Thank you ragabr.  I can only hope for the best.  I haven't been able to do that much good in this life.  I ... Jesus, way to long-winded and uninteresting...I'm capable.  Anxiety runs me.  Ayahuasca I hope, will either help heal this, or will put it into a perspective that allows me to write further and more, consider all the facets of life that run dry on me making it difficult to into-great normally. 

I need to go to school.  I need money.  I need to let go. 

I'll get it down, or I'll disappear.