i need some help, please

[samwise]

Hello people, call me samwise. I am a 20 year old male who is very interested in psychedelics. I have had my fair share of experiences over the last 2 years. I have done acid a handful of times and mushrooms 3 times. I have also tried salvia and now I am experimenting with the great chemical DMT. I have wanted to do it for over a year now and finally have had the chance! I was given a gram from some very hippy-ish people at the local frolf course. They said it was expensive. It is off yellow and kinda a powder but has clumps in it. Is this good DMT? and what type would it be? I know you can extract it yourself but I haven't really looked into that yet. I plan on doing it in the future because this stuff on the street is ridiculously priced.

Anyways since I got the DMT I've done it about 5 times over a 2-3 week period. The first time I was very nervous. I worry about my heart rate a lot thinking i'm going to kill myself doing drugs sometimes. I had a very bad acid trip were i thought i was going to have a heart attack, woke my parents up then ended up at a hospital I also had another bad trip before this. I took two tabs of the cid and started tripping very hard. My friends started to mess with me so I think this could have triggered it. I don't quite remember too much from it.. MY friends said I looked and acted like I was possessed. I had thought I died and some other crazy things. I wish I could recall the trip but I can't for the life of me.. Has anyone on here ever blacked out from LSD or shrooms? Or anything psychedelic for that matter. I stayed away from psys for a couple months but everything has been going well and have done it once more since then and have tripped shrooms (never more than 2 grams) I have een kind of weary cause I don't want it to happen again. I feel like I could handle it now but LSD has not been around and will soon do a whole 8th of shrooms.. All the acid around here has been some kind of RC. I have done 2ce a couple times since that is all i could get (The most i've done is 10 mg swallowed then 5 mg snorted) There is my entire background with psys lol.

Anyways, I loaded the DMT into a regular pipe on some cigarette ash. Burnt the whole bowl and held the hit in for several seconds. All that happened was a very fast psychedelic rush. I had no CEV's ( I don't think I have ever really had any vivid CEV's on anything. I don't know what they are supposed to look like? I have never really had a vivid imagination and am not artistic at all. Does this play a role in CEV's) but when I opened my eyes things were very distorted like a strong LSD trip. My other friend who was experiencing this substance with me said he broke through to another dimension. He took a bit more than me though, I estimate I had about 30-40 mg and he had 50-70. (no scale, eyeballing by dividing the half gram into 10 piles. I was kind of angry that I hadn't broken through. I decided maybe I wasn't ready for some reason. I waited a week before I decided to have another try. I was very excited this time, but still very scared that I would die or something. I loaded up about the same amount as the first time with the same thing happening again. Over the next couple days I did this 3 more times. Each time becoming more comfortable and less scared. Like the first 2 times I thought my heart rate was elevated too much and I could have a heart attack. That fear has gone since then.

So last night I decide I'm going to go for it. I loaded up a good amount (maybe 50-70 mg) and burnt it all. I heard a loud buzzing and felt the rush again. I believe I was very close to getting to hyper space but couldn't leave. The sound of the refrigerator turned into some kind of weird music. Like some Indian tribe shit. I may have had some CEV's. I saw kaleidoscope patterns but it wasn't too colorful or very vivid, so I am not too sure if I truly had CEV's. Again when i opened my eyes I had a lot of distortion like a strong LSD trip..

I am getting a little frustrated here. Another friend I gave some to broke through on about the same amount I had taken last night. He said he saw 6 figures with weird faces and lots of colors and patters and was like floating through space.. I want to leave reality like this. I think on Sunday I am going to load up 100mg or .1 on a weed scale my friend has.. I hope this will get me there. Do you guys recommend this? Is it "safe". I believe I can handle it but since I have not broken through I keep thinking maybe psys or just DMT aren't for me. But I wont accept it because I feel I use them for the right reasons.. not just for a high. They are a self enlightening experience. I feel so at one with myself and clear headed when on LSD and shrooms. I believe I can get some understanding of the universe, reality and my own beliefs on things from DMT. Why can't I break through? I know my method isn't the best but 2 other people have gotten there using the same technique I have.

