Sounds very familiar to me. I smoked low doses of JimJam almost every day for like 1 month, before I got myself to smoke higher doses. Then I got a mini-breakthrough. And after that, I couldn’t get myself to smoke a high dose again. Every time there was that strange anxiety feeling, like my ego was telling me: “If you smoke more of that shit, I will dissolve, I will cease to exist and your life will end”. Once, I thought, I smoked a bit too much and I got a feeling that I got dragged into the Hyperspace/Spirit World again. Well, I freaked out beyond believe
After this ‘freaking out’ I decided, that this stuff is a way too serious to be taken so lightly. So, the next time, I took all the preparations that I could think of. I even bought MDMA crystals and prayed vigorously to Jesus Christ to be merciful with me
And it went great, really.
But even then, I have got a few terror/panic/fear moments while being ‘There’. It felt, as if all of my preparations were for nothing. Or that I barely prepared myself, because it was so overwhelming. So, the next I am going to prepare me even better.
Therefore, I think that a good preparation will greatly reduce the panic before the journey and during the journey.