Exp. Report I'm kind of perplexed? Not sure what to think

[manifest_jynx]

Okay so a little background here, I haven't had a proper breakthrough dosage in almost 2 months now and prior to that I was on an almost 2 year break from spice. Recently I've just microdosing and smoking a changa blend I have which is very grounded, I usually only smoke on my days off work so maybe once or twice a week. I've also taken a lot from my last breakthrough experience and I've integrated a lot of good into my life since then.
I decided I was gonna go for it tonight, took 18mg harmalas sublingually and meditated for 15 mins. I then had 30mg spice loaded in my bong, took my 3 hits and laid back to wait for hyperspace to unfold before my eyes...
And nothing.
Absolutely nothing happened and I was completely sober in 2-3 minutes. I was so perplexed and confused, I thought I was being locked out so I decided maybe some changa would do the trick. Took a couple hits of changa and it was a fantastic time but unfortunately no breakthrough.
I just thought this was really weird, usually 30mg of spice is more than enough to send me into a breakthrough and not to mention 18mg of harmalas on top of that, I definitely should have broken through but I've kind of accepted that it's not my time for a breakthrough and there's no need to try to force it. It'll happen when the time is right.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm definitely not locked out because smoking changa works just fine, I just thought it was very strange and kind of disappointing to not be able to see hyperspace tonight but the time will come when it's right.

Much love

 

[manifest_jynx]

Now that I've had a night of sleep and time to sober up I'm really tempted to try again tonight but kinda hesitant because I don't wanna actually lock myself out or get hyperslaped
I just wanted to see hyperspace again

 

[manifest_jynx]

Decided not to try again because it didn't feel right. Gonna give it a week or so and see how it feels. Feels unnecessary to force it if it won't let me in, hyperspace will open itself to me again eventually. I just gotta trust that I might not have needed a breakthrough at this time.

 

[Varallo]

Decided not to try again because it didn't feel right. Gonna give it a week or so and see how it feels. Feels unnecessary to force it if it won't let me in, hyperspace will open itself to me again eventually. I just gotta trust that I might not have needed a breakthrough at this time.

This is a great idea, something definitely needs to be done to address the issue. Whenever this happens to me, I usually take a break from all substances and focus on being present in the shared reality around me. I can’t say for sure if your experience is the same as mine, but for me, this has only happened after heavy use without balancing other areas of life or when I haven’t taken the time to properly integrate the experience.
I’m not assuming that’s the case for you, but if it is, I’d suggest taking more than a week off and only going back in when the thinking about doing more DMT has been very far in the background for a while.

 

[manifest_jynx]

This is a great idea, something definitely needs to be done to address the issue. Whenever this happens to me, I usually take a break from all substances and focus on being present in the shared reality around me. I can’t say for sure if your experience is the same as mine, but for me, this has only happened after heavy use without balancing other areas of life or when I haven’t taken the time to properly integrate the experience.
I’m not assuming that’s the case for you, but if it is, I’d suggest taking more than a week off and only going back in when the thinking about doing more DMT has been very far in the background for a while.

That's the thing that really confuses me. I haven't been using DMT that heavily in recent months, just small doses and a lighter changa blend once maybe twice a week and was on a long break before that. I don't think this was caused by heavy usage but I know the DMT is trying to tell me something, I wouldn't just be not allowed into hyperspace without some kind of reason.
My conclusion is that I just really didn't need a breakthrough at that moment and that's okay. I really think the DMT is more conscious of us than we think it is.

 

[Varallo]

That's the thing that really confuses me. I haven't been using DMT that heavily in recent months, just small doses and a lighter changa blend once maybe twice a week and was on a long break before that. I don't think this was caused by heavy usage but I know the DMT is trying to tell me something, I wouldn't just be not allowed into hyperspace without some kind of reason.
My conclusion is that I just really didn't need a breakthrough at that moment and that's okay. I really think the DMT is more conscious of us than we think it is.

I not to sure if DMT is conscious, but I understand the feeling. Anyway maybe it’s not about the amount per-see but it’s about the amount of time spent on it, low doses might very well have a similar effect. Otherwise you can risk it and just try again to see if you can get to hyperspace without trying with a single dose, so dosing low with changa and then adding the DMT on-top, or just use changa for a breakthrough. I’m not sure if this is good advice but you seem to be experienced, so depending on that observation you might consider it.

 

[manifest_jynx]

I not to sure if DMT is conscious, but I understand the feeling. Anyway maybe it’s not about the amount per-see but it’s about the amount of time spent on it, low doses might very well have a similar effect. Otherwise you can risk it and just try again to see if you can get to hyperspace without trying with a single dose, so dosing low with changa and then adding the DMT on-top, or just use changa for a breakthrough. I’m not sure if this is good advice but you seem to be experienced, so depending on that observation you might consider it.

My changa seems to work fine which was made with the same spice I tried to breakthrough on and the last of an old batch. Might give the changa a go and take a good few big hits and see what happens.
I'm trying to get that one hit breakthrough method down but I suck at using my GVG and always have no matter what I do . Looking into getting a mesh RDA setup possibly soon, the bong has always been great but I hate having to take 3 hits.
Although I am preparing for bufo in May, which will be my first bufo experience, and I figured maybe some breakthrough work in the meantime would be helpful with surrendering myself more but starting to think the more that I try that maybe I don't need to breakthrough to surrender myself. Or do DMT at all to prepare myself, I think my mindfulness practice has been extremely helpful in mental preparation for this and psychedelic preparation probably isn't necessary.