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hello everyone my name is han solo, and i live in the degabah system. iv been on the search for the truth as long as i can remember, it started with a study of martial arts, where by studying the movement and inner workings of my own body led to my questioning of the nature of right and wrong, good and evil.
because to have a power as such means to use it according to these principals. i wasnt always as i am today, i wasnt very popular as a child mostly because i was thrusted into a society in school that makes us drones and forms us into peices of a puzzle that fits in or is cast out, i was bullied and ridiculed and honestly what led to my study of martial arts was my desire to fit in and stop these bullies who made my life hell. but what i would find would be further from my goal than i could have even imagined. the results of my study started with more confidence, and by the time i was ready to throw a first punch, there wasnt one to be thrown, my confidence led me to be able to handle confontation in a different way, the fight best won is the one that is avoided altogether.
i am self tought in everything i know, including guitar and piano, and i now know that it was my own self who chose to be cast out because i didnt want freinds like those in the first place. i made a few more freinds and it started a little bit of an ego on my part, i soon became what i hated as i fit in more and more, i started with marijuana and alcahol at first ,i was just like everyone else; just trying to get fucked up and have fun which led to my search for mushrooms. i had no idea that my life would change again in such a big way.
i would often walk through the cow pastures which surround my home looking for that free high as i thought it was, i had pictures and other informatin to go off of and one night when i was 16, it was the fourth of july, on a hot summer night under a full moon when i tripped out for the first time, and it was at that moment when i became concious of my conciousness so to speak. i dont even remember what i was thinking about life before that moment, it was as if a fog had been lifted from the world and i could see everything for what it was. it was also the first time i became aquinted with my concience, or the voice in my head that was my own, that was louder than my own verbal speech.
it was this first trip that caused my thirst for information that is still unending to this day, like all stories there is more to say but the information above is sufficient to explain my life and state of mind, i am an alchemist, philosopher, a father, a freind, a teacher and a listener.
my only goal in life is to become closer to what i call god, and deepend my understanding of all its splendor, because this is the greatest gift i can give to the true father of life, that i feel gave me or helped to open my mind to him, and i call it him because it is the closest thing to myself that i can think of or vise versa.... or maybe i said that wrong lol i may be a fool but im not an idiot, just take me for who i am and you wont b dissapointed.
mushrooms is the only psychadelic substances besides lsd (which i consider to be much the same trip)that i hve ever taken, ii dont beleive that psychadelics is the only way to open this conciousness, because iv opened mine so much more without them in the past few years, but it is definately the fastest way (in my opinion) to open it up.....there may be more to this later, but life is always more than it was at first once you reach the future
 
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