Sorry for the rambling, bad structure and grammar. I am in a rush to post this before work. Anyways any info, tips, or advice is greatly appreciated.

 

[iomegaman72]

In my relatively short, but immersed experiences with DMT... it takes work for vaporization breakthroughs! My first efforts were all across the board--I tried the machine, vaporgenie, aluminum foil, weed pipe and bong wasting copious amounts of DMT to edgy, half-trippy states of being that were quite uncomfortable (for me at least).

First thing I want you to know is the problem of "breaking through" is not unique to you, so rest easy and take the load of all those stressful thoughts off your shoulders

Secondly, I as well did not weigh my doses at first thinking I had a good idea of the mass I was putting into the vaping apparatuses.. Well I definitely didn't I realized when I bought my scale. Every body requires a different amount to break through seemingly determinate upon countless factors including diet, previous drug history, and metabolism. Heck even someones mind can prevent them from fully allowing the drug to take over. The point is even if your friends are breaking through with X amount it's not gonna guarantee it for the next person, pretty obvious I know but it has to be said Also, everyone's breakthroughs are unique to themselves as well, the content of the experience that is. This is something I had to come to terms with--the fact that some people will have conversations with God every time while I just keep getting harassed by elves for my lifestyle hehe. Don't expect to see what you want to see when you do finally breakthrough. If you are really serious about the experience then I recommend getting something to weigh the doses, 25 bucks will get you a sensitive enough scale!

Thirdly, If the ash bed sandwich method is not working for you, change it up! You are right about the fact that it's not the best method and while it can work it is hit or miss for beginners it takes a lot of technique. Torch lighters are a great investment for your future journeys the bursts of heat are incredibly useful for controlling the vaping. The only way I was ever able to breakthrough vaping was in a water bong using a layer of herb, then DMT, then some more herb. I would light the top layer of herb to a rolling cherry and this would vaporize the large amounts (75-100mg) of DMT. Because it was in a bong I could clear the whole bowl in one hit filling up the chamber with the herb/DMT smoke/vapors. The large chamber then acted as a storage device for me to catch my breath quickly and breathe it all in in one large breath without wasting lung capacity to pulling the smoke through.
Again, this is just MY personal way of breaking through.. many other people I have talked to have entirely different methods, you have to find the right one for you

Lastly, as for your question about 100mg being dangerous... You will always come back no matter what my friend--recently I have had some very strong experiences where the concept of "I" did not exist and there were no thoughts of coming back to reality. Alas, I did come back just like the rest of us!! The last resort for attaining breakthrough with vaping is to add more of a dose. Again my personal experience has shown me I need more than most people to really lose touch with physical reality, perhaps you are like this as well or perhaps your method needs to be better--I'm certain no one has an exact answer for you unfortunately.

In closing I should also note the addition of harmalas from natural plant sources or in their pure forms will greatly increase both the effect and length of your dose. Harmalas will also orally activate DMT creating a several hour long experience in which you can navigate your consciousness with much more ease. This type of administration has many different nicknames all ending with the -huasca suffix: ayahuasca mimohuasca pharmahuasca etc. Since experiencing orally active DMT I neither have the urge nor the motivation to vaporize it anymore... Vape sessions with DMT are too intense and fleeting for this guy

The forums here on the nexus have a wealth of information regarding all methods of administration as well as health and safety and dosing. Everything I've told you so far has already been said somewhere else in the forums but that's ok cause we are here to help I do highly recommend browsing the forums extensively before setting out for your next journey.

Welcome to the Entheogenic University from iomega, and just remember DMT is an unbiased, unrelenting teacher that deserves A LOT of respect... patience and dedication my friend

Hope I've helped in at least some small way!