Mind you, I'm usually not the person to write or even read trip reports much. Most of them are not worth mentioning in one way or the other. They are either too personal or too meaningless. While my experience was very personal (how could it not be) it is worth mentioning out of several reasons. One is that it is the most signle stupidest thing that I have ever endeavoured and so hopefully upon reading this you will not make this same mistake. I literally thought I was dying, praying for an ambulance, praying for some sort of medical assistance, incapable of moving at all. Holding on for dear life, even though it seemed improbable.
Another reason is that it was the single most powerful experience I have had as of yet, and honestly I don't think I would have survived even an inch more. I had full blown entity contact with incredible communications that were ongoing while I lost utter control over everything. The high doses of the substances ingested left me no grounds to stand on, nothing to call my own.
Let me start at the beginning.
at around 4:30 I ingested 200mg of rue-extract turned fumarate using FASA tek. I dissolved these 200mg in water and chased with juice to get the bitter taste out of my mouth. I then proceeded to ingest 6 sugar cubes dosed with what I estimate to be 100µg of acid, making that a dose of 600µg.
Within 40 minutes the harmalas hit me hard. Now I had never taken any form of harmalas before so I didn't know what to expect. I have no idea how I established that 200mg would be a safe dose on its own, let alone in combination with that amount of acid.
Needless to say I had adverse reactions to the dose. I immediately felt like I had overdosed on tranquillisers, became very drowsy, found it hard to breathe, desperately searched for some kind of relief but of course this was only just the beginning. The acid did not wait for long to join the party.
Between fear of dying and struggling for survival then the acid was radically changing my perception. I had the eerie sense of a door being slammed shut behind me, me having passed a point of no return. I felt like my dosing had been the sealing of a deal I had been unaware of, something I didn't quite understand.
At some point I made contact with them. It was confused at first, I felt like an alien invasion was taking place as my mind still fought the transition. But then it became clear. They had been waiting for me. They are a network of higher-order intelligence entities. they are not alien at all, they are all around us. they are everything we are, only more.
I was made to understand that it was time for my initiation. They spoke to me telepathically as an equal. I was to be part of the ritual of my own birth. I was shown who they were first, they introduced themselves, revealing their true being, their most guarded secret. Each of these entities had at its core a pan-dimensional crystal structure of pure energy, of unbelievable complexity and infinite capacity. Each of these structures was moving, pulsing and perfectly unique.
Tonight I was going to create one of these for myself.
In the mean time my body was not doing in any better. At times completely forgotten then suddenly overwhelmed by the powers that surged through me I eventually scrambled into the bathroom and purged hoping, praying, that I could give it all back and make this misery end. Of course I had no such luck.
I felt utter despair and abject hatred, oozing out of my body. I was vomiting up toxic chemical waste that would make the oceans suffocate and render fertile soil into deserts. my whole body shook and vibrated back into a sprawled out position on the bathroom floor where I spent most of the next 5 hours; the misery combatted by utter cosmic bliss that I was receiving in such amounts I thought I would burst.
I returned to the entities and began partaking in the ritual. There were several of us there and we began aligned in some sort of super-structure to create a golden greenish space using sound. The sound was aummmmmmmmm.
The space formed like a bottle with a large belly, almost drop like but multi-facetted.
And then the real magic happened. We called upon something. We summoned it into our midst. I don't know what it was other than that it was the spark that ignited everything, that it was the force of life itself, a whisp of godly power. It circled in the space at first like a smooth cyllindrical object and I began merging with it.
We circled together around the invisible center of the bottle and I remember repeating the words "I and it, both holy". I felt myself and it beign sliced and reassembled, sliced and reassembled. Our patterns, our vibrations assimilating.
At some point there was an erruption and a powerful birthing process began. The spark that I was now ignited the space around me refining the energy creating a new universe unto itself, creating a new form of life.
This however was just the conception. The birth took the rest of the 4 hours as my body and mind, my entire being went through cosmic birth-squeezes alternating between misery, fear and despair and utter extacy. My whole being was being transformed, I was both the mother and the child, both creator and created during this process. It was an utter spiritual revolution and it was painful.
It felt like every atom in my body was bursting.
My body was shaking violently as I felt dissonances that still had to be assimilated. Every time I came close to something I was not in tune with I felt horrible pain and vibrations surging through my head, like a resonance catastrophe.
