had a very interesting thing happen to me today...
i am planning on taking a small break from smoking spice you see....i'm about to harvest some yummy fumarate crystals and want to work with pharma for a bit....
..but i got me a new early b-day (dec. 26th) present and i just had to try it out! (the present is going to have it's own thread since it represents a HUGE advance in spice smoking technology and i need to get good pictures before i post).
so, anyways, here's what i learned-
during this breakthrough i was shown "monsters".....scary tenticled beasts, wooly pig-snouted gollums, dagger-toothed shadows.... none of this scared me in the slightest...rather- it filled me with a deep sorrow and compassion i've yet to feel on any journey thus far.
it became apparent to me..in the way that things become apparent whilest in hyperspace...that this "spirit" was like a hurt child. it was angry and hurt that it was taken from it's home without love or asking. it was putting up a scary fascade because it felt wronged.
my compassion was so deep....i even said to it, "i will not abandon you"..."i will stay here and love you". the monsters started to melt before my very eyes...there was a lethargy to the process....like an exhausted sigh of relief that it was "gotten". i stayed with it for the duration of the journey.
I....was taking care....of IT....
the energy i felt and the visions that came after returning were of human hands unceremoniously and thoughtlessly cutting a root out of the earth, throwing it in a bag, grinding it without thought in a machine....no love....no intent....no gratitude...
i have said this before but i feel it is becoming more and more relevant to me...I DON'T HAVE ANY RECORD OR RECOLLECTION OF WHERE I GOT THIS POUND OF MHRB I JUST DID MY EXTRACTION ON... it has been in my freezer for MANY months and in that time i have lost all record of it's origins.
now- whether there is validity to this vision or not- i got a couple things from this profoundly cathartic experience:
1. intent from start to finish. i keep mine as righteous as possible from the minute i get my raw materials. i pray over them, even if they sit in the freezer indefinitely i have them sitting on crystals, pieces of paper that say "love and gratitude", etc.. but i can see that the ULTIMATE connection one can make with the spirit molecule is if one finds a way to grow the source and put loving intent into it from the very beginning...
and most powerful for me:
2. this particular batch of spice i have asks as much from me as i do from it. i work with it to gain awareness of myself and my interconnectedness with all things...to recognize the love that binds all. it gives me this in spades but asks that i give IT as much love in return! :shock: it's like a "love muscle" workout every time i journey with it...
no free rides.....gotta give what you wish to receive...
a couple close travelers have tried this batch of spice and have all had challenging journeys.....each with incredibly similar visions (serpents guarding doors, dark "basement" holding rooms..an almost "unwelcome", though not aggressive or malicious energy). in my heart, i saw it for what it was today: a wounded spirit trying to protect itself from any more hurt.
after a handful of journeys with this spice, this is the revelation i have come to...sounds weird i'm sure....but i feel as though i am meant to heal as much as be healed for a while.... something tells me this will be some of the most rewarding work i've ever done with DMT...
MUCH LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!
i am planning on taking a small break from smoking spice you see....i'm about to harvest some yummy fumarate crystals and want to work with pharma for a bit....
..but i got me a new early b-day (dec. 26th) present and i just had to try it out! (the present is going to have it's own thread since it represents a HUGE advance in spice smoking technology and i need to get good pictures before i post).
so, anyways, here's what i learned-
during this breakthrough i was shown "monsters".....scary tenticled beasts, wooly pig-snouted gollums, dagger-toothed shadows.... none of this scared me in the slightest...rather- it filled me with a deep sorrow and compassion i've yet to feel on any journey thus far.
it became apparent to me..in the way that things become apparent whilest in hyperspace...that this "spirit" was like a hurt child. it was angry and hurt that it was taken from it's home without love or asking. it was putting up a scary fascade because it felt wronged.
my compassion was so deep....i even said to it, "i will not abandon you"..."i will stay here and love you". the monsters started to melt before my very eyes...there was a lethargy to the process....like an exhausted sigh of relief that it was "gotten". i stayed with it for the duration of the journey.
I....was taking care....of IT....
the energy i felt and the visions that came after returning were of human hands unceremoniously and thoughtlessly cutting a root out of the earth, throwing it in a bag, grinding it without thought in a machine....no love....no intent....no gratitude...
i have said this before but i feel it is becoming more and more relevant to me...I DON'T HAVE ANY RECORD OR RECOLLECTION OF WHERE I GOT THIS POUND OF MHRB I JUST DID MY EXTRACTION ON... it has been in my freezer for MANY months and in that time i have lost all record of it's origins.
now- whether there is validity to this vision or not- i got a couple things from this profoundly cathartic experience:
1. intent from start to finish. i keep mine as righteous as possible from the minute i get my raw materials. i pray over them, even if they sit in the freezer indefinitely i have them sitting on crystals, pieces of paper that say "love and gratitude", etc.. but i can see that the ULTIMATE connection one can make with the spirit molecule is if one finds a way to grow the source and put loving intent into it from the very beginning...
and most powerful for me:
2. this particular batch of spice i have asks as much from me as i do from it. i work with it to gain awareness of myself and my interconnectedness with all things...to recognize the love that binds all. it gives me this in spades but asks that i give IT as much love in return! :shock: it's like a "love muscle" workout every time i journey with it...
no free rides.....gotta give what you wish to receive...
a couple close travelers have tried this batch of spice and have all had challenging journeys.....each with incredibly similar visions (serpents guarding doors, dark "basement" holding rooms..an almost "unwelcome", though not aggressive or malicious energy). in my heart, i saw it for what it was today: a wounded spirit trying to protect itself from any more hurt.
after a handful of journeys with this spice, this is the revelation i have come to...sounds weird i'm sure....but i feel as though i am meant to heal as much as be healed for a while.... something tells me this will be some of the most rewarding work i've ever done with DMT...
MUCH LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!
..literally.
