Hi folks.......

[farmaz]

Hello, I guess it's quite clear this is my Introduction Essay to DMT Nexus, I hope I don't do a terrible job & look silly so here goes, I will try my best to do a ok job.

I have been on the Ethnopharmacology path since 11 years old when I found Moroccan hash in the UK & first learned of the esoteric knowledge found in smoking CBD/THC products. Before my first Spliff I had always looked at the human mind as like a radio, imagine all your life you listen to just 1 station & type of music (say Country for example) then one day you turn the dial a little bit to the left or right & you find Dub Reggae or Ragga Jungle; from that day on you turn the dial a bit more to the left or right & get into Breakcore, Dutch Gabber, Mstislav Rostropovich / Johann Sebastian Bach etc. From thatday on you are on an eternal quest to see what you can tune into & learn from.

Over the course of my teenage years I moved through many different psychoactive drugs & by the age of 18 I had used up all the usual UK street drugs with Lysergic acid diethylamide, Psilocybe semilanceata & Ketamine being my favourites for many years.
I came across the "RC" market around my late teens my first trip was 2-CB when it was still legal, I worked my way through a few 2C chem's (2-CB, 2-CE, 2C-T7) DPT, DXM, 3-HO Ketamine, 4MeO PCP & also came across Salvia Divinorum which I had some serious life changing trips on.

I got passed books by Terence McKenna & the Shulgin books TIHKAL / PIHKAL which I worked my way through. I also came across the works by Carlos Castaneda (The Teachings of Don Juan series) which fed into my never ending quest for Knowledge on "Spirit feeding" chemicals.

For many long years I had a hard Heroin addiction which I have managed to beat through the love of my fiance, I have been looking for DMT for half of my life, at points I have came close but it always got away from me in some form or another. After a few months of being off Heroin & using hardcore 4MeO PCP I asked the "Gods" for a sign in some form of where my "Soul" was going to & a few days after I found a source for said chem.
I had throught of going to Peru to do Yage & read William S Burroughs book "The Yage letters" & several pieces on the net by Mckenna on the use of Yage but it didn't really appeal to me in some way (well maybe vomit & terrible diarrhea may have put me off)

I see DMT as being some kind of Spirit molecule that lets us be free from Ego & have a short view of the real life & dimension we are in all the time but can't gain access to it for some reason. I believe before I do this trip I need to be really ready to face it, I have never been apprehensive about taking anything before from RC's to I.V. Heroin but with this chemical I see it in a totally different league, I see it as cracking open your soul & killing your ego for a few mins to go free, like I said before about your brain being like a radio I see DMT as like tuning into a pirate radio station playing breakcore while 99.9% of your life your tuned into some Nicky Minaj music.

“You are an explorer, and you represent our species, and the greatest good you can do is to bring back a new idea, because our world is endangered by the absence of good ideas. Our world is in crisis because of the absence of consciousness" - Terence McKenna

“Life lived in the absence of the psychedelic experience that primordial shamanism is based on is life trivialized, life denied, life enslaved to the ego.” - Terence McKenna

"Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves." - Bill Hicks

 

[AlbertKLloyd]

What is your perspective on developing minds taking drugs that might adversely affect their development?

I noticed you reported taking a fair number of drugs while your brain and body were still developing. Why is that if you don't mind my asking?

 

[farmaz]

What is your perspective on developing minds taking drugs that might adversely affect their development?

I noticed you reported taking a fair number of drugs while your brain and body were still developing. Why is that if you don't mind my asking?

Being young & still forming/growing never hurt María Sabina

I was & still am curious to see what happens with things if you try them out & push the limits, like as a young youth we tested all limits put on us by "society" & I have always rejected social conditioning, at the time all I ever heard from people was "drugs send you mad" when I found out you didn't go kill your parents after smoking a spliff I was curious to see what happened if you sniffed glue or ate a load of acid.

