Binary Drool
Rising Star
First and foremost I would like to thank the creator and executives of the Nexus. This site is extremely informative and well built. I appreciate the open armed welcomes to the newly registered members and the sense of fellowship.
About me:
I’m 26 years old. I grew up in a small woods town with some loving supportive parents who also had 4 other children. I am the 2nd born. Family has always been important to me. I have a massive extended family as well and we all get along. I have been an artist since the day I could hold a pencil and a developing creative open mind ever since. I did quite well academically in high school and was part of several social groups. I hung out with the kids on sports teams, the computer geeks, the skaters and anyone who was just a good overall person. I was given awards for my artistic skills. Early in life I took to cameras, still and video. I made all sorts of videos for the school and a bunch of my own. I was the top of my photography class 9th grade to senior. I dove into animation as well as scripted projects. I decided to further my education in film studies so I attended Full Sail in Orlando, Florida. Immersed in my studies natural I did very well and obtained quite the education. I moved to Hollywood, California to pursue my degree. This was really enjoyable for the fact that I was meeting likeminded people every day and building an impressive resume, not to mention the money which came along with it although, I found myself becoming unhappy of my situation. The city of Los Angles is filled with egotistical people. That city can suck the good out of someone. I decided it was time for a change, so I packed up my stuff and moved to the polar opposite location. Boulder, Colorado. I lived there for some time and have since moved back to the town I grew up in mainly focusing on creative projects and writing. I’ve got two screenplays that have really developed into some powerful stories with a few others on the back burner.
Religious/Spiritual experience:
My family are devoted Catholics. I have two aunts who are Nuns and everyone attends church regularly. My mother says her rosary every night before bed and prays to St. Anthony when things are missing. Shortly after birth I was baptized later to make communion and be an altar boy regularly. This was not necessarily by choice of course. When you have a family like mine you’re sort of bred into this type of thing. I was around the age of 13 when I first smoked pot. I always felt this inner rebel in me, but it wasn’t this evil force of any kind. It was more of the need to find myself, and I knew I was at that time on a predetermined course. Also there was no internet at this time, so finding information on my own was difficult. I began to hang out with others who smoked pot and we’d get into deep conversations regarding philosophy and life/after life as we all do. Years pass and I stop going to church. It comes time for conformation which is sort of an upgraded communion for Catholics. I had no interest in being confirmed. I went to the classes to keep my mother happy, but in the end dropped out because I just didn’t feel like it had merit with my beliefs. At this point in my life I had basically become atheist. The word God really nerved me. I had been brainwashed. God had been personified and everything spiritually related would trigger these post catholic thoughts or relations. I really hated it ‘God’ I hated organized religion but now there was this void. I was uncomfortable believing that when you die you either go to eternal Hell, wait in some place for millions of years or go to the pearly gates and be welcomed by this sublime god with a white beard. In any event, I didn’t like this void. I wanted to believe in something. So I began my search. I just wanted to feel comfortable as a believer.
Psychedelic experiences:
I started experimenting with psychedelics around the age of 17 but never for spiritual research, merely to feel funny with my friends, mushrooms and LSD mainly. In my later years mostly DMT, LSD and Ketamine. My spiritual void lingered for some years. I wouldn’t say I was in search for answers, just open to whatever may come my way. The first time I smoked DMT something clicked. It’s hard to explain but I just started to think a different way about my soul, this life and the after. Needless to say I felt DMT had great value so I began to build a relationship with it and learned how to extract myself. I started writing my experiences down in a journal a few months ago but wish I had started earlier. I’d love to be able to post in the DMT Experiences section of the forum. My experience with DMT has opened me up and made me a better person. I am now comfortable with using the word God, it loves me and I love it. DMT is teaching me to love myself.
Conclusion:
Humans in general have a great understanding of what love is; to love your mother unconditionally, to love your significant other, to really love the Raiders or Yankees or the color green. But very little know how to love themselves. When you can love yourself is when you’ll truly understand the full meaning of love.
