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I thought I would write a little about my background and the kind of things that interest me relating to exploration into other realms of consciousness.
I began lucid dreaming at a very young age. I remembers treading water in the air one day and realising I must be in a dream as flying is impossible and then flying to a nearby woods and holding onto a tree for dear life and waking because of the excitement.
It wasn’t until my teenage years (after reading a book by Carlos castinada) that I realised that I could induce lucid dreams at will with practice (in this case seeing my hands in my dreams)
At this same period I began experimenting with hallucinations, namely LSD, psilocybin, MDMA, amphetamine and skanky seedy old pot.
In later years and after viewing the film inception I increased my practice of lucid dreaming to a nightly event and began experimenting with various dreaming herbs and supplements. Of which Galanamine, alpha gpc, 5htp, vitamin b6, huperzine A we’re found most effective.
I became very advanced at the practice of lucid dreaming and was now able WILD (transition from the waking state to the dream state while conscious) fairly regularly and there was little I couldn’t do within this realm. Thanks to my obsession and enthusiasm to explore and bring back songs art and stories from this realm.
After a difficult break up with my one true love I began smoking pure skunk weed in a dark room and soon began to make this a weekly practice. I would focus intently of his physical health during this difficult time and began practicing sexual abstinence to increase my mood and energy levels.
I found with each journey that he could go deeper and deeper into his unconscious mind. Utilising breathing techniques, resonance chanting (a kind of self taught throat singing tequnique) rocking, and ritualistic idol worship. I found great healing and eventually a full kundalini awakening.
To reach such places took an incredible amount of preparation focus and luck but now I had had a taste of the timeless bliss my life would forever be dedicated realising this ultimate destination and dared to imagine the possibility that I had perhaps only scratched the surface. So much respect and gratitude I have for my first and truly beloved plant teacher Marijuana.
At this stage I began to learn of other plant teachers and of course tales of the mother Ayahuasca began to fill my consciousness. I was certain I wanted to meet such a teacher, I knew that a deeper healing was still required to resolve the issues I pretended did not exist. Pornography addiction, social anxiety and depression which I believed also manifested itself into physical ailments like inflammation low immune system and fatigue.
I planned an Ayahuasca journey and began a 2 week dieta with Ajo Sachs eating nothing but plain boiled white rice, plantain, boiled eggs and chicken. I bathed in baths of AS for the duration and noticed how my senses became highly accute to the effect that the smell of washing powder nearly nocked me out in the local supermarket.
During the duration of the dieta I experienced beautiful spontaneous lucid dreams and at one stage was blessed with the presence of the spirit of the plant, a beautiful Angelic being of brilliant glowing light who had the warmth and love of your most favourite Nan. I was so touched by this dream and the dieta made me feel so amazing I considered backing out of the ayahuasca ceremony. I was now seeing the worlds beauty with new eyes, the trees had there own personality and seemed to be communicating with me, the sun had colours and movement I had never observed before. The world seemed to be filled with childlike wonder again, magic and meaning that I had long forgotten, yet my heartache was still ever present, I knew the pain was vary much a necessary part of my new altered perspective of this incredible world we live in.
The ayahuasca trip itself did not bless me with a journey, however I did experiences purging of fluids after injestion and extremely heavy and vivid dreams of a drowned world of dark brown waters and people saving themselves on rooftops. Allthough I was a little disappointed that my preparation of ayahuasca did not manifest as I had expected (and in fact seemed to have caused some minor stomach issues for the following week) I was certain I would continue to peruse the teachings of this well respected master plant spirit.
My 2nd attempt with Ayahuaca was also fruitless, this time dieting with Chiric Sanango. I began to believe I was a lousy cook! But swim enjoyed the practice of dieta and found it very purifying on its own.
My next phycadellic experiment was with ketamine, I somehow miscalculated the dose for oral ingestion and later found he had probably taken about 3 times the dose to put anyone In the deepest and darkest K hole. At this date this was my most profound and alien journey into alternate dimensions. I will briefly describe what unfolded;
I drank the powder down in a glass of orange juice about 11am. closed my black out blind and put on his sleep mask and ear plugs. After a certain amount of time I began to observe myself being lowered into a cavernous octagonal marble lined pit. I was both big and small and began to observe my mind fold in on itself like a blob of liquid floating in the void of space. I realised the fragility of my consciousness, what ever I focussed on became the new flavour of my entire universe. I was descending fast into an abstract microscopic universe and held on to crystalline structures with my dream body for dear life all the while knowing i was not down-here alone. The Lady occupied the territory, this was her underworld. She was terrifyingly powerful and I managed to stay out of her way before falling far deeper into the ever evolving landscape of textures and subtle monochrome hues. At one stage my entire body was made of iron filings.