I prayed it would end.
I also prayed for something to drink but the farthest I could get in moving was rolling over on my side and that was it. then after some time realizing I was not getting anywhere I flopped back down on my back and commenced vibrating, feelling the pulses and flashes surge violently through my body until nothing of the old me was left and all was refined.
In the most terrifying moments I held on to something I had read the previous day, and I repeated it like a mantra: "I am the light, in me there is no darkness."
These are the words spoken by those who wish to enter the halls of Amenti, according to the source I read this at. Considering the implications of my experience, being initiated in a brotherhood of higher-order intelligence beings, I wondered if I had foudn these words earlier for a reason, or if my finding them had shaped the experience. I suppose causalities with these things are hard to decide.
I was made to understand what this brotherhood was about, the one that I am now apparently a part of. Their goal is to transmutate darkness into light. Inert matter into living, conscious matter. Infecting nonbeing virally with being.
I am the light, in me there is no darkness.
The significance of this is apparent. All that is darkness is not ME. by transmutating darkness into light I am expanding myself and evolving the universe.
It made me understand a thing or two about myself, why I chase after the *dark* trips more than the other ones. darkness, I chase you, I hunt you... to turn you into something brilliant.
I'm still feeling incredibly beat up and hung over after last night. All I can say for now is I'm glad to be alive. I don't know the significance of this experience. I felt a little bit like a mixture out of the ending of Contact (the book) and the song Rosetta Stoned. Utterly bewildered and in awe, but incapable of comprehending.
At about 10:00 pm I rejoined the chat to tell everyone I was still alive.
I don't recomend this mixture or dosage. If I had had a trip sitter I would have begged him to bring me to a hospital, had I been able to communicate. I doubt I could have though. I'm sure there is quite some potential in this mixture but you should know your way around harmalas before attempting this. Mind you I#ve had high doses of acid, but I had no idea what the harmalas would do to me.
I feel embarrassed to have endeavored into something so recklessly, but I couldn't help myself for one reason or the other. Like I said, it felt like it was the sealing of a deal and they had been waiting for me. Their anticipation must have built up for a long time, pulling me towards this event. My higher-order intelligence self and my lower merged and now fully equipped with my own comsos of infinite energy, I don't know what the next step is. I am part of the lattice, part of the network, the brotherhood.
Today is a new day and I'm grateful for being alive.
Thank you to all those that were there when I came out of it.
Another reason is that it was the single most powerful experience I have had as of yet, and honestly I don't think I would have survived even an inch more. I had full blown entity contact with incredible communications that were ongoing while I lost utter control over everything. The high doses of the substances ingested left me no grounds to stand on, nothing to call my own.
Let me start at the beginning.
at around 4:30 I ingested 200mg of rue-extract turned fumarate using FASA tek. I dissolved these 200mg in water and chased with juice to get the bitter taste out of my mouth. I then proceeded to ingest 6 sugar cubes dosed with what I estimate to be 100µg of acid, making that a dose of 600µg.
Within 40 minutes the harmalas hit me hard. Now I had never taken any form of harmalas before so I didn't know what to expect. I have no idea how I established that 200mg would be a safe dose on its own, let alone in combination with that amount of acid.
Needless to say I had adverse reactions to the dose. I immediately felt like I had overdosed on tranquillisers, became very drowsy, found it hard to breathe, desperately searched for some kind of relief but of course this was only just the beginning. The acid did not wait for long to join the party.
Between fear of dying and struggling for survival then the acid was radically changing my perception. I had the eerie sense of a door being slammed shut behind me, me having passed a point of no return. I felt like my dosing had been the sealing of a deal I had been unaware of, something I didn't quite understand.
At some point I made contact with them. It was confused at first, I felt like an alien invasion was taking place as my mind still fought the transition. But then it became clear. They had been waiting for me. They are a network of higher-order intelligence entities. they are not alien at all, they are all around us. they are everything we are, only more.
I was made to understand that it was time for my initiation. They spoke to me telepathically as an equal. I was to be part of the ritual of my own birth. I was shown who they were first, they introduced themselves, revealing their true being, their most guarded secret. Each of these entities had at its core a pan-dimensional crystal structure of pure energy, of unbelievable complexity and infinite capacity. Each of these structures was moving, pulsing and perfectly unique.
