I finally peaked through the chrysanthemum!!!!!!

[TrustLoveMan]

Here's what I wrote in the chat earlier.
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20:39:53 * TrustLoveMan joins Hyperspace Chat
20:39:54 ‹Lusense› does that sound right?
20:40:12 ‹TrustLoveMan› I just broke through soo far
20:40:16 ‹TrustLoveMan› holy shit
20:40:16 ‹Lusense› it is right i might just not be explaining prob
20:40:22 ‹Lusense› haha what did you see?
20:40:37 ‹Lusense› but yo ya I used to take like 6 gs
20:40:43 ‹Lusense› and couldn't see it this way
20:40:45 ‹TrustLoveMan› I don't remember a olot but I was crying in the end
20:40:50 ‹TrustLoveMan› I was soo happy
20:40:54 ‹Lusense› thats probably a good thing
20:40:57 ‹TrustLoveMan› to finally connect
20:41:01 ‹Lusense› yessss
20:41:02 ‹Lusense› me too
20:41:21 ‹TrustLoveMan› I tried like 1000 times before always in the wrong mindset
20:41:28 ‹Lusense› ya you get it no
20:41:30 ‹Lusense› w
20:41:40 ‹Lusense› you just need to believe in everything
20:41:43 ‹Lusense› yourself moreso
20:41:44 ‹TrustLoveMan› I meditated and tried to respect and take my time
20:41:52 ‹TrustLoveMan› I only weighted out 35mg
20:41:53 ‹Lusense› you cant expect anything just ask
20:42:35 ‹TrustLoveMan› I meditated with all 35mg in one bong load(I vaped it good), I held it in and locked in on my frequency
20:43:07 ‹TrustLoveMan› It got load and i felt the top of my head start to remove itself like it's still warm
20:43:37 ‹TrustLoveMan› I am crawling up there with all my might and I can peak into the other side
20:43:59 ‹TrustLoveMan› It was soo beautiful and I couldn't stay very long.
20:44:19 ‹TrustLoveMan› I was crying but they were gentle because I prayed and asked them to be
20:44:32 ‹TrustLoveMan› they held me and I cried while smiling
20:45:00 ‹TrustLoveMan› On the comedown I saw a lot of visuals but they were not as sharp as previous ones.
20:45:37 ‹HungryLion› man
20:45:41 ‹HungryLion› that sounds so awesome!
20:45:41 ‹TrustLoveMan› They were almost dull but still very real. I have been looking for a connection to get through the chrysanthemum for a while now.
20:45:42 ‹HungryLion› congrats!
20:46:21 ‹TrustLoveMan› I finally know that there is more to this, And I was/am so happy
20:46:49 ‹TrustLoveMan› I found more in 35mg and searching within myself than smoking over 100mg at once.
20:47:05 ‹HungryLion› definitely
20:47:06 ‹Over› I went in on pharma with the wront intent and way too much DMT
20:47:17 ‹Over› felt like i was going to die for real
20:47:26 ‹TrustLoveMan› me 2
20:47:29 ‹HungryLion› smoothie time, peace yall!
20:47:41 ‹Over› touched god and pulled back in terror
20:48:06 ‹TrustLoveMan› I was very scared of dmt and before I actually looked inside myself and told myself to calm down, my heart was instantly calm
20:48:36 * HungryLion quit (timeout)
20:48:45 ‹TrustLoveMan› That let me connect to the carrier wave and I got a peak
20:49:29 ‹TrustLoveMan› I am back, it was only like 2 minutes but that was more than i've gotten in 2 hours of dmt use.
20:50:23 ‹TrustLoveMan› I'm going to post this text if that's cool with all of you.
20:50:25 ‹Over› yeah, i was at near death for a good 30 mins
20:52:15 ‹Over› after that I felt amazing, in the bed holding my girl for hours
20:52:34 ‹TrustLoveMan› Me only 15 minutes, but I thought it would be 6 hours and I was thinking this must be why people commit suicide
20:52:44 ‹TrustLoveMan› I felt glad to be alive
20:52:45 ‹Over› yeah
20:52:54 ‹Over› I told her i wanted to die
20:53:13 ‹Over› seemed like a good choice at the time, LOL
20:53:23 ‹TrustLoveMan› I am so blown away, this really fuels my spiritual beliefs.

 

[divineyes]

"20:53:23 ‹TrustLoveMan› I am so blown away, this really fuels my spiritual beliefs."

Good for you, bro. You prayed, quieted the heart and the holy angels held you so lovingly. Beautiful.

 

[TrustLoveMan]

Basically after burning many doses of DMT and not respecting it's sacrament I was denied any access past the chrysanthemum. I thought people were exaggerating.
I finally decided to treat DMT like diamond. I carefully weighed out 35 mg and put it into a gel cap. I saved it for a good time and I felt the call today. I mixed some very dry weed and a bit of mulleen and packed a very small bowl. At this point I prayed to DMT and asked for mercy and guidence and I told my heart to calm down, and it did. I got about 30mg unto the leaf and used a very weak flame to vape it into the leaf. Then I burned it with another lighter and pulled it through. I held it in for about 10 second and I was seeing blobs of light turn 3d (exactly like an endogenous experience I had. I was able to peak into the other side and It was the best thing that ever happened to me. I will never doubt or disrespect again!
Also, I could have held it in but I was apprehensive. I am 100% sure that when I try again, I will have a full breakthrough on 35mg.

 

[HipHopHed]

I'm also a bit apprehensive to breakthrough. It's great to hear that you showed much respect to the spice and it treated you well. Last night I was on the verge but I just wasn't in the right environment to go all the way, but I do feel ready. Can't wait to read your report of your breakthrough

 

[TrustLoveMan]

I have two doses of 35mg weighed out and ready for next time I hear the call. I think if I hold it in longer I can breakthrough, at least for a second. I didn't bring very much back with me except that the normal ringing in my ears can take me places.