My view is any drug on a developing mind & body can't be worse for you than the G.M. food or extra rubbish put into our food & water on a daily basis.
Of course I have known a few people to become "ill" from doing to much stuff but as my #1 hero said "Buy the ticket, take the ride"

In my case my use has made me a far more aware person of spirituality, zen buddhism, ESP, NDE's for example.
On a daily basis for a good 5 months I read the Hagakure by Yamamoto Tsunetomo & reflect on the ideas of what it says (If you have seen the film Ghost dog it's the book the quotes come from)
“There is surely nothing other than the single purpose of the present moment. A man's whole life is a succession of moment after moment. There will be nothing else to do, and nothing else to pursue. Live being true to the single purpose of the moment.” ― Yamamoto Tsunetomo, Hagakure: The Book of the Samurai

I have a far more balanced view of life than people who have not done the things I have got into, as a teenager when 99% of people were worried about their Nike clothes, their friday night drunken sex, what their freinds think of their social standing I was thinking about UFO's, ghosts, shaman in Peru etc. I would not have thatview if it was not for the things I had taken, call me a freak if you like btw

I hope that gives you an idea why I have done what I did

 

[Vodsel]

Certainly I can accept the notion that the benefits can be totally worth the price for some people, but when you say...

at the time all I ever heard from people was "drugs send you mad" when I found out you didn't go kill your parents after smoking a spliff I was curious to see what happened if you sniffed glue or ate a load of acid.

This just speaks for the fact that disinformation is irresponsible and dangerous - not only because it's false, but specially because it's simplistic. And then the realization becomes something like "This is false, hence everything is false". But this doesn't sound like a good method... understandable in the moment the lie dawns on you, but dangerous nonetheless.

My view is any drug on a developing mind & body can't be worse for you than the G.M. food or extra rubbish put into our food & water on a daily basis.

More of the same... If you realize you are ingesting rubbish, it's reasonable to ingest less of it - not to use it as an alibi for not caring about what you ingest.

And again I understand that the contrary (meek submission to disinformation, shutting down awareness, etc) sounds much worse, I'm just saying there's more than two ways, and the ones in the middle are easier to recommend to anyone.

 

[hostilis]

Welcome to the Nexus! Glad to see you here.

My view is any drug on a developing mind & body can't be worse for you than the G.M. food or extra rubbish put into our food & water on a daily basis.

Two wrongs don't make a right. Just because you eat bad food doesn't mean it's okay to do a much of different drugs when you are so young. Not talking down on you though. I also did a LOT of drugs in my youth. I feel like it did more harm than good in the beginning. Now that my life is going in a better path and I'm off the opiates, I feel that the entheogens are really helping me grow.

 

[AlbertKLloyd]

Being young & still forming/growing never hurt María Sabina

Wow, a justification argument right off the bat?
If you can provide a link to some review of her health and psychology please do, but we don't know that things didn't affect her development.

I was & still am curious to see what happens with things if you try them out & push the limits, like as a young youth we tested all limits put on us by "society" & I have always rejected social conditioning,

You seem like you are totally socially conditioned to me. That youth pushing the limits for example, that is standard fare social conditioning. I know because I was quite similar, pushing boundaries etc, it was all social conditioning and predictable.

when I found out you didn't go kill your parents after smoking a spliff I was curious to see what happened if you sniffed glue or ate a load of acid.

Sounds like social conditioning to me, your response and actions were informed directly by social information and your behavior was predictable and normal for a youth in your position.

My view is any drug on a developing mind & body can't be worse for you than the G.M. food or extra rubbish put into our food & water on a daily basis.

I very strongly disagree. I've seen people be totally healthy with so called GMO food and tap water but have seen peoples development harmed, both psychologically and physically by using drugs as youth.

On a daily basis for a good 5 months I read the Hagakure by Yamamoto Tsunetomo & reflect on the ideas of what it says (If you have seen the film Ghost dog it's the book the quotes come from)

I own it and have read it, it is mostly about how samurai have no independent will from their master and should be willing to die for them without fear. Kind of depressing stuff.

I have a far more balanced view of life than people who have not done the things I have got into, as a teenager when 99% of people were worried about their Nike clothes, their friday night drunken sex, what their freinds think of their social standing I was thinking about UFO's, ghosts, shaman in Peru etc. I would not have thatview if it was not for the things I had taken, call me a freak if you like btw

I don't know, you don't seem to have a balanced view to me, but my view is likely not too balanced either, in this case it is a 'takes one to know one' situation.

