i do take responsibility and realized that i must have attracted this to me on some subconscious level because of perhaps unresolved negativ emotions/energys, negative beleifs and vibrations of feeling bad, guilt, shame, past hurts, etc. and that the universe is allowing

it as a learning experience and as growth for the soul perhaps, perceptual apparatus and subjective interpretations, i dont think so my friend, we are all well aware that their is a whole other universe of realitys and beings, spirits, angels, demons, etc and im sure that most of us here can easily enough distinguish between this other reality and our own dreams, dillusions and hallucinations,

it is real and independant of my Self and that fact does not disempower me, as you can see i am taking appropriate action and seeking the guidance and support of enrolling my fellow man to assist me in this, i am refusing to be a victim and i am taking as much action on the pysical level as i possible can, but thanks anyway