Hi,
As an introduction, a bit about myself.. Until about 5 years ago, I was a devout rationalist, axiomatically holding that logic, science, and mathematics could explain all there is to explain and that the world could only be experienced empirically (the rest is metaphysics). In the back of my mind though, I think I held out some hope that there was a higher form of experience possible, and so I did try to seek that out. Alcohol and the occasional social joint did not result in anything for me aside from feeling lightheaded and sleepy. Hypnosis had no effects, neither did experimentation with various yoga techniques and "astral projection" tutorials online. My rationalist view of reality was being confirmed! The descriptions of other people's travels were a product of their delusions, I thought.
This all ended abruptly during my vacation in the Netherlands, where I procured a psilocybin mushroom and, not expecting much of it, ingested it. What followed were a life changing few hours - where I have felt feelings I've never felt prior, pondered thoughts that could not be fathomed or replicated in an unlifted state, and perhaps most amazingly, felt the reality of all of this as being more authentic than I could have imagined. After my cynical nature was thus swiftly crushed, I spent the night afterwards rethinking major points about my life, which had very positive practical consequences. There was no doubt - in my regular life I was only seeing 5% of the iceberg, while the other 95% was deeply submerged and I felt one's life's meaning might well be to explore that hidden beauty. Since then, the mushroom has been a repeat guest at my table, although because of the power, I try to keep the frequency respectably low.
Which brings me to this site. From what I have read and heard, it seems that that 95% of the mushroom iceberg, is itself actually only a tiny percentage of the even larger sculpture of reality as it is revealed by DMT. To say that I'm intrigued would be an understatement.. I feel like I owe it to myself to have a glimpse at that reality, at least once in my life, even briefly, to get a sense of how rich the fabric is textured and how deep the proverbial rabbit hole goes.
I understand that the common road to that on this site seems to be self procurement and I respect that. My issue though is not with obtaining it, but with having someone to guide me through the experience and to also act as a teacher of sorts - a person who would know the proper parameters (amount, set, setting, etc.) for the intake, and to just be there to provide some support in case during a bad or frightening situation develops. In other words, I just want someone experienced in this extremely powerful substance to be my traveling partner, instead of embarking on the perilous journey myself, with all its potential pitfalls. Am I correct in presuming that people who have had their life view changed by DMT would perhaps be enthusiastic to share that with (mature) others?
To this end, my question : Do there exist any groups or societies, in the Eastern United States (or ideally in NY), that would be willing to gently guide/initiate one into experiencing DMT? Possibly some group of people who have meetups, or maybe a one-to-one session, or some other forms of gathering?
Thank you and I look forward to participating here.
Int
As an introduction, a bit about myself.. Until about 5 years ago, I was a devout rationalist, axiomatically holding that logic, science, and mathematics could explain all there is to explain and that the world could only be experienced empirically (the rest is metaphysics). In the back of my mind though, I think I held out some hope that there was a higher form of experience possible, and so I did try to seek that out. Alcohol and the occasional social joint did not result in anything for me aside from feeling lightheaded and sleepy. Hypnosis had no effects, neither did experimentation with various yoga techniques and "astral projection" tutorials online. My rationalist view of reality was being confirmed! The descriptions of other people's travels were a product of their delusions, I thought.
This all ended abruptly during my vacation in the Netherlands, where I procured a psilocybin mushroom and, not expecting much of it, ingested it. What followed were a life changing few hours - where I have felt feelings I've never felt prior, pondered thoughts that could not be fathomed or replicated in an unlifted state, and perhaps most amazingly, felt the reality of all of this as being more authentic than I could have imagined. After my cynical nature was thus swiftly crushed, I spent the night afterwards rethinking major points about my life, which had very positive practical consequences. There was no doubt - in my regular life I was only seeing 5% of the iceberg, while the other 95% was deeply submerged and I felt one's life's meaning might well be to explore that hidden beauty. Since then, the mushroom has been a repeat guest at my table, although because of the power, I try to keep the frequency respectably low.
Which brings me to this site. From what I have read and heard, it seems that that 95% of the mushroom iceberg, is itself actually only a tiny percentage of the even larger sculpture of reality as it is revealed by DMT. To say that I'm intrigued would be an understatement.. I feel like I owe it to myself to have a glimpse at that reality, at least once in my life, even briefly, to get a sense of how rich the fabric is textured and how deep the proverbial rabbit hole goes.
I understand that the common road to that on this site seems to be self procurement and I respect that. My issue though is not with obtaining it, but with having someone to guide me through the experience and to also act as a teacher of sorts - a person who would know the proper parameters (amount, set, setting, etc.) for the intake, and to just be there to provide some support in case during a bad or frightening situation develops. In other words, I just want someone experienced in this extremely powerful substance to be my traveling partner, instead of embarking on the perilous journey myself, with all its potential pitfalls. Am I correct in presuming that people who have had their life view changed by DMT would perhaps be enthusiastic to share that with (mature) others?
To this end, my question : Do there exist any groups or societies, in the Eastern United States (or ideally in NY), that would be willing to gently guide/initiate one into experiencing DMT? Possibly some group of people who have meetups, or maybe a one-to-one session, or some other forms of gathering?
Thank you and I look forward to participating here.
Int
