Thanks Art (can i call you Art for short?) - i do not understand why we must sleep - have always thought it was a bit odd...like as we sleep no one is watching the store. now i think it is more then odd - i actually think our defenses are down and whatever wants to mess with us - can (and does) while we sleep. my shrink thinks i experience sleep paralysis - incubus - to that i say nope...i have had that feeling that i am being watched during sleep and paralyzed to doing anything about it...i have had that "feeling" of suffocation...but what i speak of is not that...what happens during my sleep from time to time is the "actual" dematerializing of a part of my body that only stops when i awake in terror.

thanks - yeah time heals all wounds...perhaps in this dimension. i am sober today - and expect to be sober tomorrow. my head is clear...my concerns are very real.