tayzer
Rising Star
I didn't intend to make any introduction post (I'm usually not so self celebratory lol), but since I saw there's an area for one... I figured it would be a good way to break the ice I guess. Not that there is any.
Sorry this post is long af.
Anyway, like the subject says, I'm a dreamer...which is how I've come to have a relationship with dmt. (I've only done it twice.) Which is how I've come to be here on the nexus
My life is...or seems to be.:.as much a dream as it is reality. I've always had intense dreams, ever since I was a kid. Some are good dreams, some are nightmares beyond belief... So, for the last 8 or so years, I have been on a sort of lucid dreaming quest, to understand it.
To paraphrase a life story...as a pre-teen and all through high school, I tried to learn everything that I could about dreaming; how and why we dream, meanings behind dreams... anything to help me escape mine. Obviously I was led to lucid dreaming.
...I remember the first time I woke myself up from a nightmare. I woke up my husband with my gasping "I'm awake!! I'm awake!!" And I wept with relief, feeling as though I was freed of some literal demon.
But I wasn't. I'm still on my quest.
I have sleeps almost like inception, where i wake up from a nightmare/dream and am going about my day (lucidly) only to pick up the telephone midday and hear the distorted vocals of my nightmare boogeyman on the other end. My world shatters around me and oh, still asleep...
I'm getting on a tangent now, but I get riled up about this because no one understands so I seldom lay it all out like this... It affects my waking life; Time distortion, false memories... but I can't make myself not dream and I wouldn't want to...
Anyway this is getting long but I NEED to understand this. How my own mind can essentially..have its own mind.
So...for these reasons and more I am drawn to DMT. But as I mentioned I've only done it twice, and I've broke through once, the last time...I would go into it, but I think there's enough word vomit here to call an intro post. If you've read this far, thanks I guess because I can't tell most people this shit.
Would love to hear if anyone else struggles with their dream life, or how DMT affected/affects your dreams...

Anyway, like the subject says, I'm a dreamer...which is how I've come to have a relationship with dmt. (I've only done it twice.) Which is how I've come to be here on the nexus

My life is...or seems to be.:.as much a dream as it is reality. I've always had intense dreams, ever since I was a kid. Some are good dreams, some are nightmares beyond belief... So, for the last 8 or so years, I have been on a sort of lucid dreaming quest, to understand it.
To paraphrase a life story...as a pre-teen and all through high school, I tried to learn everything that I could about dreaming; how and why we dream, meanings behind dreams... anything to help me escape mine. Obviously I was led to lucid dreaming.
...I remember the first time I woke myself up from a nightmare. I woke up my husband with my gasping "I'm awake!! I'm awake!!" And I wept with relief, feeling as though I was freed of some literal demon.
But I wasn't. I'm still on my quest.
I have sleeps almost like inception, where i wake up from a nightmare/dream and am going about my day (lucidly) only to pick up the telephone midday and hear the distorted vocals of my nightmare boogeyman on the other end. My world shatters around me and oh, still asleep...
I'm getting on a tangent now, but I get riled up about this because no one understands so I seldom lay it all out like this... It affects my waking life; Time distortion, false memories... but I can't make myself not dream and I wouldn't want to...
Anyway this is getting long but I NEED to understand this. How my own mind can essentially..have its own mind.

So...for these reasons and more I am drawn to DMT. But as I mentioned I've only done it twice, and I've broke through once, the last time...I would go into it, but I think there's enough word vomit here to call an intro post. If you've read this far, thanks I guess because I can't tell most people this shit.
Would love to hear if anyone else struggles with their dream life, or how DMT affected/affects your dreams...