"attacking you" is right ! ... You're onto it .. ! Keep practicing, and be safe ! You will not actually die, but that's the usual response to seeing the whole of creation ! Nor will you stop breathing for good - your brain has autonomic, failsafe systems for that..! Three seconds can feel like eons in Hyperspace ... that 'long-time-no-breath' instinct needs to realize it's in Hyperspace !
The realm of the dead requires no breath ! so when we get to peek into it, our bodies' survival 'habits' are useless ... !
Every launch for me is all about the breath and reducing breathing-panic.. and then, once I 'remember to breathe' (in the first 60 - 120 seconds) if it's true for others, that realm, Hyperspace, opens up just as though it IS a space between the breath, that's there all the time, but you almost have to forget to breath to notice it seething there inside you too !. Breathing is a sinusoidal noise, an 'in-and-out weave' ontop of the more subtle din of Hyperspace, and before your breath existed there was an eternal, infinite, humming realm full of potential.
If I remember to try, sometimes I 'go-in' on the wave of my breathing, but without 'rushing' to get oxygen back in me ... . As you exhale the last toke, hold it a few a seconds at the bottom of your breath, and suddenly things might deepen. Try to hold for 5 - 10 seconds at the top of your first few inhalations ... while hovering into that 'Other' place...
Sometimes it feels like you might pee yourself too, but that has actually never happenes either, but I go to the loo before launch. ! If anything don't 'clench' .. slacken ... drop jaw ... loosen every 'fright' response ... drool .. it's all ok ! Put on a pair of imaginary Psychonaut-diapers - allow yourself to 'panic' but continue to let go, and it's ok to make any psychic-spills you want on the way out ! Take a long time relax the pulse to a slow rate to help oxygenate the body well before vapourizing the dose - 80 bpm and an empty bladder ...
