Or I should say, I feel like I'm all backwards, as far as psychedelics go. First post, by the way, hey everyone. So let my explain....
I haven't had the chance to do DMT a really large number of times but I've had my handful of experiences, and mine have differed quite a bit from my friends and some of the ones I've read about. I think the most notable thing I've noticed is that all of my trips have been surprisingly "flat". That is to say, while the visuals do take on a very 3D characteristic, I feel as though I'm watching it all on TV with my face pressed up against the screen, like they don't have a very believable depth. All of my original experiences were with eyes closed and I wondered if this had anything to do with it so I tried keeping my eyes open through an experience and it still felt the same way. The room I was in immediately became like a drawing of itself right in front of my face and then the visuals started to form over it like it was all one solid sheet. This is totally opposite of what I get when I take mushrooms, which make me feel like my sober life is flat in comparison. However, one thing that applies for both tryptamines for me is that, while I do see what one might call entities forming in the visuals, they don't ever become... more than visuals. They remain a part of the patterns and never take on a life of their own. Again, it's like they're just a picture of the entities, not the things themselves. This has remained true even when I've been blinded by rapidly shifting hyperspatial objects. The other biggest thing I've noticed is that I never feel any form of "transcendental" states of mind, like... I guess the best way to put it is that I just feel like I have an extremely high amount of euphoria, as if I took a LARGE dose of MDMA, accompanied by massive visuals that never really grow beyond just changing shapes and colors. This one's a little harder to get across the way I want, but I'll get back to it in a minute.
Now, the reason this really makes me feel backward is because of the effects other psychedelics have on me. The only two psychedelics I've taken that have ever given me "true" entity contact, fully formed beings, telepathic communication, etc., are LSD and 2C-I. On my strongest LSD trip to date, I'm told I remained motionless and unreachable the whole time, but the way I remember it is that shortly after starting to trip I started getting tunnel vision, and I got up and went into the bathroom to stare in the mirror. My appearance and outfit morphed a bit, I got younger and took on this look something along the lines of psychotic postmodernism meets teenage hipster chick. As this was happening I was completely forgetting that I was tripping or who I was, and my surroundings began to shift and morph until there were several female entities dressed in the same wildly trippy style of clothing as myself, and suddenly I realized that I was at some kind of alien house party, and I was in the bathroom.... My memory of what all went on from that point to when I started coming down is kind of hazy, but it was extremely similar to the DMT breakthroughs I have read about, although maybe if from the point of someone in an insane asylum. Most of what happened I can't describe because there just really isn't any way too, but those entities and I made a statement against reality, it was beautiful and terrible.
So that's the first part, now the second. On my strongest 2C-I trip to date, I was lying in bed when suddenly the air became thicker and the walls became covered with these pink patterns that were like a cross between flowers and pinwheels. Suddenly there were countless "ghosts" floating around me, entities made of blue glowing energy that circled me and began to pass through me and tear my world apart as they did. But at the same time they were caressing my mind in bizarre but amazing ways, and speaking to me telepathically with caring messages. Everything in all of my senses began to vibrate. Now this is what I said I'd get back to later, about the body high thing. On this trip I got the classic DMT effect I always read about where your whole reality becomes made up of vibrating energy, my perception of "normal" was coming unglued and I had the most amazingly spiritual feeling I've ever had. I've never gotten anything even remotely like this on DMT, like I said before, it's just like taking a high dose of MDMA or some other powerful body high.
So like, what gives? Is my brain chemistry just all turned around? :?:
I haven't had the chance to do DMT a really large number of times but I've had my handful of experiences, and mine have differed quite a bit from my friends and some of the ones I've read about. I think the most notable thing I've noticed is that all of my trips have been surprisingly "flat". That is to say, while the visuals do take on a very 3D characteristic, I feel as though I'm watching it all on TV with my face pressed up against the screen, like they don't have a very believable depth. All of my original experiences were with eyes closed and I wondered if this had anything to do with it so I tried keeping my eyes open through an experience and it still felt the same way. The room I was in immediately became like a drawing of itself right in front of my face and then the visuals started to form over it like it was all one solid sheet. This is totally opposite of what I get when I take mushrooms, which make me feel like my sober life is flat in comparison. However, one thing that applies for both tryptamines for me is that, while I do see what one might call entities forming in the visuals, they don't ever become... more than visuals. They remain a part of the patterns and never take on a life of their own. Again, it's like they're just a picture of the entities, not the things themselves. This has remained true even when I've been blinded by rapidly shifting hyperspatial objects. The other biggest thing I've noticed is that I never feel any form of "transcendental" states of mind, like... I guess the best way to put it is that I just feel like I have an extremely high amount of euphoria, as if I took a LARGE dose of MDMA, accompanied by massive visuals that never really grow beyond just changing shapes and colors. This one's a little harder to get across the way I want, but I'll get back to it in a minute.
Now, the reason this really makes me feel backward is because of the effects other psychedelics have on me. The only two psychedelics I've taken that have ever given me "true" entity contact, fully formed beings, telepathic communication, etc., are LSD and 2C-I. On my strongest LSD trip to date, I'm told I remained motionless and unreachable the whole time, but the way I remember it is that shortly after starting to trip I started getting tunnel vision, and I got up and went into the bathroom to stare in the mirror. My appearance and outfit morphed a bit, I got younger and took on this look something along the lines of psychotic postmodernism meets teenage hipster chick. As this was happening I was completely forgetting that I was tripping or who I was, and my surroundings began to shift and morph until there were several female entities dressed in the same wildly trippy style of clothing as myself, and suddenly I realized that I was at some kind of alien house party, and I was in the bathroom.... My memory of what all went on from that point to when I started coming down is kind of hazy, but it was extremely similar to the DMT breakthroughs I have read about, although maybe if from the point of someone in an insane asylum. Most of what happened I can't describe because there just really isn't any way too, but those entities and I made a statement against reality, it was beautiful and terrible.
So that's the first part, now the second. On my strongest 2C-I trip to date, I was lying in bed when suddenly the air became thicker and the walls became covered with these pink patterns that were like a cross between flowers and pinwheels. Suddenly there were countless "ghosts" floating around me, entities made of blue glowing energy that circled me and began to pass through me and tear my world apart as they did. But at the same time they were caressing my mind in bizarre but amazing ways, and speaking to me telepathically with caring messages. Everything in all of my senses began to vibrate. Now this is what I said I'd get back to later, about the body high thing. On this trip I got the classic DMT effect I always read about where your whole reality becomes made up of vibrating energy, my perception of "normal" was coming unglued and I had the most amazingly spiritual feeling I've ever had. I've never gotten anything even remotely like this on DMT, like I said before, it's just like taking a high dose of MDMA or some other powerful body high.
So like, what gives? Is my brain chemistry just all turned around? :?: