Welcome to the Nexus!

You have some very beautiful pictures in your galery

I think psychedelics can definitely be a tool for artistic inspiration and self-development, but of course they can always escape our 'wants' and give us more than we bargained for, so be prepared, make sure set and setting is right, remember to let go during the experience and take good care with integration later on

As for you being a weirdo, I think if you look close enough, everybody is a weirdo. What we have to do is try to come to terms with the weirdo inside of us, and to find a balance between being unique and do what we feel is ours alone, but also be able to relate to others, share the happiness, make efforts and sacrifice for people too.. Everything with balance (a life-struggle  )

Regarding psychedelics, you have any plans/desires to try dmt too? Extracting it and vapping or taking orally as in aya or analogues?

Good luck with your life's path!