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GreenD

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I... am going crazy.

I did DMT for the third time, but this time it was different. It's not done and it's been 3 days.

Everyone I speak to is just an elf, and they keep re-arranging. They are empty coats. They are simple pets. I'm reading their vocab, I know how they are going to die, what their entire life is going to be like, I've been branded with prediction.

The world is a sandbox, and its become more boring and uninteresting by the minute. I fear that I will never smile again, a true smile. I feel like emotion is obsolete, and this DMT logic is supreme, but what good is this feeling of pain, the absense of bliss?

Why is everything so simple, no matter how complex, no matter how intricate, it can always be described. Why is it that there is boundaries, that there isn't an infinite plane? Why am I not OK?

The smell of DMT makes my stomach fall through my floor, I begin to wonder if God is myself, and that I am God. I wonder why I Would make myself live such a life, what is there to gain from self-inflicted pain? An external God seems foolish and pre-cambrian. I just want to be let go, I just want to be stupid. I want to watch T.V. and laugh, not look into the directors eyes. I don't want to be an eternally mind-reading prophet. I don't want to predict things, I don't want to know this. I want it to go away.

Brain damage of the positive kind. Why, why is enlightenment accompanied by such pain, remorse? Why is empathy of the mother earth so naseauting? Why do I feel as if I have done something so wrong, so crutially unearthing to the well being of the universe? Why am I at fault? Why am I to blame for this?!

Just kidding, I'm totally fine.. I just wanted to write something.
 
I don't know whether the last line is the joke or the rest of the post...

Sometimes marijuana will make me feel that way. It used to make movies and shows more interesting but now I "look into the directors eyes" to use your words. I like that phrase, by the way. Ironically, smoking more weed usually leads me to the desired effect again. Maybe you just need to smoke DMT again ;)

EDIT: I think I sounded like a pothead there lol. I should clarify that I smoke weed maaaybe once every two months.
 
GreenD in another post said:
Sounds like my re-occuring trip;

I meet three Gods, oddly enough I had drawn them about a year before even knowing much about DMT. They were me (which was a very large part of the trip) and they explained to me what everything was. Unfortunately I didn't accept - I hated, dispised what had been told to me, it seemed to simple, yet too complex - Why? Yet I don't know what they told me...

I was given an option; remember, or forget what I was told. All I truly remember after meeting them is seeing a man, in a business suit, holding a brief case, birds eye view almost, intense agony in my stomach, and saying "I want to forget."

So it was.

Both times I've done it successfully were identicle.
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What, did you decide to remember this time? Go back and demand to forget. Shiva will destroy any memories you don't want. He's a pretty nice guy for being the God of Destruction.
 
I think that a person has many areas where development can occur and when DMT or other psychedelics open things up in a big way in only one or some of these areas - while leaving the rest as-is -, that may feel something like what you described here. Like being thrown into wisdom without an eye to see.
 
For the most part post trip people have a sort of expanded awarness, obviously..All the pain and negatives in our lil reality can paint this terrible picture of the world and make for a frightening re-entry sometimes, especially when you block out the infite beauty and potential in it all.
 
"Enlightenment is NOT bliss! Far from it, it is hell! How else can we grow and evolve our soul? Our best teachers are the ones that push our buttons so we can face and transmute the fear. Those beings that brings us in touch with our shadows so that we can transform them to Light.

Zeynep
 
GreenD said:
I... am going crazy.

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Just kidding, I'm totally fine.. I just wanted to write something.
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You know, I read this this morning and was like "meh, ok"...but now that I think on it this really is inappropriate. We've had a few members speak of suicide and were, I believe, serious about it after a DMT experience. Some people, especially those with mental illness really should not experiment with DMT.

DMT is not a psycadelic to play around with. If you have issues we are here to help, if not, please do not pretend you do. If you just want to write, write! But don't scream "fire" in a crowded building and tell everyone "just kidding" on their way out.
 
OriginalFace said:
"Enlightenment is NOT bliss! Far from it, it is hell! How else can we grow and evolve our soul? Our best teachers are the ones that push our buttons so we can face and transmute the fear. Those beings that brings us in touch with our shadows so that we can transform them to Light.

Zeynep
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I see where you are going..but still i dont call that enlightenment..
Its def not hell... I think when you are "there"..there is NO heavenor hell...everything just is..everything has its place and its role to play..everything is important and everything fits..

If you are feeling you are in hell..than i wouldnt call thay enlightenment at all..maybe you have opened up and seen part of whats going on around you, yes...but suffereing is only a stepping stone of experience alone that path...once you get there there is no fear..once you see the intricacy ond intimacy of the level of connection that exists...everything starts to look perfect as it is..THAT is where you will find bliss.
 
the op of this thread almost seems like they started this as some sort of attention grabber..or maybe even to make fun of people here...not very nice.
 
Ye, when I first read this thread, I got quite worried about the mental state of this person, nad then the last line just made me gag. Not cool for a carring comunity we have here.

This should have gone under the "bullshit DMT experience thread"
 
fractal enchantment said:
the op of this thread almost seems like they started this as some sort of attention grabber..or maybe even to make fun of people here...not very nice.
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I agree and also with acalon. Someone with mental health could imagine dmt land as where you go when you die and go for it cos its so great. I remember im sure it was noman, sorry if it wasnt, but I remember he said dont call the suicid hotline just yet but maan I really want to stay there. Ive had similiar experiences before, almost depressed at the loss and how I never wanted to come back because it was so beautiful and I was loved so much, but someone with mental helth problems could kill themselves to go there, luckily I love my life and time spent there can be integrated, but some folks might not be so lucky.

Stupid post op and it isnt cute or funny, I also read it earlier and just ignored it but other folks make good points!
 
I locked this thread. It's good to joke about many things but this one smells a bit like trolling.

The OP can PM me or one of the other mods when needed.


Kind regards,

The Traveler
 
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