oh, sorry. i was sort of thrown off because i had been exiled to this tiny section of this gigantic forum.. although i understand the reason for it. i've been reading this forum and others for a while now because of my interest in dmt.
But anyway, i am a 19 year old living on my own with an interest in philosophy and botany as educational paths. i make art for my own enjoyment. i am not religious, but recently eastern beliefs appeal to me. Daoism and such. I'd like to learn more about that.
i also like to read lots of old books. i got really intersted in entheogens after i read some of Carlos Castenada's books. Although I've had a fascination with natural mind altering things since my first experience with them.
I've experimented with various other pyschedelics but I've never experienced anything as eye opening or as intense as dmt.
And it was gone in no more than 5 minutes. I did it about 2 weeks ago. i decided to smoke it with cannabis. i heard its not a very efficient way to do it but it worked. i had some preconceptions for what it was going to be like, from reading or listening to other's experiences with it. I think that did have some effect on how i perceived what was going on during the trip, it ended up feeling familiar to what i had read online and heard from people, but at the same time, i was thinking, "wow. this is not what i expected"
the first attempt, i intentionally gave myself a low dose. i felt it come on with a floating sensation coming from the feet up. my surroundings started to look different a few seconds later and so i closed my eyes. there were patterns and shapes moving all around my field of vision, going very quickly. i'm not sure i could call them shapes, they felt more like changing objects that were made up of all different kinds of color.
it's hard to remember the rest because everything that had just happened was only in my mind for a few minutes afterwards. strong euphoria after i came down but no extremely profound feelings. besides the suprise i got from the intensity of the closed eye visuals. that attempt only lasted 2 minutes according to people around me. it felt like atleast 5 minutes. i felt like i got a little taste for what was to come.
I tried again about 30 minutes later, again smoked with cannabis. this time i sprinkled a larger dose. i am not sure of the exact amount. i didn't weigh it. but i want to say it was almost twice the amount of the first. not 2x though. this time it lasted 5 minutes and the whole thing was vague for me. it's really hard for me to put it into words. i tried to explain it to my friend for about 40 minutes afterwards and realized i simply couldn't.
i can't remember enough to recall the nature of the different kind of visuals. i remember something i saw, that looked like linear shapes moving across a gridded floor, but the movements were too complex to describe, and it wasn't visible for longer than 10 seconds. i felt like the first half of the experience i was in awe of the peak and all the things i was seeing, and the second half, i felt like i was trying to make sense of all these things going on.
it took me through a slideshow of familiar places where i have lived and such, and all i could think about was my life and it was making it very emotional for me, almost like how psilocybin mushrooms have that emotional or personal factor to them. it was somewhat frightening, but controllable.
i noticed soon after that i was breathing very fast and i was sweating. i focused on slowing my breathing and took deep deep breaths and everything that was happening around me slowed to the rate of my breathing and pulsed with my heartbeat. that moment was the climax of the whole thing for me as the overwhelming feeling of ok, wow, this is how it works. washed over me and the visuals exploded into designs and configurations that i hadn't seen before. i actually managed to say "wow" out loud even though i hadn't felt like i was able to open my eyes or talk during the rest of it.
Soon after that, i felt like it was okay to open my eyes. when i did the designs transferred onto the surfaces of the room in front of me and unfolded into a grid of light with colors dancing around over the coffee table, and the book shelf, all the little objects around the room and in the middle of my field of vision was some sort of tunnel with something at the end of it. or i got the feeling there was something at the end of it. this tunnel had been apparent in all the visions before this but it felt closer.
the effects tapered off soon after that point and thats when i was most amazed and in awe of it. i couldn't stop trying to think of ways to explain it or make sense of it. and there was a fantastic after glow that was very euphoric that lasted until i went to sleep an hour later. i don't believe i've experienced close to what is being offered. that's why i have the overwhelming feeling that i must see what happens next and where things go next time i visit this place. it fascinates me to the point where i'm willing to go out of my way to procure this again in order to find out more about this. I have plans to extract my own in the near future. haha it's very strange for me to try to explain this, sorry if it's a little hard to follow. Thank you for the welcome ~
