The Electric Hippy
Glitch Modulator
Hello!
I am a new user here, and after reading on these forums for months (and finally meeting Spice in person) I decided to register here as a member. I have come here seeking guidance and wisdom so that I may better my life, and those around me.
I started casual drug use at the age of 13, using alcohol and pills (often together. I am fortunate to be alive). It escalated by the time I was 15, so I made a conscious decision to both slow my use of drugs and to be selective in the drugs that I took. I started using cannabis at this time, and I also had my first experience with the fungus. I immediately noticed these drugs giving me insights into my own behavior and "revealing my Shadow" as it were. Armed with this knowledge, I was able to modify my behavior, and found myself gradually becoming more and more social (I was always the "loner" type). I followed a hunch and continued using cannabis throughout all my high school years, and I definitely attribute it to much of my maturity and world view.
I did not encounter any other psychedelics until I was 22, when a friend gave me a dose of LSD. I've since become something of a psychonaut, eagerly pursuing the ingestion of these substances in order to gain further insights into my own behavior and the world around me.
But none of my experiences prepared me for Spice.
After obtaining some from a friend, I tried (unsuccessfully) to breakthough. I immediately came here and did some research, and tried again later that night by "sandwiching" the Spice in between some Cannabis. This definitely did the trick. My first break though was beyond words beautiful. I was absorbed into the Light and it broke down my body, unraveling my DNA and shedding my mortal coil. I flew though the Universe with this light, traversing entire galaxies in mere seconds. The most incredible experience of my life.
My 2nd break though was later that night. Eager to once again visit the light, I instead found this breakthough more personal. A machine like entity flew down into my backyard and proceeded to break down my body. It's lasers were searing my flesh, and pulling the negative energy from my bones. I left feeling scoured and refreshed, but with a sense of foreboding that I could not quite explain.
It was 3 more nights before I decided to try again. I am ashamed to admit I did not give proper respect to the Spice, and it punished me mercilessly. Upon blasting off, my mind began to reject the experience. Having previous knowledge of high dose psychedelic experiences, I knew to keep a level head and to accept what was being offered to me as guidance, and not to freak out or become scared. My Shadow began it's assault as soon as my head hit the pillow, and for 8 long minutes, the voice in the back of my head, the one constantly trying to scream at me to better my life and to quit making the same mistakes over and over, went from a quiet, nagging suspicion to a man with a megaphone. A man with a purpose who would not be drowned out. Not this time. I endured his lecture and tried my very best to etch his teachings upon my very soul.
Again, I have come here seeking guidance. I want to be the best person I can. I want to help others and walk in the path of love and self improvement. But my old habits of over-eating, too much electronic stimulation (games, TV, movies), bad diet and lack of education keep me routed in the same spot I've been in for over 5 years now. I want better than this, for I know I AM better than this.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post. If anyone here has any advice or links to any reading material they think I might benefit from, it would be greatly, greatly appreciated.
Much Love,
Electric Hippy
P.S Upon blasting off, I am always met with the same image: A human head amongst an impossible pattern. The head has no features but for tinier heads flowing through it's face, each leaving a trail of ever shifting colors. The tinier heads seem to be eating each other, though I cannot confirm this. Has anyone else met this "being"?
I am a new user here, and after reading on these forums for months (and finally meeting Spice in person) I decided to register here as a member. I have come here seeking guidance and wisdom so that I may better my life, and those around me.
I started casual drug use at the age of 13, using alcohol and pills (often together. I am fortunate to be alive). It escalated by the time I was 15, so I made a conscious decision to both slow my use of drugs and to be selective in the drugs that I took. I started using cannabis at this time, and I also had my first experience with the fungus. I immediately noticed these drugs giving me insights into my own behavior and "revealing my Shadow" as it were. Armed with this knowledge, I was able to modify my behavior, and found myself gradually becoming more and more social (I was always the "loner" type). I followed a hunch and continued using cannabis throughout all my high school years, and I definitely attribute it to much of my maturity and world view.
I did not encounter any other psychedelics until I was 22, when a friend gave me a dose of LSD. I've since become something of a psychonaut, eagerly pursuing the ingestion of these substances in order to gain further insights into my own behavior and the world around me.
But none of my experiences prepared me for Spice.
After obtaining some from a friend, I tried (unsuccessfully) to breakthough. I immediately came here and did some research, and tried again later that night by "sandwiching" the Spice in between some Cannabis. This definitely did the trick. My first break though was beyond words beautiful. I was absorbed into the Light and it broke down my body, unraveling my DNA and shedding my mortal coil. I flew though the Universe with this light, traversing entire galaxies in mere seconds. The most incredible experience of my life.
My 2nd break though was later that night. Eager to once again visit the light, I instead found this breakthough more personal. A machine like entity flew down into my backyard and proceeded to break down my body. It's lasers were searing my flesh, and pulling the negative energy from my bones. I left feeling scoured and refreshed, but with a sense of foreboding that I could not quite explain.
It was 3 more nights before I decided to try again. I am ashamed to admit I did not give proper respect to the Spice, and it punished me mercilessly. Upon blasting off, my mind began to reject the experience. Having previous knowledge of high dose psychedelic experiences, I knew to keep a level head and to accept what was being offered to me as guidance, and not to freak out or become scared. My Shadow began it's assault as soon as my head hit the pillow, and for 8 long minutes, the voice in the back of my head, the one constantly trying to scream at me to better my life and to quit making the same mistakes over and over, went from a quiet, nagging suspicion to a man with a megaphone. A man with a purpose who would not be drowned out. Not this time. I endured his lecture and tried my very best to etch his teachings upon my very soul.
Again, I have come here seeking guidance. I want to be the best person I can. I want to help others and walk in the path of love and self improvement. But my old habits of over-eating, too much electronic stimulation (games, TV, movies), bad diet and lack of education keep me routed in the same spot I've been in for over 5 years now. I want better than this, for I know I AM better than this.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post. If anyone here has any advice or links to any reading material they think I might benefit from, it would be greatly, greatly appreciated.
Much Love,
Electric Hippy
P.S Upon blasting off, I am always met with the same image: A human head amongst an impossible pattern. The head has no features but for tinier heads flowing through it's face, each leaving a trail of ever shifting colors. The tinier heads seem to be eating each other, though I cannot confirm this. Has anyone else met this "being"?
As far as the comfort zone remarks, I mean positive, or potentially positive things that you might not think of trying, like talking to a girl you like, meeting new people through a club, or trying something like disc-golf! etc... You never know what is around the corner when you connect with people. easier said than done sometimes I know!