I fell so far that I popped out of our universe altogether, exited the sphere into a new space. Below me a hell realm, I could feel the terror and pull of its event horizon in my belly but fortunately managed to will myself just out of reach of its magnetic attraction. Ahead of me the 7 heavenly spheres, one for each of the major faiths, each consecutive one adorned with stained glass, Islamic tiles, sacred geometry and so on. Being most in agreement with eastern spiritual philosophy I headed towards the nearest sphere. Made of wood with a cross legged Buddhist statue at its doors. As I drew closer I knew that this was the gates of the Buddhafield I was certain that if I was to enter I would see/ experience the eternal heavens.. but yet something inside me knew. That this was just another illusion. I had been through and seen so much already that this would just be more visual opulence and was not what I sought at this time. So I allowed myself to surrender. I let the world before me dissolve into the darkest emptyness. My mind now without thought. Nothing existed... complete silence....
I now began to realise that I was in a new kind of emptyness, like as if all my life I had believed I had existied in 3 dimensional space but now I was allowed to be within a much higher dimensional emptyness. I had never felt such peace. I then Realised the only thing in this void of emptyness was myself and that I was a point of sconsciousness in the centre of this void of space and as soon as I realised this I could then see off in the vast distances of this void my own light reflecting back at me. This was envigerating and comforting to me.
I then realised that this void was timeless and that swim had been there forever and as much as I adored the bliss my nature was to live and at that point I reasiled my WILL.
As if like an ripple from the big bang events then unfolded in perfect order. The fingers of my right hand began to unfold as if like a yogic master. I began to move each and every limb in sequence in a beautiful flowing vinyasa. I then spoke a concession of sacred vowels. And as soon as this was done I began to ride the light of ecstasy. The badest ass music swim could ever dream of hearing, the most spectacular feeling I had ever felt. The most incredible visions of pure white brilliant light With each moment this feeling built and built exponentially, and I yelled with shear joy as I rode this wave all the way like an indestructible coyboy riding an atom bomb into the heart of the North Star. Yeeeeehhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I woke on the floor of my bedroom and immediately threw up foul smelling chemical bile all over his carpet. I was alive! I felt like a hobbit for a good while but I was back in the world of the living and felt brilliant for many weeks after the event, like a new man.
At a later date I began to experiment again with LSD, cubensis and other such hallucinogens, of which I have great respect.
I have recently been opened to the world of DMT (of which I have written about here) and am exited at the possibilities of combining it with dreaming herbs (much of which are compatible with DMT) and Implimenting my skills in navigating alternate dimensions that I have practiced for so many years in dreams.
Much love and light
L
I thought I would write a little about my background and the kind of things that interest me relating to exploration into other realms of consciousness.
I began lucid dreaming at a very young age. I remembers treading water in the air one day and realising I must be in a dream as flying is impossible and then flying to a nearby woods and holding onto a tree for dear life and waking because of the excitement.
It wasn’t until my teenage years (after reading a book by Carlos castinada) that I realised that I could induce lucid dreams at will with practice (in this case seeing my hands in my dreams)
At this same period I began experimenting with hallucinations, namely LSD, psilocybin, MDMA, amphetamine and skanky seedy old pot.
In later years and after viewing the film inception I increased my practice of lucid dreaming to a nightly event and began experimenting with various dreaming herbs and supplements. Of which Galanamine, alpha gpc, 5htp, vitamin b6, huperzine A we’re found most effective.
I became very advanced at the practice of lucid dreaming and was now able WILD (transition from the waking state to the dream state while conscious) fairly regularly and there was little I couldn’t do within this realm. Thanks to my obsession and enthusiasm to explore and bring back songs art and stories from this realm.
After a difficult break up with my one true love I began smoking pure skunk weed in a dark room and soon began to make this a weekly practice. I would focus intently of his physical health during this difficult time and began practicing sexual abstinence to increase my mood and energy levels.
I found with each journey that he could go deeper and deeper into his unconscious mind. Utilising breathing techniques, resonance chanting (a kind of self taught throat singing tequnique) rocking, and ritualistic idol worship. I found great healing and eventually a full kundalini awakening.
To reach such places took an incredible amount of preparation focus and luck but now I had had a taste of the timeless bliss my life would forever be dedicated realising this ultimate destination and dared to imagine the possibility that I had perhaps only scratched the surface. So much respect and gratitude I have for my first and truly beloved plant teacher Marijuana.
At this stage I began to learn of other plant teachers and of course tales of the mother Ayahuasca began to fill my consciousness. I was certain I wanted to meet such a teacher, I knew that a deeper healing was still required to resolve the issues I pretended did not exist. Pornography addiction, social anxiety and depression which I believed also manifested itself into physical ailments like inflammation low immune system and fatigue.
I planned an Ayahuasca journey and began a 2 week dieta with Ajo Sachs eating nothing but plain boiled white rice, plantain, boiled eggs and chicken. I bathed in baths of AS for the duration and noticed how my senses became highly accute to the effect that the smell of washing powder nearly nocked me out in the local supermarket.