I hope that gives you an idea why I have done what I did

Social conditioning.
It is why kids are attracted to taboo things like drugs, tell a kid don't do X and they do it, it is predictable and easy to do. This is why tobacco companies are willing to spend money on anti smoking adds that make smoking seem extreme and deadly, it ends up motivating the 'rebels' to smoke...

 

[farmaz]

Being young & still forming/growing never hurt María Sabina

Wow, a justification argument right off the bat?
If you can provide a link to some review of her health and psychology please do, but we don't know that things didn't affect her development.

I was & still am curious to see what happens with things if you try them out & push the limits, like as a young youth we tested all limits put on us by "society" & I have always rejected social conditioning,

You seem like you are totally socially conditioned to me. That youth pushing the limits for example, that is standard fare social conditioning. I know because I was quite similar, pushing boundaries etc, it was all social conditioning and predictable.

when I found out you didn't go kill your parents after smoking a spliff I was curious to see what happened if you sniffed glue or ate a load of acid.

Sounds like social conditioning to me, your response and actions were informed directly by social information and your behavior was predictable and normal for a youth in your position.

My view is any drug on a developing mind & body can't be worse for you than the G.M. food or extra rubbish put into our food & water on a daily basis.

I very strongly disagree. I've seen people be totally healthy with so called GMO food and tap water but have seen peoples development harmed, both psychologically and physically by using drugs as youth.

On a daily basis for a good 5 months I read the Hagakure by Yamamoto Tsunetomo & reflect on the ideas of what it says (If you have seen the film Ghost dog it's the book the quotes come from)

I own it and have read it, it is mostly about how samurai have no independent will from their master and should be willing to die for them without fear. Kind of depressing stuff.

I have a far more balanced view of life than people who have not done the things I have got into, as a teenager when 99% of people were worried about their Nike clothes, their friday night drunken sex, what their freinds think of their social standing I was thinking about UFO's, ghosts, shaman in Peru etc. I would not have thatview if it was not for the things I had taken, call me a freak if you like btw

I don't know, you don't seem to have a balanced view to me, but my view is likely not too balanced either, in this case it is a 'takes one to know one' situation.

I hope that gives you an idea why I have done what I did

Social conditioning.
It is why kids are attracted to taboo things like drugs, tell a kid don't do X and they do it, it is predictable and easy to do. This is why tobacco companies are willing to spend money on anti smoking adds that make smoking seem extreme and deadly, it ends up motivating the 'rebels' to smoke...

I was going to do a huge post in reply but I have only 1 thing to quote from you which will deal with this.

"I don't know, you don't seem to have a balanced view to me, but my view is likely not too balanced either, in this case it is a 'takes one to know one' situation"

As to the Hagakure, yes you have your master but when you look at the system in feudal japan it is logical.
I am not sure how much you know of Japanese history so I won't comment on what you said atm as you may know alot more than me but from what you said I question how much you know of the system or rule & respect from the old days.

You seem like you are totally socially conditioned to me. That youth pushing the limits for example, that is standard fare social conditioning. I know because I was quite similar, pushing boundaries etc, it was all social conditioning and predictable.

No, I pushed things just to see what would happen & not it terms of making parents or people that set rules angry per se, I just wanted to know what would hapen if I did something.

As a youth my Über favourite quote that I had on my wall was from Jim Morrison's book "The lords & the new Creatures" - "We have been metamorphosed from a mad body dancing madly on a hillside into a pair of eyes staring in the dark."
That was & still in part is my view of humanity, I only tested limits & did stuff that you said I was conditioned to do as a act of curiosity not rebellion.

You have me down as some type of lost teenage wanna be Jim Stark (The part James Dean plays in rebel without a cause)
You are not correct, but I guess you think I am conditioned or have a bad case of warped Ego & that would be my default defence

Peace brother AlbertKLloyd, you are a very worthy adversary from reading your post, though I disagree with alot of it your points stand up far better than 99% of people I have clashed with before on the "Interweb"

Good thing I don't fully live my life by the Hagakure code, I would have to take your head or at least a arm (maybe even both arms off so you can't type)