Thank you Trav, and everyone else!  So funny that I was drawn here tonight and this thread is here... I remember finding this place in 2008, from a link from Erowid.  And I was kind of abrasive when I arrived, I admit, but people were still kind, and helped me, and my life was changed forever!  I haven't met the molecule in years (nor any other molecule other than the odd little bit of cactus) yet I kid you not, it lives within me now, and I only have to think of it and I'm filled with its power, love and energy.  It has helped me become the good person I always wanted to be.  I love you all!  Best secret club ever