About me:
I’m 26 years old. I grew up in a small woods town with some loving supportive parents who also had 4 other children. I am the 2nd born. Family has always been important to me. I have a massive extended family as well and we all get along. I have been an artist since the day I could hold a pencil and a developing creative open mind ever since. I did quite well academically in high school and was part of several social groups. I hung out with the kids on sports teams, the computer geeks, the skaters and anyone who was just a good overall person. I was given awards for my artistic skills. Early in life I took to cameras, still and video. I made all sorts of videos for the school and a bunch of my own. I was the top of my photography class 9th grade to senior. I dove into animation as well as scripted projects. I decided to further my education in film studies so I attended Full Sail in Orlando, Florida. Immersed in my studies natural I did very well and obtained quite the education. I moved to Hollywood, California to pursue my degree. This was really enjoyable for the fact that I was meeting likeminded people every day and building an impressive resume, not to mention the money which came along with it although, I found myself becoming unhappy of my situation. The city of Los Angles is filled with egotistical people. That city can suck the good out of someone. I decided it was time for a change, so I packed up my stuff and moved to the polar opposite location. Boulder, Colorado. I lived there for some time and have since moved back to the town I grew up in mainly focusing on creative projects and writing. I’ve got two screenplays that have really developed into some powerful stories with a few others on the back burner.
Religious/Spiritual experience:
My family are devoted Catholics. I have two aunts who are Nuns and everyone attends church regularly. My mother says her rosary every night before bed and prays to St. Anthony when things are missing. Shortly after birth I was baptized later to make communion and be an altar boy regularly. This was not necessarily by choice of course. When you have a family like mine you’re sort of bred into this type of thing. I was around the age of 13 when I first smoked pot. I always felt this inner rebel in me, but it wasn’t this evil force of any kind. It was more of the need to find myself, and I knew I was at that time on a predetermined course. Also there was no internet at this time, so finding information on my own was difficult. I began to hang out with others who smoked pot and we’d get into deep conversations regarding philosophy and life/after life as we all do. Years pass and I stop going to church. It comes time for conformation which is sort of an upgraded communion for Catholics. I had no interest in being confirmed. I went to the classes to keep my mother happy, but in the end dropped out because I just didn’t feel like it had merit with my beliefs. At this point in my life I had basically become atheist. The word God really nerved me. I had been brainwashed. God had been personified and everything spiritually related would trigger these post catholic thoughts or relations. I really hated it ‘God’ I hated organized religion but now there was this void. I was uncomfortable believing that when you die you either go to eternal Hell, wait in some place for millions of years or go to the pearly gates and be welcomed by this sublime god with a white beard. In any event, I didn’t like this void. I wanted to believe in something. So I began my search. I just wanted to feel comfortable as a believer.
Psychedelic experiences:
I started experimenting with psychedelics around the age of 17 but never for spiritual research, merely to feel funny with my friends, mushrooms and LSD mainly. In my later years mostly DMT, LSD and Ketamine. My spiritual void lingered for some years. I wouldn’t say I was in search for answers, just open to whatever may come my way. The first time I smoked DMT something clicked. It’s hard to explain but I just started to think a different way about my soul, this life and the after. Needless to say I felt DMT had great value so I began to build a relationship with it and learned how to extract myself. I started writing my experiences down in a journal a few months ago but wish I had started earlier. I’d love to be able to post in the DMT Experiences section of the forum. My experience with DMT has opened me up and made me a better person. I am now comfortable with using the word God, it loves me and I love it. DMT is teaching me to love myself.
Conclusion:
Humans in general have a great understanding of what love is; to love your mother unconditionally, to love your significant other, to really love the Raiders or Yankees or the color green. But very little know how to love themselves. When you can love yourself is when you’ll truly understand the full meaning of love.
