impossiblemachine
Rising Star
i worked with neuronaut and antrocles the other day on a pretty much last minute notice. when arriving, i was given THH to put under my tongue to inhibit me and make my journey even longer.
i arrived under the spell of my good friend marijuana upon arrival...the combination of that and the thh made me very loopy, dreamy, euphoric...here! i would close my eyes and see lion's faces snarling at me. swords turning over and over each other. a jungle feel. i could feel the calling. i was on my way out before i even touched the genie...how beautiful is that.
it took me three big lungfuls to get there...but i got there. i was instantly entered. i felt like i was being moved. NN and antrocles said my mouth opened so wide as soon as i broke through that it looked painful. after 2 minutes of holding that, my mouth closed and my left leg became rock hard and it began moving through the air in big circles. i would then bring it in and turn my foot in circles. the turning of my foot began to tap up and down in the air...like a pedal or something...for 10 minutes.
all the while, my hands were put in a yogic position with my right hand index thumb touching, then my last three fingers being outstretched as hard and far as they can...especially pinky. my left hand felt gnarled in form, but it was very specific. i could often feel my middle finger curl up and vibrate...like an antennae or channel or something.
i remember seeing all the beauty of the usual breakthroughs...waves and quilts of consciousness flowing through me around me showing me the beauty of just being. faces. eyes. but i was not blown away this time. i was happy to be there and thankful, but i was looking through it because it is ok to. this is when i feel that i saw the stillness and beauty of quiet, pristine, hyperspace.
i saw what looked liked to beautifully grey orbs/planets, one on top of the screen, the other on bottom, and being connected by some waivering sash of dark red...moving as if it were underwater. ive seen something like this before....i saw an entity in a parade, twisting around on tiptoe, arms out to the right making a circle, holding infinite black and blue ocean in her arms.
however, throughout all this, i would get glimpses that felt like flashbacks of ships and me being in the cab of one...talking to the pilot or co pilot, but i belonged there...i wasnt visiting it. (i feel like they were frog people kind of, but i cant remember because i couldnt look directly at them...could be ego messing with me too) i would then see the ship flying away and leaving me behind. it would fly into our blue sky and i could see human hands reaching up at the ship. still laying down, i could see mayan ships that look like building more than ships flew overhead.
i remember seeing my cosmic mother in the balcony of one...flying by me..reaching out to me. "mama knows how to love you. let me love you. dont worry about them, let me love you." "ok, i am here. i say yes. i am absolute surrender."
she reached out to me and moved my leg(this is when my leg was moving) i would then feel her grab my right hand and pull it apart. sstttrreeeettttccchhhhhhh. i could feel this in both worlds. it felt good. the more she stretched and i stretched the better. the more i could flex my leg the better. she was moving me. i wanted her to.
they were leaving. she was reaching out to me while on her way out it felt. i had such a connection to these people...just like i do with my family here. i feel like they were/are my family. however, i dont think or question. i am empty. radical acceptance and openness.
i could see the little circus acts swinging back and forth on my thoughts in my consciousness...looking at me. i remember hearing the name of an old schoolmate too a number of times...even then i was like, ? im not sure what that means or if it was just ego trying to intervene and ground. i accept and dont question. i think by doing so, you kill ego...but ego is strong and can rebuild. be love, light, empty.
i could open my eyes and still see through..on my way out though. (not this time, but one time i opened my eyes and antrocles had snail looking energy moving in and out of him...then he had about 15 heads stacked on top of each other)
maybe i am being reminded. i feel like a warrior. my lack of fear. old me would play this off as imagination, but i choose to say yes and embrace everything. no walls, boundaries in thought. radical acceptance. i am not perfect at it, but i work at it.
everything is ok. everything is always ok. i am learning the power of mind body soul...we are truly blessed. thank you for reading.
humility and gratefulness
im
i arrived under the spell of my good friend marijuana upon arrival...the combination of that and the thh made me very loopy, dreamy, euphoric...here! i would close my eyes and see lion's faces snarling at me. swords turning over and over each other. a jungle feel. i could feel the calling. i was on my way out before i even touched the genie...how beautiful is that.
it took me three big lungfuls to get there...but i got there. i was instantly entered. i felt like i was being moved. NN and antrocles said my mouth opened so wide as soon as i broke through that it looked painful. after 2 minutes of holding that, my mouth closed and my left leg became rock hard and it began moving through the air in big circles. i would then bring it in and turn my foot in circles. the turning of my foot began to tap up and down in the air...like a pedal or something...for 10 minutes.
all the while, my hands were put in a yogic position with my right hand index thumb touching, then my last three fingers being outstretched as hard and far as they can...especially pinky. my left hand felt gnarled in form, but it was very specific. i could often feel my middle finger curl up and vibrate...like an antennae or channel or something.
i remember seeing all the beauty of the usual breakthroughs...waves and quilts of consciousness flowing through me around me showing me the beauty of just being. faces. eyes. but i was not blown away this time. i was happy to be there and thankful, but i was looking through it because it is ok to. this is when i feel that i saw the stillness and beauty of quiet, pristine, hyperspace.
i saw what looked liked to beautifully grey orbs/planets, one on top of the screen, the other on bottom, and being connected by some waivering sash of dark red...moving as if it were underwater. ive seen something like this before....i saw an entity in a parade, twisting around on tiptoe, arms out to the right making a circle, holding infinite black and blue ocean in her arms.
however, throughout all this, i would get glimpses that felt like flashbacks of ships and me being in the cab of one...talking to the pilot or co pilot, but i belonged there...i wasnt visiting it. (i feel like they were frog people kind of, but i cant remember because i couldnt look directly at them...could be ego messing with me too) i would then see the ship flying away and leaving me behind. it would fly into our blue sky and i could see human hands reaching up at the ship. still laying down, i could see mayan ships that look like building more than ships flew overhead.
i remember seeing my cosmic mother in the balcony of one...flying by me..reaching out to me. "mama knows how to love you. let me love you. dont worry about them, let me love you." "ok, i am here. i say yes. i am absolute surrender."
she reached out to me and moved my leg(this is when my leg was moving) i would then feel her grab my right hand and pull it apart. sstttrreeeettttccchhhhhhh. i could feel this in both worlds. it felt good. the more she stretched and i stretched the better. the more i could flex my leg the better. she was moving me. i wanted her to.
they were leaving. she was reaching out to me while on her way out it felt. i had such a connection to these people...just like i do with my family here. i feel like they were/are my family. however, i dont think or question. i am empty. radical acceptance and openness.
i could see the little circus acts swinging back and forth on my thoughts in my consciousness...looking at me. i remember hearing the name of an old schoolmate too a number of times...even then i was like, ? im not sure what that means or if it was just ego trying to intervene and ground. i accept and dont question. i think by doing so, you kill ego...but ego is strong and can rebuild. be love, light, empty.
i could open my eyes and still see through..on my way out though. (not this time, but one time i opened my eyes and antrocles had snail looking energy moving in and out of him...then he had about 15 heads stacked on top of each other)
maybe i am being reminded. i feel like a warrior. my lack of fear. old me would play this off as imagination, but i choose to say yes and embrace everything. no walls, boundaries in thought. radical acceptance. i am not perfect at it, but i work at it.
everything is ok. everything is always ok. i am learning the power of mind body soul...we are truly blessed. thank you for reading.
humility and gratefulness
im
