hello

I am from Dreamland, 23 years old, very soon getting my psychologist diploma. Im also working part time with kids (I have mixed ideas on what to do when Im a psychologist. Either researching/working with entheogens, or trying to design a better educational system haha)

I was always a ´rebel´ kid at school, but also a bit of a loner, never really a very social person. When I was 13 I got into Bob Marley and weed. Then at 15 I started going to psytrance parties, where in the beginning my ´rebelliousness´ was still without a proper direction, so I took ecstasy and sniffed ether a few times. 

Then I took my first acid in a party, and realized how all people are like ´actors´, how we all have masks hiding our true selves. I also saw all these patterns in people´s behaviours, and all these hidden functions in my mind, and this made me interested in psychology. I also saw how the universe is much more alive then we think. I also realized that ´fun´ drugs like E are shit, and I went full psychedelic from then on.

Still as a teenager, a few friends knew a place in nature with waterfalls and cow fields where we could pick mushrooms, so I also started taking shrooms, to learn about myself and the world.

At the same time I was reading the likes of Robert Anton Wilson, Mckenna, Leary, Grof, Huxley,  and also reading erowid like a fanatic. Then I read Gurdjieff, which even though doesnt mention directly psychedelics, is still the author of the most mind-bending and life-changing writtings ever, for me.

I dont know when strictly I learned about dmt, but it was somewhere in those teenage times. My first experience was actually through ayahuasca. First in Santo Daime church, which I really didnt like (felt they are too ´stuck´, like any religion, in all their dogmas and rules). Then I had an amaaaaaaaazing experience with a real Shaman from a native tribe,  about which I posted here .  Then, finally, I was able to try dmt, and now some person who isnt me (haha) learned extracting