During the duration of the dieta I experienced beautiful spontaneous lucid dreams and at one stage was blessed with the presence of the spirit of the plant, a beautiful Angelic being of brilliant glowing light who had the warmth and love of your most favourite Nan. I was so touched by this dream and the dieta made me feel so amazing I considered backing out of the ayahuasca ceremony. I was now seeing the worlds beauty with new eyes, the trees had there own personality and seemed to be communicating with me, the sun had colours and movement I had never observed before. The world seemed to be filled with childlike wonder again, magic and meaning that I had long forgotten, yet my heartache was still ever present, I knew the pain was vary much a necessary part of my new altered perspective of this incredible world we live in.
The ayahuasca trip itself did not bless me with a journey, however I did experiences purging of fluids after injestion and extremely heavy and vivid dreams of a drowned world of dark brown waters and people saving themselves on rooftops. Allthough I was a little disappointed that my preparation of ayahuasca did not manifest as I had expected (and in fact seemed to have caused some minor stomach issues for the following week) I was certain I would continue to peruse the teachings of this well respected master plant spirit.
My 2nd attempt with Ayahuaca was also fruitless, this time dieting with Chiric Sanango. I began to believe I was a lousy cook! But swim enjoyed the practice of dieta and found it very purifying on its own.
My next phycadellic experiment was with ketamine, I somehow miscalculated the dose for oral ingestion and later found he had probably taken about 3 times the dose to put anyone In the deepest and darkest K hole. At this date this was my most profound and alien journey into alternate dimensions. I will briefly describe what unfolded;
I drank the powder down in a glass of orange juice about 11am. closed my black out blind and put on his sleep mask and ear plugs. After a certain amount of time I began to observe myself being lowered into a cavernous octagonal marble lined pit. I was both big and small and began to observe my mind fold in on itself like a blob of liquid floating in the void of space. I realised the fragility of my consciousness, what ever I focussed on became the new flavour of my entire universe. I was descending fast into an abstract microscopic universe and held on to crystalline structures with my dream body for dear life all the while knowing i was not down-here alone. The Lady occupied the territory, this was her underworld. She was terrifyingly powerful and I managed to stay out of her way before falling far deeper into the ever evolving landscape of textures and subtle monochrome hues. At one stage my entire body was made of iron filings.
I fell so far that I popped out of our universe altogether, exited the sphere into a new space. Below me a hell realm, I could feel the terror and pull of its event horizon in my belly but fortunately managed to will myself just out of reach of its magnetic attraction. Ahead of me the 7 heavenly spheres, one for each of the major faiths, each consecutive one adorned with stained glass, Islamic tiles, sacred geometry and so on. Being most in agreement with eastern spiritual philosophy I headed towards the nearest sphere. Made of wood with a cross legged Buddhist statue at its doors. As I drew closer I knew that this was the gates of the Buddhafield I was certain that if I was to enter I would see/ experience the eternal heavens.. but yet something inside me knew. That this was just another illusion. I had been through and seen so much already that this would just be more visual opulence and was not what I sought at this time. So I allowed myself to surrender. I let the world before me dissolve into the darkest emptyness. My mind now without thought. Nothing existed... complete silence....
I now began to realise that I was in a new kind of emptyness, like as if all my life I had believed I had existied in 3 dimensional space but now I was allowed to be within a much higher dimensional emptyness. I had never felt such peace. I then Realised the only thing in this void of emptyness was myself and that I was a point of sconsciousness in the centre of this void of space and as soon as I realised this I could then see off in the vast distances of this void my own light reflecting back at me. This was envigerating and comforting to me.
I then realised that this void was timeless and that swim had been there forever and as much as I adored the bliss my nature was to live and at that point I reasiled my WILL.
As if like an ripple from the big bang events then unfolded in perfect order. The fingers of my right hand began to unfold as if like a yogic master. I began to move each and every limb in sequence in a beautiful flowing vinyasa. I then spoke a concession of sacred vowels. And as soon as this was done I began to ride the light of ecstasy. The badest ass music swim could ever dream of hearing, the most spectacular feeling I had ever felt. The most incredible visions of pure white brilliant light With each moment this feeling built and built exponentially, and I yelled with shear joy as I rode this wave all the way like an indestructible coyboy riding an atom bomb into the heart of the North Star. Yeeeeehhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I woke on the floor of my bedroom and immediately threw up foul smelling chemical bile all over his carpet. I was alive! I felt like a hobbit for a good while but I was back in the world of the living and felt brilliant for many weeks after the event, like a new man.
At a later date I began to experiment again with LSD, cubensis and other such hallucinogens, of which I have great respect.
I have recently been opened to the world of DMT (of which I have written about here) and am exited at the possibilities of combining it with dreaming herbs (much of which are compatible with DMT) and Implimenting my skills in navigating alternate dimensions that I have practiced for so many years in dreams.
Much love and light
L
I imagine it wasn't great, or parts of it at least.