Here is part two, the follow-up report to the experience report posted in this thread:
Some more background on the happenings in my life before I get into the experience report. Over the last couple of years I have been working very hard at shedding some bad habits and improving my physical & mental health as a whole. The Spice has been instrumental in helping me reach these goals. The biggest challenge I was facing last week was a pretty aggressive taper off of Kratom (which I had been using for the past couple of years to kick a much worse opiate habit).
So, I loaded the GVG this time with full spectrum jungle freebase, sandwiched between some Elhaz blend. I hit the GVG and in one fell swoop nailed a breakthrough dose in one draw. The first thing that I saw were these crazy, big, black, rigid framed buggies with giant foam / marshmallow like wheels. Picture a tubular, dune buggy style frame, very rigid and stout, with no windows or doors, just an open frame with seats in it. The wheels were more like "rollers" as they ran the full width of the buggy. They were brilliant white, and spongy, and the buggies just seemed to float on these rollers.
The drivers of the buggies were just black figures, and they seemed to be trying to park these buggies in an underground parking garage structure. The driving area was very tight, and they were motoring around forward and backward to try and get the buggies parked into their respective parking spots. The parking garage was to my right and below me, and at some point I realized that one wall of the structure was actually butted up against my leg. When the buggies would bump into this wall I could physically FEEL them bumping into my leg. It was very much like my leg was occupying another dimension, and became a physical part of that dimension. It was a pretty bizarre vision overall, but seemed to hold no real meaning that I can discern.
Where I went next was extremely introspective, and the visuals seemed to take a back seat to this. Over the past week, while tapering off of Kratom, I had been using a whole cocktail of entheogens and supplements to help me get through the uncomfortable stages of withdrawal. What I suddenly realized while deep in introspection, was just how many "drugs / medicines" (whichever you wish to call them) I was layering on top of one another to try and mask the wd symptoms. I suddenly came to realization that I needed to stop this "layering", because it was only masking symptoms. At this point my body almost felt toxic on the outside if that makes any sense. A shell on the outside of my soul made of a chemical cocktail... I'm not sure how else to describe it.
As I came back from the journey, as soon as I was able to write, I wrote the following: "Quit "layering". It's just a shell around your soul. Molt the shell. Float out of it." This was a very enlightening and healing moment!:idea:
If you stayed with me, and made it through both of these long reads, I think you probably noticed that both experiences had a common theme of a hard shell around my true being and my soul, and that in order to improve myself and my health, I need to crack and shed this shell. In report pt. 1, the shell was realized to be made of stress and tension. In report pt. 2, the shell was realized to be made of medicinal substances. These two experiences combined have armed me with some truly profound tools for making the changes that I'm seeking in my life, and I was immediately able to use these tools to implement this change. I woke up the next morning completely stress and wd symptom free!:shock:
Anyhow, these reports are deeply personal, and probably not as interesting to read, as they were impactful to me at a healing level, but I still wanted to share them. If nothing else, perhaps these reports will help another going through similar struggles, and serve as medium for me to gather and sort the experiences, getting me one step closer to a healthy mind, body, and soul. DMT continues to show me it's power as tool for personal change and healing.
Peace!
-idt
Some more background on the happenings in my life before I get into the experience report. Over the last couple of years I have been working very hard at shedding some bad habits and improving my physical & mental health as a whole. The Spice has been instrumental in helping me reach these goals. The biggest challenge I was facing last week was a pretty aggressive taper off of Kratom (which I had been using for the past couple of years to kick a much worse opiate habit).
So, I loaded the GVG this time with full spectrum jungle freebase, sandwiched between some Elhaz blend. I hit the GVG and in one fell swoop nailed a breakthrough dose in one draw. The first thing that I saw were these crazy, big, black, rigid framed buggies with giant foam / marshmallow like wheels. Picture a tubular, dune buggy style frame, very rigid and stout, with no windows or doors, just an open frame with seats in it. The wheels were more like "rollers" as they ran the full width of the buggy. They were brilliant white, and spongy, and the buggies just seemed to float on these rollers.
The drivers of the buggies were just black figures, and they seemed to be trying to park these buggies in an underground parking garage structure. The driving area was very tight, and they were motoring around forward and backward to try and get the buggies parked into their respective parking spots. The parking garage was to my right and below me, and at some point I realized that one wall of the structure was actually butted up against my leg. When the buggies would bump into this wall I could physically FEEL them bumping into my leg. It was very much like my leg was occupying another dimension, and became a physical part of that dimension. It was a pretty bizarre vision overall, but seemed to hold no real meaning that I can discern.
Where I went next was extremely introspective, and the visuals seemed to take a back seat to this. Over the past week, while tapering off of Kratom, I had been using a whole cocktail of entheogens and supplements to help me get through the uncomfortable stages of withdrawal. What I suddenly realized while deep in introspection, was just how many "drugs / medicines" (whichever you wish to call them) I was layering on top of one another to try and mask the wd symptoms. I suddenly came to realization that I needed to stop this "layering", because it was only masking symptoms. At this point my body almost felt toxic on the outside if that makes any sense. A shell on the outside of my soul made of a chemical cocktail... I'm not sure how else to describe it.
As I came back from the journey, as soon as I was able to write, I wrote the following: "Quit "layering". It's just a shell around your soul. Molt the shell. Float out of it." This was a very enlightening and healing moment!:idea:
If you stayed with me, and made it through both of these long reads, I think you probably noticed that both experiences had a common theme of a hard shell around my true being and my soul, and that in order to improve myself and my health, I need to crack and shed this shell. In report pt. 1, the shell was realized to be made of stress and tension. In report pt. 2, the shell was realized to be made of medicinal substances. These two experiences combined have armed me with some truly profound tools for making the changes that I'm seeking in my life, and I was immediately able to use these tools to implement this change. I woke up the next morning completely stress and wd symptom free!:shock:
Anyhow, these reports are deeply personal, and probably not as interesting to read, as they were impactful to me at a healing level, but I still wanted to share them. If nothing else, perhaps these reports will help another going through similar struggles, and serve as medium for me to gather and sort the experiences, getting me one step closer to a healthy mind, body, and soul. DMT continues to show me it's power as tool for personal change and healing.
Peace!
-idt
