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Hello!,

I've been reading these and other forums for some time. I wish to state first that I am by no means an expert on psychedelics, but they (more specifically DMT) interest me as a tool for self-discovery. I was raised in an extremely conservative manner as a child, but in the process of traveling extensively since reaching adulthood (partially due to a stint in the US Marines) and living in Japan for a number of years, I found that the spectrum of human experience I had discovered (itself a subset of a limitless realm of possibility) lay outside the parameters of the religion/worldview I was taught. By that I do not mean that I have overgrown religion or that it is false or meaningless, merely that what I had learned in childhood is insufficient to properly explain or even to provide a context for the world as I perceive it. Personally, I think that many religions reflect a great deal of truth, but fail in attempting to delineate and define (reduce to a system) that which is beyond communication in written or spoken language.

I enjoy reading out of mainstream philosophers and teachers, of all cultures and beliefs.

I consider anything possible that cannot be demonstrably disproven, but lean towards skepticism in evaluating supernatural occurrences, etc., in order to come to a more perfect understanding of the truth.

Look forward to reading more of your thoughts and contributing some of my own.
 
Welcome to the Nexus!

I agree that there are relevant truths in different religions, but also there's a lot of "noise", deliberate edits, mistranslations, etc.

So you say DMT interests you as a tool, can you expand more on that? Have you used dmt orally too, and how does it compare to you for this purpouse?
 
Welcome Apple :)

I'm a very new member to the Nexus here as well and look forward to learning with you!

My upbringing was also very conservative throughout childhood, so I can appreciate how much work it takes to open your mind from that paradigm to start appreciating hallucinogens. Hope you find what your looking for here, and with the spice.
 
Endlessness - I have not yet used DMT, I became interested in it as a result of reading/listening to Terrence McKenna. From my previous limited experience I feel that psychedelics alter our perceptions in ways that allow us to discover aspects of our nature that are lost in the background noise of normal consciousness. Also, I've found that they have broadened my personal understanding of reality by opening my mind to new realms of what is possible. That's what I'm looking for in DMT. I am leaning towards the vape method due to the fact that I like to accurately quantify anything I use, from what I've read ayahuasca can be variable and unpredictable in its effects.

Thanks for the welcome Compound!
 
The effects of vapped DMT also can be variable and unpredictable. You're in for a wild ride that will obliterate any expectations youve had :D Be sure to read our health and safety section and all the important tips regarding preparation and integration written there too.

Personally I think ayahuasca is a really great tool and if one only ever smoked dmt, they would probably be missing out on a lot of potential benefits they could get with oral use. But each one has their own way, I can only work on mine :)
 
That Health and Safety area is a real blessing, wish I would have known about it from my first trip into hyperspace on.

Do you solely do the oral versions of dmt ingestion endlessness? Or do you also sometimes enjoy a freebase hit or three?
 
My friend has enough for a whirl at both Endlessness (not true ayahuasca as I understand it though, materials being rue/mhrb), and I am planning on attempting to brew a tea after...is taking a freebase orally qualitatively different as an experience than drinking the tea? From what I've read before on these forums your answer will likely be yes, but what do you think?
 
I appreciate the lead to the Health and Safety area, good information which also answered some questions I hadn't asked yet about proper setting / need for a sitter.

Mental health paragraph is doubled if it bothers anyone.
 
Compound37 said:
That Health and Safety area is a real blessing, wish I would have known about it from my first trip into hyperspace on.

Do you solely do the oral versions of dmt ingestion endlessness? Or do you also sometimes enjoy a freebase hit or three?
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appalachahuasca said:
My friend has enough for a whirl at both Endlessness (not true ayahuasca as I understand it though, materials being rue/mhrb), and I am planning on attempting to brew a tea after...is taking a freebase orally qualitatively different as an experience than drinking the tea? From what I've read before on these forums your answer will likely be yes, but what do you think?
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It all goes in phases. Most of us had a honeymoon phase smoking it often for a while, but this is long past. I seem to vaporize dmt freebase very rarely these days, maybe twice this year, while oral, ive been taking ayahuasca more often, maybe twice a month.

Vapped DMT is an amazing life changing experience of course. Like being shot off a psychedelic cannon, going to another dimension, meeting different beings and what not. But with few exceptions, I find it hard getting any specific lesson, it's more like an awe-inspiring experience to remind me how much weirder reality is than what we think. It helps giving an extra 'shine' to everything once one is back (after the crying, laughing and "wtf wtf wtf" has passed :D ), but its sometimes hard to find the connection between that, and everyday existence, how to integrate and how it really helps in daily life.

Ayahuasca, on the other hand, even though it can be very strong in some trips, visuals and psychedelia, even meeting beings sometimes, but it also seems to work on other subtle levels, and lends itself better IME for self-development. It often seems to show me my own weaknesses, to help me see where I stand in life, help me see a bit more what to do next, where I have to put more effort, etc.

I think both have their own place, and are great tools. Try it for yourselves and see what works better in different moments for you :)
 
I think I may have a couple ozs of MRHB around here somewhere....time to get some caapi and learn about being a brewmaster. :)
 
It seems like you are already very much in the right mindset for the journey you are setting out on. You're looking at the old truths with a critical eye but not flushing it all down the drain just yet... That's a great place to be.

Endlessness's comments about religion are spot-on. Religion is a man made thing, and man is limited. We also have a bad habit of trying to control each other, so all religion is suspect due to that.

The great truths really are beyond description. On the other hand, there are many great life lessons that you can learn on this voyage that are very down to Earth and can be integrated into your daily life to make you a happier and more adaptable person.

There are a lot of threads here about religion, including several recent ones within the first couple pages of Open Discussion. You may find this stuff to really resonate with your present mindset.

It's great that you have already dipped your toe into the psychedelic pool... Best to start with something like LSD or mushrooms before trying DMT. I agree that you may get more useful lessons from Aya; on the other hand I have gained some very useful insights from my freebase experiences. It's all worth trying, and with the info at this site you can approach it all the right way.

Anyway... Welcome, and safe travels!
 
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