It is okay, your English is very good; don't you fret about that. I was just making sure I was understanding your question before I answered it. It was definitely my boyfriend who led me down the path towards opening my eyes--he has made a great deal of influence on my current state of mind. Without him, I would not have started with any of these psychedelics. Would I have never gotten into what I am now? Possibly. It is very quite possible, but that is not how it happened so I suppose we will never know. But before DigiTehk, I felt empty and there was surely something missing in my life--so much was missing. Though I still know there is a lot more soul searching to go for me, I am a better person because of him.