Welcome to the Nexus and thank you for your introduction essay.

Interesting that you describe ecstasy as being the catalyst for transformation, as well as depression. First of all I think there are several psychologists that believe that things like depressions are really more like spiritual crisis. I also feel that ever major depression I've suffered from has led to generally positive changes in my life, sometimes rather drastic ones.

On the other hand ecstasy I have never felt particularly useful for myself, though I do follow the progress of the MAPS studies with astonishment, hope and optimism. Before it became illegal it was used in psychotherapy, as far as I recall, and the current studies do show that it seems to work with PTSD patients, so it's not a far call to suggest that it can help in personal development. I'm glad that it did for you.

For me it has always produced quite harsh hangovers for many days and thus anything gained from the experience usually was counteracted the following days, similar to when using alcohol. I guess It really also depends on the purity of the MDMA that you are consuming.

So what brings you to the Nexus? Have you tried DMT yet? What other psychedelics have you used so far or are interested in?