MySmelf
Rising Star
I had the most amazing experience this weekend. I did Ayahuasca for the first time and fell in love with everything! I've never felt so complete so at piece with myself and the world.
Thursday, March 10. I brewed up 120g yellow B. Caapi vine (3x 3 hour boils) and reduced it to 400mL.
Friday, March 11. I started an all fruit diet for the whole weekend. That evening I decided to test the brew. At 6:35pm I drank a cup of "Ginger Aid" tea. At this point I didn't know what to expect and was a little concerned about nausea. At 7:00pm I drank 200mL or 60g worth of brew. It really didn't taste as bad as I though it would, Calea Zacatechichi tea is much worse. The effects lasted till about 10pm and was a nice strong body buzzing, a little wobbly on my feet and some wispy CEV of flowing rivers of smoke and mists and growing creeping vines. Also a very noted sensitivity to light.
Saturday, March 12. Here's what my notes say:
200mL (60g) Ayahuasca
120mg DMT Acetate
7:07pm drank Aya
7:28pm drank DMT Acetate (mixed it in a small glass of water)
8:55pm I am a GOD Laughing at myself for eternity!
11:23pm starting to come down
11:43pm almost down, still tripping
12:15pm pretty much down, still buzzing
WOW, all I can say!!!!
I was GOD consciousness in a human body and I love everything!
The Beauty, the Tragedy, the music
OH THE MUSIC! ILOVE IT ALL!!!!
The effects came on so slow, starting with a body buzzing and a tone rising in pitch. I propped myself on my bed with pillows piled up against the headboard. I had a puke bucket next to the bed and a roll of paper towels (just in case, I didn't end up needing them though). I had classical music playing softly down stairs in the living room. I couldn't hear it from the bedroom but it was there in case I wandered down stairs. I had my phone next to me with the ringer turned off so I could keep track of time.
Once the OEV really took hold of me I was tripping soo hard it was like I just took a breakthrough dose from the GVG! I would go so far out and then come back to myself. It was like an advanced machine scanning my consciousness, prying open every aspect of my mind. Every weakness, every fantasy, every pain and hate. Every joy and love. Ah yes love, I loved it all. I love everything about me!
I laughed at myself. Every time I'd completely unravel something about me it'd make me laugh! Then I realised I am GOD examining MySmelf! Just eating it up, loving it all. I then decided I have to write something down, leave MySmelf a message. So I got up off my bed and I'm tripping harder than I've ever tripped. I mean I'm buzzing with soo much power and energy, I was a fully conscious GOD in a mortal man and it was just amazing. I sat down at the kitchen table and wrote "8:55pm I am a GOD laughing at myself for Eternity!!".
I decided to head downstairs. About halfway down the staircase I heard the music and I fell in love! AH it was Vivaldi, oh it was so beautiful. It tugged all of my heart strings! I collapsed on the couch and melted away for days it seemed. Everything I heard was wonderful and I fell in love with everything over and over again. I listened to electronica, rap, pop, reggae, rock, metal, jazz, blues and more. Its all so wonderful.
I thought about everything. I thought about the Middle East, the violence and bloodshed. I thought about the homeless, cold and hungry. I thought of the drug addicts and prostitutes. The welfare mothers and the starving around the world. I suffered and died with them. oh the beautiful tragedy of it all! And GOD LOVES every bit of it. I know it sounds so horrible but its also beautiful. I realised as GOD I wouldn't change anything. I loved it all just the way it is. Its perfect. Its everything I hoped and dreamed it could be.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
Thursday, March 10. I brewed up 120g yellow B. Caapi vine (3x 3 hour boils) and reduced it to 400mL.
Friday, March 11. I started an all fruit diet for the whole weekend. That evening I decided to test the brew. At 6:35pm I drank a cup of "Ginger Aid" tea. At this point I didn't know what to expect and was a little concerned about nausea. At 7:00pm I drank 200mL or 60g worth of brew. It really didn't taste as bad as I though it would, Calea Zacatechichi tea is much worse. The effects lasted till about 10pm and was a nice strong body buzzing, a little wobbly on my feet and some wispy CEV of flowing rivers of smoke and mists and growing creeping vines. Also a very noted sensitivity to light.
Saturday, March 12. Here's what my notes say:
200mL (60g) Ayahuasca
120mg DMT Acetate
7:07pm drank Aya
7:28pm drank DMT Acetate (mixed it in a small glass of water)
8:55pm I am a GOD Laughing at myself for eternity!
11:23pm starting to come down
11:43pm almost down, still tripping
12:15pm pretty much down, still buzzing
WOW, all I can say!!!!
I was GOD consciousness in a human body and I love everything!
The Beauty, the Tragedy, the music
OH THE MUSIC! ILOVE IT ALL!!!!
The effects came on so slow, starting with a body buzzing and a tone rising in pitch. I propped myself on my bed with pillows piled up against the headboard. I had a puke bucket next to the bed and a roll of paper towels (just in case, I didn't end up needing them though). I had classical music playing softly down stairs in the living room. I couldn't hear it from the bedroom but it was there in case I wandered down stairs. I had my phone next to me with the ringer turned off so I could keep track of time.
Once the OEV really took hold of me I was tripping soo hard it was like I just took a breakthrough dose from the GVG! I would go so far out and then come back to myself. It was like an advanced machine scanning my consciousness, prying open every aspect of my mind. Every weakness, every fantasy, every pain and hate. Every joy and love. Ah yes love, I loved it all. I love everything about me!
I laughed at myself. Every time I'd completely unravel something about me it'd make me laugh! Then I realised I am GOD examining MySmelf! Just eating it up, loving it all. I then decided I have to write something down, leave MySmelf a message. So I got up off my bed and I'm tripping harder than I've ever tripped. I mean I'm buzzing with soo much power and energy, I was a fully conscious GOD in a mortal man and it was just amazing. I sat down at the kitchen table and wrote "8:55pm I am a GOD laughing at myself for Eternity!!".
I decided to head downstairs. About halfway down the staircase I heard the music and I fell in love! AH it was Vivaldi, oh it was so beautiful. It tugged all of my heart strings! I collapsed on the couch and melted away for days it seemed. Everything I heard was wonderful and I fell in love with everything over and over again. I listened to electronica, rap, pop, reggae, rock, metal, jazz, blues and more. Its all so wonderful.
I thought about everything. I thought about the Middle East, the violence and bloodshed. I thought about the homeless, cold and hungry. I thought of the drug addicts and prostitutes. The welfare mothers and the starving around the world. I suffered and died with them. oh the beautiful tragedy of it all! And GOD LOVES every bit of it. I know it sounds so horrible but its also beautiful. I realised as GOD I wouldn't change anything. I loved it all just the way it is. Its perfect. Its everything I hoped and dreamed it could be.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
