Hello Nexusers-es,

I m a new member here although my trip started about **teen years ago, when the reality seemed to be one and only.

Really don't know how to describe it, drugs was a part of my life, my self, especially psychedelic ones(LSD/mushrooms).

I m not very proud going this way but I have memories that nothing in universe can be compared with, and I m grateful

that my mind opened like a flower and cosmic rays beamed in, full of experiences and things that a sober stuck in this

reality would never understand.

Gradually as I was getting old I began to give up and myself developed a reverse tolerance that I couldnt take any drug, -neither a single joint! I had a panic attack and then I blaimed every single drug for this and was afraid that if I take any drug I would panicking again and as I was afraid of panicking my mind was bringing the panic again and I panicked and.... you know snowball effect.. So I went to SSRI's! Oh man, I can write pages about it but I wont. Just STAY AWAY from antidepressants. The most dangerous thing man made after nuclear weapons. I had to get out of that hole it was very deep and as time passed -near six months- I was stuck in it. So what could I do? The only thing I do best.

I had a very large amount of LSD.. (to be safe I started with half a dose, next week a single dose, next week a double dose... and finally six pure drops of the finest LSD!!) And that's how I throw SSRI's away from my life and I m clear four years now.

No need for more hallucinations or party drugs I am ready to go to the other side with aya/dmt, to heal myself,to find the answers that nobody tell, but because I dont know anything about it plus I dont plan to go to Peru in the near future, I joined this forum that is probably the best guider for this trip.

You have to tolerate my stupid questions and my worse English.

Love you