feel like i must avoid the sensation of hunger. But recently i've grown to be very afraid of death, to the point of absolute terror about it, its something that was always there but I'm now more aware of. Anyway, point being that i am still around, doing OK, syrian thing was definently a good thing to do but not something to do lightly. Will take me a long time to get to healthy but im getting there. For some reason anything more than a very small sip of alcohol or any other narcotic makes me go very VERY afraid of losing my mind and going nuts, but im starting to manage it and will eventually be better, but its an odd sensation of being afraid of going nuts, of having my perception change from such a small thing. Im thinking that that is probably a demonic entity that is playing with me.

Long story short, when i was a kid i had this recurring dream of a demon in my house trying to eat me, I bargained it away by saying "i'll bring you meat so dont eat me" and i went to the freezer and brought it meat and it was happy, the dream repeated itself many many times and then it stopped. I realised that the demon in the dream was a real demonic entity and got rid of it, and now am losing weight rapidly and feeling much better. Anyway, thats my monthly update =D