Syrian Rue: 4g oral
Mimosa: 500mg oral
unmeasured amount of secret ingredient smoked from an oil burner, and a candle, 1 toke. I estimate 20mg was smoked.
Tonight I smoked some tobacco at home. What a thick smoke it made. I knew it was going to be good because I could feel my throat tightening in response to a large volume of smoke. After the first toke, I became so dizzy that I realized another hit would not be necessary, so I put the bulb down, and I knew this was going to be a fun ride. I was like, "oooooh, that was a good one". Hyperspace surrounded me and communicated with me. It said all is well in the universe, and it's ok if you die. Thanks for existing. You are life, life is good, here you go, take in all it has to offer, you were born for this.
Near the end of the trip I experienced an interesting phenomenon that happens every so often, but is not the norm. Tonight, it happened more intensely than ever before. Normally for me, the trip peaks in the middle, and subsides. But sometimes, near the end of the smoke, it gets stronger and stronger, as if building to an impossible level. This building of something is an intense ecstasy. The carrier wave was getting stronger and stronger. Normally, at this point it becomes so ecstatic that it's scary, and I'll open my eyes and shake it off. But tonight, I was like, "no, I'm just going to ride this and see how far it can go". But you see, it's so intensely ecstatic that it feels like my brain is going to burst. It feels like my brain turns in to a light bulb that is going to shine so bright that it will pop. Everything illuminates in my head. The visions become an intense white light that gets brighter and brighter. The carrier wave goes up and up.... and up, while I'm thinking "what's going to happen next? Will I die?"
The light and carrier wave, and ecstasy became so intense that I went beyond myself, seemingly beyond the limits of what is physically possible to experience as ecstasy. It was like a cascade effect. Once it reached a certain level of intensity, it just exploded and took me beyond my limits, whether I wanted it or not. When it reached the absolute limit of ecstasy, rather than popping like a light bulb, the trip, and my body seemed to just ooze out everywhere. The carrier wave suddenly slowed, the sound went from a super high pitch, to low pitch, "WHOOOooooooooo". The image in my head was like ripples created by a drop of water. Everything just released in utter satisfaction and contentment, rather than violently explode.
Wow.... I guess I could take it after all, I thought. My consciousness felt malleable beyond belief. The whole time I just taking in very long, grateful breaths, sighing on the way out, bobbing my head around slowly, giving thanks, and feeling the energy of life all around. When the most intense part subsided, I spent a few minutes just breathing and wiping away the tears of joy. It was a good time. Good way to spend an otherwise uneventful half hour or so. I doubt I will look back when I die and say, "man..... I wish I didn't smoke..... tobacco". I wrote this coming down from the tobacco high. Cigarettes are good after all.
NO WAY!!!! The first thing I saw after posting this was that this was post# 1000! I didn't even realize that was coming. I did want my 1000th post to be something interesting, this was a pretty good one. Good way to celebrate post# 1000 for me here. That might have been the single most intense moment of ecstasy I have experienced.
Mimosa: 500mg oral
unmeasured amount of secret ingredient smoked from an oil burner, and a candle, 1 toke. I estimate 20mg was smoked.
Tonight I smoked some tobacco at home. What a thick smoke it made. I knew it was going to be good because I could feel my throat tightening in response to a large volume of smoke. After the first toke, I became so dizzy that I realized another hit would not be necessary, so I put the bulb down, and I knew this was going to be a fun ride. I was like, "oooooh, that was a good one". Hyperspace surrounded me and communicated with me. It said all is well in the universe, and it's ok if you die. Thanks for existing. You are life, life is good, here you go, take in all it has to offer, you were born for this.
Near the end of the trip I experienced an interesting phenomenon that happens every so often, but is not the norm. Tonight, it happened more intensely than ever before. Normally for me, the trip peaks in the middle, and subsides. But sometimes, near the end of the smoke, it gets stronger and stronger, as if building to an impossible level. This building of something is an intense ecstasy. The carrier wave was getting stronger and stronger. Normally, at this point it becomes so ecstatic that it's scary, and I'll open my eyes and shake it off. But tonight, I was like, "no, I'm just going to ride this and see how far it can go". But you see, it's so intensely ecstatic that it feels like my brain is going to burst. It feels like my brain turns in to a light bulb that is going to shine so bright that it will pop. Everything illuminates in my head. The visions become an intense white light that gets brighter and brighter. The carrier wave goes up and up.... and up, while I'm thinking "what's going to happen next? Will I die?"
The light and carrier wave, and ecstasy became so intense that I went beyond myself, seemingly beyond the limits of what is physically possible to experience as ecstasy. It was like a cascade effect. Once it reached a certain level of intensity, it just exploded and took me beyond my limits, whether I wanted it or not. When it reached the absolute limit of ecstasy, rather than popping like a light bulb, the trip, and my body seemed to just ooze out everywhere. The carrier wave suddenly slowed, the sound went from a super high pitch, to low pitch, "WHOOOooooooooo". The image in my head was like ripples created by a drop of water. Everything just released in utter satisfaction and contentment, rather than violently explode.
Wow.... I guess I could take it after all, I thought. My consciousness felt malleable beyond belief. The whole time I just taking in very long, grateful breaths, sighing on the way out, bobbing my head around slowly, giving thanks, and feeling the energy of life all around. When the most intense part subsided, I spent a few minutes just breathing and wiping away the tears of joy. It was a good time. Good way to spend an otherwise uneventful half hour or so. I doubt I will look back when I die and say, "man..... I wish I didn't smoke..... tobacco". I wrote this coming down from the tobacco high. Cigarettes are good after all.
NO WAY!!!! The first thing I saw after posting this was that this was post# 1000! I didn't even realize that was coming. I did want my 1000th post to be something interesting, this was a pretty good one. Good way to celebrate post# 1000 for me here. That might have been the single most intense moment of ecstasy I have experienced.
