hi pandora - first off - i see you too see the US turning into a police state (in your avatar box)...i agree with you.

the abyss oozed...it was beyond foreboding...beyond fear...beyond terror...it was into eternity...and it was dark black...beyond black...beyond evil. i have hung up my spurs...if i cross paths again with the abyss...it will be on the "other side" of a lifeless body...not a second before...and i hope to be better prepared then i was.

i get it - i have looked lots of places for an anchor to begin to understand my experience...this place is the closest i have come that offers a sympathetic virtual ear for me...diversity is key - and varied opinions help me.

i think i want to agree with you pandora - and perhaps over time i will, but right now it feels a lot like i have broken a multidimensional seal...i let a genie out of its bottle...and i think that genie is inside of me.

i saw what i "think" i needed to "see" - now i just need to process "it" and that, in my mind, will take the remainder of my physical (and perhaps spiritual) live (s) - IF EVER - to do. it was so easy to extract the substance...i feel like i was unworthy of the trip...and maybe "others" see it that was too.

precisely what my shrink said...precisely what i intend to do. thank you

not nearly enough...i am currently improving on my frequency...i am currently reading from Philip Goddard's website:

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agreed...clear today...i think balanced (to the extent anyone can be "knowing" what i "think" i "know").

ty