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joebono

joebono

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The oral dose was 130mg of yellow freebase and 200mg of harmala alkaloids and setting was in desert at 5:00AM in the morning, before the sunset. After it hit me hard I saw previous years and experiences in my life import themselves into my head. I was literally traveling through time and the past and present were combined, fucking each other and oozing into the future. I understood Life, the Truth, and the Rules – and it is all sick joke. My existence is one big fetish, an obsession where I feed all of my wants and desires and I pretend to care about other things. Everyone else is living this secret too, but most can’t admit it. The Drugs, the Secrets, the depraved fantasies are all wrapped up in the illusion. There were intense mind loops where sense and nonsense, enlightenment and confusion, knowledge and ignorance paraded and danced in front of me. I saw what I truly am. It scared me, it was disgusting and the most hilarious euphoric filled joke.


I became a god. The world disintegrated around me, the ground disappeared and the yawning sky enveloped me and I stood before it, strong and with all the knowledge of the universe. I got it. I understood everything. The meaning of life, the meaning of pain, the meaning of it all. Life and death are the same, suicide is living and life is dying. My mind is consumed with paradoxes, riddles, and meaningless wisdom. The secret is to not want, to destroy desire. I transcended reality. So I will go on with my life and keep pretending. That’s the brilliance of this game.


This trip was the deepest journey I have ever taken. Even my smoked DMT breakthroughs can’t hold a candle to this one. I know my post must sound like a raving person. Maybe I need a break to process this. Perhaps it can’t be processed.
 
OriginalFace said:
Before enlightenment, chop wood, fetch water.

After enlightenment, chop wood, fetch water.

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Yes, you get it too. Why wasn't I told?
 
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Process and then please get back to us. I am interested to hear how some perspective will affect your thoughts on this deepest of journeys. Congratulations, though, on figuring it all out. It IS all an illusion and we are all in it for different reasons. Ascension is a slow process and even with warp speed tools like spice we are still gonna be in the gamma quadrant for awhile.


peace,


Espiridion
 
It was the most real thing I have ever felt. Infinite loops of pure understanding followed by regressive spirals of un-understanding.
 
Brilliant joebono, simply brilliant! I can relate in so many ways. Most cultures force us to live one big charade for sure! Man, I would love to sit down and discuss this one with you, face to face! Running short on time (haha! the charade has called upon me :) ) But I'm going to return to this post. You have hit on some key points that I can honestly grasp!

Beautiful write up! Thanks for sharing!

Peace!
-idt
 
To see the one answers to all the what and why, as it will presents itself in its full paradoxical glory, intertwined, then superpositioned, and finally balanced as one. And the moment one gets it, thats the same moment one realises it cannot be understood from normal reality. And that is the same moment one is integrated back into normal reality, imbalance, which is the world of the ego. It happened on mushrooms. And it blew my mind.

I can still remember seeing all. And also the immediate realisation it is a paradox from the perspective of everyday life (ego). The cosmic joke, you cant get it, there you have it. Nonetheless, i am very thankfull to have seen it all fits. That is what i brought back. And it fuels me everyday. It supplies me a certainty that cannot be taken away from me.

Thx for the nice report. You made me realise again.

The sun is shining. I guess i will now go chop some wood, fetch water
 
This was my first oral trip that I can compare with the intensity of a smoked DMT breakthrough. I can safely say that I did enter that world of hyperspace, the same one that I go to when smoking the molecule. I rarely hear of people taking pharmahuasca and reaching the same depth of experience as a vaporized breakthrough. It can be done and you can stay there, at that same intensity for hours. 24 hours have passed and I still feel like I am slightly tripping. Last night and this morning I slipped back into hyperspatial thinking and had spontaneous DMT trips. This was odd and new for me.

As I was walking in the desert, I thought my friend and I were literally in Heaven walking around in circles and having conversations about the nature and secrets of reality. There was no doubt in my head that I was not in a state of eternal bliss - I knew that I would spend forever in this place, having these conversations about the mortals and the games the gods play to teach enlightenment.
 
Joe. Thanks, once again for so eloquenly puting into words what others have such a hard time explaining. I know I have been there, or I am there? For me, oral dosages above 120mg are indistingushable from vaporized breakthroughs. Its the same hyper-space, except the pharma dosage allows me to face obliteration for an extended period. I have noticed a reverse tolerance of sorts, or at least a sensitivity now.