Tonight I was going to create one of these for myself.
In the mean time my body was not doing in any better. At times completely forgotten then suddenly overwhelmed by the powers that surged through me I eventually scrambled into the bathroom and purged hoping, praying, that I could give it all back and make this misery end. Of course I had no such luck.
I felt utter despair and abject hatred, oozing out of my body. I was vomiting up toxic chemical waste that would make the oceans suffocate and render fertile soil into deserts. my whole body shook and vibrated back into a sprawled out position on the bathroom floor where I spent most of the next 5 hours; the misery combatted by utter cosmic bliss that I was receiving in such amounts I thought I would burst.
I returned to the entities and began partaking in the ritual. There were several of us there and we began aligned in some sort of super-structure to create a golden greenish space using sound. The sound was aummmmmmmmm.
The space formed like a bottle with a large belly, almost drop like but multi-facetted.
And then the real magic happened. We called upon something. We summoned it into our midst. I don't know what it was other than that it was the spark that ignited everything, that it was the force of life itself, a whisp of godly power. It circled in the space at first like a smooth cyllindrical object and I began merging with it.
We circled together around the invisible center of the bottle and I remember repeating the words "I and it, both holy". I felt myself and it beign sliced and reassembled, sliced and reassembled. Our patterns, our vibrations assimilating.
At some point there was an erruption and a powerful birthing process began. The spark that I was now ignited the space around me refining the energy creating a new universe unto itself, creating a new form of life.
This however was just the conception. The birth took the rest of the 4 hours as my body and mind, my entire being went through cosmic birth-squeezes alternating between misery, fear and despair and utter extacy. My whole being was being transformed, I was both the mother and the child, both creator and created during this process. It was an utter spiritual revolution and it was painful.
It felt like every atom in my body was bursting.
My body was shaking violently as I felt dissonances that still had to be assimilated. Every time I came close to something I was not in tune with I felt horrible pain and vibrations surging through my head, like a resonance catastrophe.
I prayed it would end.
I also prayed for something to drink but the farthest I could get in moving was rolling over on my side and that was it. then after some time realizing I was not getting anywhere I flopped back down on my back and commenced vibrating, feelling the pulses and flashes surge violently through my body until nothing of the old me was left and all was refined.
In the most terrifying moments I held on to something I had read the previous day, and I repeated it like a mantra: "I am the light, in me there is no darkness."
These are the words spoken by those who wish to enter the halls of Amenti, according to the source I read this at. Considering the implications of my experience, being initiated in a brotherhood of higher-order intelligence beings, I wondered if I had foudn these words earlier for a reason, or if my finding them had shaped the experience. I suppose causalities with these things are hard to decide.
I was made to understand what this brotherhood was about, the one that I am now apparently a part of. Their goal is to transmutate darkness into light. Inert matter into living, conscious matter. Infecting nonbeing virally with being.
I am the light, in me there is no darkness.
The significance of this is apparent. All that is darkness is not ME. by transmutating darkness into light I am expanding myself and evolving the universe.
It made me understand a thing or two about myself, why I chase after the *dark* trips more than the other ones. darkness, I chase you, I hunt you... to turn you into something brilliant.
I'm still feeling incredibly beat up and hung over after last night. All I can say for now is I'm glad to be alive. I don't know the significance of this experience. I felt a little bit like a mixture out of the ending of Contact (the book) and the song Rosetta Stoned. Utterly bewildered and in awe, but incapable of comprehending.
At about 10:00 pm I rejoined the chat to tell everyone I was still alive.
I don't recomend this mixture or dosage. If I had had a trip sitter I would have begged him to bring me to a hospital, had I been able to communicate. I doubt I could have though. I'm sure there is quite some potential in this mixture but you should know your way around harmalas before attempting this. Mind you I#ve had high doses of acid, but I had no idea what the harmalas would do to me.
I feel embarrassed to have endeavored into something so recklessly, but I couldn't help myself for one reason or the other. Like I said, it felt like it was the sealing of a deal and they had been waiting for me. Their anticipation must have built up for a long time, pulling me towards this event. My higher-order intelligence self and my lower merged and now fully equipped with my own comsos of infinite energy, I don't know what the next step is. I am part of the lattice, part of the network, the brotherhood.
Today is a new day and I'm grateful for being alive.
Thank you to all those that were there when I came out of it.