Thank you for sharing. I always look forward to your posts.

ihs
 
Wonderful, and in the desert too :D

Does knowing this make you feel like you have a little more choice and power in the way you run your life?
 
Oh man, this is wonderful. Much much Love to you joebono! And thanks for sharing, it fills me with joy, wonder, fulfillment and gave me a good laughter at the ridiculousness of it all.
 
Joebono-
Welcome to the club......every time now- i become God.:shock:
Not a God among many...but the one and only.
Some may smirk (maybe not on the Nexus)...but I can say with 100% truth that I am God in my Reality. I can only assume that all of you can also be God in your Reality too. But in MY Reality- there can be only one, and I am that one.

Trying to remember that we are God is the only reason we are here playing this "game"! We all will someday awaken to this new paradign. THIS is the shift that many of us have been anticipating. All the synchronicities and experimentation add up to the final solution...and the prize we get for "winning the game" is to awake to our Godhood.

I have been integrating this knowledge download for over 2 years now....with an occasional booster shot to clear the fog that daily life clouds our perception with. I feel I am very close to making a permanent phase change to being God.......each time I am in that state of perception it is lasting longer and longer....I KNOW that with time it will become permanent. I find I am needing less and less sleep as the change progresses.....many hours in bed I am not sleeping, my mind is whirling so fast trying to figure out the next step of the game. It's as if I'm fucking with myself for entertainment or something! My God Self getting some weird pleasure from the slow burn he's putting on my Regular Self.

Because you see....He's been playing this game forever! Throwing out a fraction of himself and putting a paper bag of forget over that poor sap. (Regular Me) And once Regular Me starts getting close to "winning the game", God Me likes to prolong the exquisite pleasure he gets from my awakening to being God. Sometimes it's as if I can hear him laughing and saying "Keep trying Dumbass! You're almost HOME!"

What's it like to be God?
Wow. That's a tough one. Imagine the happiest moment in your life......now multiply it times infinity. It's so fucking cool. The WHOLE WORLD OPENS UP INTO LIGHT AND LOVE AND ULTIMATE HAPPINESS. You may ask "Well if you're God why not do a miracle or something???" I used to think that too.......but when you are God and EVERYTHING IS EXACTLY PERFECT as it is.....WTF do you need miracles for? YOU ARE A MIRACLE! It's kindof a paradox I guess. All you want to do is just be God! Its a giant ball of fun, love, and expanded awareness. And you KNOW that you are finally HOME after a long stay with the inlaws...or prison...and it just plain feels so fucking good.

I don't understand why this doesn't happen to everyone...at first I had the typical voyages...but after 5 or 6 tries everything changed. I awoke. What a head trip it was at first. The Ego tries it's damndest to stay in control of the ship...."So you're God, huh? Yea Right. Now go get dressed for work you crazy ass!" But with more & more flight time even that hardassed Ego has started to accept what is real. So to any of you who may be having the "quickening" happen,don't give up. Don't freak out. You're NOT CRAZY. In fact you are the most sane you have ever been in your life. Grab the Golden Ring. The prize is worth every second of work that it takes to win it.

Thanks for listening-
Namaste-
-Boypony
 
@joebono

SWIM feels you very much on this particular experience that you had. A month or so ago SWIM did 135mg fumar + 200mg caapi copy. Started to drift off slowly..not noticing much..got very sleepy.

SWIM fell asleep on his bed around midnight to wake up an hour or so later on a full on breakthrough..hehe. It took SWIM several seconds to process what was going on since he had woken up in the midst of these extremely intense visions. SWIM couldn't feel one single ounce of his physical being. Everything in SWIMS vision was likened to infinite sets of translucent pearls that when focused on produced a tunneling effect and it was similar to a "zoom in" of that specific section of that pearly matrix. The past, present, future all enveloped that tunneled section. Many scenes overlaying oneanother to produce this telepathic slidshow. SWIM got it. He got every bit of it. A reconfirmation that we are the main players in this illusion of sorts.

Not much more needs said honestly. You know my friend. Things just start to click. Despite the paradoxial loops the molecule throws at us...theres still that understanding..beyond it all...at our very core...we are IT. All things are not meant to be known.

I watch as the many chase their tails in the hopes of that final realization.. :)



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The bee takes off from the edge of the rose petal
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